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2007-10-31T20:50:00.000-07:00

2007-10-22T06:49:00.000-07:00

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th mor i look at this post, th mor vulgar and crude i feel i'm turnin to.. took it out.. every1 gt their frustrated and pissed moments i guess.. bt guess i prefer to vent it in th wrong way?

2007-10-21T08:52:00.000-07:00

updatin agn b4 i slp.. gettin kinda sick wid blogger le.. dunno iszit th skin or wat.. bt guess if my transfer to LJ is unsuccessful.. guess i'll cum bak here ba.. bt of cuz chngin th skin.. it suddenly looks so uh black to me? lols.. dun make sense..

juz looked through my op slides.. was quite horrible.. was lyk rehearsin myself la.. lyk tokin to myself lyk dat.. lols.. did op at rp today.. lols.. realise in th end ther were 2 other pw grps fr my class la.. so coincidental.. stil tnk rp's th best place for prj discussion (: tho sumtimes th ventilation sux lyk mad.. it makes u suffocate.. realise findin a backgrd or a theme cn b so frustratin and nerve wreckin la.. and oso to put th rite animations.. i neva knew ppt slides were so diff to make until nw..

had movie marathon ytd.. tho it was onli 2 movies la.. lols.. and finally aft million of cow yrs, i FINALLY managed to watch coach carter le! (: yayness! dat show is damn nice man.. 4.5 out of 5 stars.. love it (:

chi A's and OP comin nxt wk le.. kinda worried for my chi.. i neva one failed in my 17yrs of life and nw i failed for promos.. lyk omg la.. reli make me v worried bout my chi A's nxt mon.. haix.. reli wn 2 put in effort to study for chi bt sumhw my interest and passion for chi seems to haf die off reli badly.. is lyk countless of times i tel myself to pick up my chi bk to start studyin.. bt everytime it fails.. haix.. muz b tks to dat chi cher nw hu makes my passion die off wid her lessons la.. owel.. i muz pick myself up and study! for myself! no way am i gg retake chi nxt yr.. so fr today till 29oct 07: STOP PROCRASTINATING PHEBE!

oh.. and sth gd to share! we passed promos! (: yay! hopefully cn go up together..
*oh Lord tks alot, u showed to me dat hard work do stil pay off (:

alrighty.. shall end here le ba.. tis post feels so random.. lols..

2007-10-19T07:35:00.000-07:00

bak to update!
is been a reeal bz bt stil a v fun wk! (:

finally aft dunno hw many months of hard work.. th written report is officially fin! yayness! which means i'm 1 step closer to th end of prj work!(: happinness! no wndr ppl say prj work is neva ez to do.. 100% proven! juz wid dat friggin 3000word report.. wid dat.. 3000words feels lyk 300 onli..

went for sec2 adv camp ytd! was fun! i soo missed camps! took 2Devotion ytd! th best class agn.. lols.. bt yea, they were def mor receptive.. mor guys oso! trend shows: guys at a ltr age are gettin smarter nw! lols.. bt sadly, onli stayed wid them for bout 3/4 out of a 3day camp.. wished cld stay longer wid em.. bt i had sch th nxt day ): kinda missed al th hpt debriefs oso.. is been so long since i last did pumpings..

had oral presentation today.. wid no prep at al la.. bt at least it went ok.. th marker said i was v enthu and passionate when i tok.. lols.. muz b al th rah-rah th day b4 dat makes me high.. hahas.. bt stil, th same comment.. i tok lyk a bullet train.. sians.. lyk cn any1 teach me hw to tok slower.. seriously haf a bigg prob wid it.. is so contradictin when every1 says i'm slow and uh "retarded" (nt literal la! heh)? bt when it cums to tokin, hw cum i cnt b retarded and slow arh? tsktsk..

hopefully wil haf a gd wkend! no mor written report to stress! altho ther's stil chi and th remainin of prj work :/ bt yea.. hang on! 2mor wks and al will b OVER! (:

glad dat shina angela and youlong haf a second chance! jiayou ppl! we'll b al th way behind u guys! dun gif up!

bloggin's gettin mor and mor mundane..

2007-10-14T08:21:00.000-07:00

bak fr shoppin today! (: had uite a fufillin trip.. in th end managed to get myself 1 top and 2dresses.. lols.. kinda unimaginable.. phebe buyin dresses? bt i guess ppl do chng rite? and guess is time for a new chng le (: most funny thng was biught almost th same thng as twinaiai and at th same price.. hahas.. guess we're twinaiais for a reason (: we unknowingly wore th same shoes and eventually bought th same tops at 15bucks each.. which is of cuz v satisfyin and cheap! hahas.. best for th budget me.. (: they went kbox in th end which i didn't manage to go.. tho i was reli tempted to.. cuz is darn freakin cheap la.. half price summor! bt owell.. decided to b a gd girl since my parents haf been quite nice to me recently, lettin me stayin out late.. so yesyes.. shldn't take em for granted.. went hme alone.. bt reli fun to b hangin out wid them once in a while (: sad is didn't manage to take any photos wid em too..

paya lebar city plaza quite an ok place to shop.. sum thngs ther are relatively cheap.. bt note of advice.. dun go ther on sundays or mb ecn saturdays.. bad choice.. u go and u'll unds y.. lols.. bt th city plaza arnold's hse serves wonderful and reli finger-lickin juicy fried chicken.. tho is much mor ex than kfc bt guess every cent is kinda worthwhile.. at least i neva get sick of th fried chicken when i'm eatin it.. go go try!

sumtimes teachers and mb evn ur principal get so slow in replyin u.. i'm supposed to contact my principal bt sadly to say, ther's lyk nowher i cn find her email add la.. lyk evn th student handbk oso dun haf.. dat bk reli is sum useless thng man.. emailed my teacher and she's nt replyin me.. great.. so i'm left totally stranded.. dunno hw to contact my principal to tel her bout th camp.. lyk wat th HELL! =.=

guess i'll end here soon ba.. stil waitin for twinaiai for my LJ skin.. monday's a holiday for me! yay! lookin forward to tml (:

2007-10-13T05:15:00.000-07:00

th ppl! if u realise.. is almost girls:guys = 1:4!

best friends! (:

nice candid! (:

2007-10-13T05:03:00.000-07:00

wkend.. first time of th sat i actuali stayed mostly at hme and finally for dunno hw many centuries, i gt my afternoon nap (:
was feelin reli tired and headachy and went to slp..
at least nw, i'm feelin beta le.. th mood's gd.. bt th body's bad.. i'm startin to fall sick le..kept coughin nonstop.. :\

tnk i'm grwoin fatter agn,, keep eatin v nice food for th past few days.. ate steamboat at marina wid th ppl (: en had pepper luch wid my family ytd.. seriously.. u shld jz try th salmon pepper rice.. i tnk dat's th best man..

ajc open hse was alrite.. at least ther was a stream of ppl? bt hueva cums.. sch muz reli seem pathetic to them.. lols..

nt gg for th whole sec2 adv camp le.. :( my ajc principal dun allow.. sianx.. was actuali sooo lookin forward for th camp la.. owel.. tks to dat dreadful pw lo.. -.- sori twinaiai.. cldn't acc u and keep my promise ..

marina wid th ppl was fun (: tho we ate superb late tks to sum stupid bus and in th end we walked evn tho th bus finally came and we were onli a few metres away.. bt tks to th guys hu wanted their face.. we walked for a freakin half hour and we onli ate at 2030 la.. owell.. bt it was stil fun.. tks to kel hu started th soy sauce game agn.. in th end weihan, xp and i fell for it.. th naive lim ppl! lols.. had a taxi ride bak to th mrt and th taxi driver squeezed 14 of us al in.. guys were pilin on top of each other.. literally.. lols.. and th uncle's smart to earn 14bucks lyk dat..i shld teach my dad.. hahas.. missed tokin to th girls (: so lookin forward to tml.. meetin em on sunday for shoppin! yay! (: kinda lookin forward to it.. finally, my shoppin! i'm freakin deprived of it la.. lols..

started an LJ acc le.. bt guess is up to twinaiai to get my skin done.. was lookin for a personal pic to put for my yser pic and i realise i dun haf individual pics la.. lols.. th non-narcissitic phebe? (is this hw u say it) lols.. so yesyes.. twinaiai..guess u beta get a skin soon for me..b4 ur sch starts, if nt i doubt u'll haf th time le.. heh..

entry seems v cut here and ther today..al random tots flowin through.. dat explains y..

bball today wid u was fun fun fun! LOVES! (:

2007-10-09T07:34:00.000-07:00

felt beta today (: gd sign..

day was borin.. did nth except pw.. sumtimes it cn reli go crazy jz doin pw th whole day starin at th comp.. bt at least mor thngs are settled nw.. had farewell assembly rehearsal.. total waste of time..

day didn't turn out v gd to th end.. became kinda v troubled.. haix.. hopefully everyth wil turn out well.. bt we're prepared for th w0rst scenario to hpn.. (*crossing my fingers hopin our worst nightmare wun cum true :/ ) i'm scared.. reli v scared.. i reli dun wish to doubt, bt sumtimes, thngs dun turn out th way u wn it to b.. haix.. ):

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2007-10-08T07:36:00.000-07:00

): ): ): ): ): ):
ther's this overwhelming sadness and moodiness looming over me..
al i feel lyk doin is juz sit stone and cry..
wonder wat hpn to me..
oLord.. get tis dreadful feelin away

i hate monday blues ):

2007-10-07T09:34:00.000-07:00

makin a quick update b4 i slp.. guess ytd kinda tire my body out and hvn replenish bak th slp i nid.. feelin lethargic and tired today.. jz kept yawnin.. bt well.. at least ytd was total fun! 1 of th best day i spent al th way fr morn to night (:

well.. it was a special day ytd too :D

had hpt dry run.. decided to nt go for trng camp and go for sec3 adv camp instead.. since they reli urgently nid mor ppl for dat and oso.. hlp to satisfy my NYAA criteria and i cn miss quite alot of chi lessons! yayness! (: hahas.. so i'm lyk killin 3birds in 1 stone.. juz dat mb th submission of wr and checkin of my exam marks i wldn't b ther lo.. nvm.. i'm sure ther's frens out ther in my class dat's willin to check and make sure my marks are correct! (: had discussion 4 th camp afterwhich we had dry run.. quite fun.. wid reagen and jack as usual bein th jokers.. lols.. tnkin bak, is been reli long since i wore my red shirt and went for hpt activities le.. kinda memorable.. kinda lookin forward for th camp tho.. bt juz kinda afraid.. since ii've gotten a tad too rusty since is been a year since i took any class le.. bt yea, i'm excited! (: tho ther're sumthings, dat i reli dun wish to leave bhind durin th camp.. bt is onli 3days! 2nights actuali.. yupp.. ctrl! *soriforpissinuoffbyntdiscussinwidufirstbabysoridear4gifme

went dinenr wid 3blind mice and min at our fave yishun chicken rice bt surprisingly, cuz of my nauseatin feelin, didn't had appetite and ate fish soup wid anet (: tok and walked ard.. reminiscin bout th past and catchin up wid em since i've prolly miss sooo much within these 2,3 wks.. anet left and th 3 of us went chongpang to look for ultra thin material tracks which we manage to find.. hahas.. stil rmb th scene when twinaiai and i were so auntish while buyin th tracks.. bt hu cares bout image en.. hahas.. reli miss em alot.. been sooo long since i reli last went out wid em esp shoppin.. 2bad evn aft promos, ther's stil th dreadful pw and chi a's.. cldnt go shoppin wid em today ):

went do pw instead.. had prob wakin up.. realised aj ppl can b direction blind.. yesyes.. inclusive of me.. bt realise i wasn't th worst! hahas.. my 3 pw mates had prob walkin fr wds mrt to rp la.. tsktsk.. cn evn miss th busstuop when i'm sittin ther waitin for em.. hopeless.. in th end waited for em for lyk 50mins la.. they broke my record.. normally, is ppl wait for em and nt th other way round.. worst stil, they made me wait soo long la.. neva in phebe's 17yrs of life cn.. owell..

no sch tml agn (: yayness! bt sadly, ther's choir.. owell.. so long since i return to aj choir.. kidna missed th ppl.. and oso phs choir..

alrighty, gg slp soon le.. eyes gettin smaller.. shall cont tml ba.. bt th most excitin thng is, i went spca recently, and i FINALLY dared to touch dogs la.. lols.. cn u imagine whole 17yrs, tho i like dogs bt i juz ran away fr em cuz i like em yet scared of em at th same time.. lols.. ironies.. hahas.. and until nw, new skin's nt up yet.. agn no time..
!
so many thngs to do, so lil time!

2007-10-05T07:56:00.000-07:00

updated agn! hahas. for th 1st time in this yr.. 2nd post in a day! (: lols.. dat's th gd thing about post promos.. u gt mor time to use th comp.. lols. changin my blogskin alr tho.. finally la.. tnk this blogskin abits screwed.. so many ppl cnt c.. owell..

had a grrreeaaattt day today! (: and of cuz a great meal aft so long.. went to eat seoul garden wid my most fave person at taka.. went in. gt a shock.. ther was lyk so many sch students.. of cuz jc 1 la.. esp cj and sajc.. guess every1's celebratin th end of promos! (: which every1 supposed to b celebratin.. ahahs.. dat ardous and tormentous journey of muggin and catchin up ur work.. bt 1 gd thing is cuz of dat, ther's free slimmin! dat's th ONLI and best part of it.. lols.. anw.. had v nice seoulgarden which i neva eat for a v long time.. and we sat ther th longest. al th way fr 1 to 5.. and juz eatin and eatin.. oh no.. sinful.. al th fatness.. hahas.. bt at least was worth it.. wnder hw long since i ate..

I WAN GO SHOPPING!
i miss town damn much la... owell.

dunno y.. dun feel lyk bloggin long.. bt oso nth much. juz dat phebe's a very happy girl today! *grins fr ear to ear

2007-10-04T20:35:00.000-07:00

(: (: (: (: (: (:

PROMOS ARE OFFICIALLY OVER! *beams

finally.. dat long and lastin nightmare of mine is finally over.. ytd when my last chi papre ended.. i cldn't help bt kept smilin.. is been so long since i felt so carefree wid this hugh burden finally puttin dwn.. (: for th first time. i'm nt lamentin bout hw badly or hw ok i did for th papers.. cuz to me, it doesn't matter anymor.. this time.. i gave in al my best effort alr.. whether i pass or fail.. is al up to God..
hahas.. quite surprise i actuali type al dat.. guess i foinally c th light? complainin no use.. u stil haf 2 go through it.. enjoy it to th fullest and mke myself beta.. *ps.. bt ther wil stil b common rantin and complainins.. cuz i'm human aftal.. i nid to vent.. hehs..

spend a gd aft promos celebrations wid sum of my favourite and my most favourite ppl (: was gd.. al th jc ppl(well.. except ahma) gathered at cheyenne's hse today for a movie marathon (: gd! i like! watch movie and caught up wid them.. anet was damn funny.. she summarised th whole secret movie for me in 30mins.. showedme al th impt parts and try to make me unds th movie.. ahahs.. understood.. and tot was nice.. went hme cldn't take it and i watch agn.. effin nice! bt sad was i was wacthin alone in front of th comp at lyk unearthly hour of 1am.. bt actuali 1 person watch oso quite nice cuz when i was watchin i started cryin.. movie was touchin.. and omg.. their piano skills.. make me feel lyk juz learnin piano al over agn... okok.. noe i'm damn slow to watch secret till nw. bt guess time wasn't on my side en and my most fae person didn't haf time to watch wid me.. dat's y.. bt stil is ok.. (: at least i've watched, and i'm satisfied! (:

nw.. for wat to do list aft promos (:
1. mor time wid th most fave!
2. meet up wid min and twinaiai
3. meet up wid 2904 girls
4. catch up wid mel &joyce jies
5. meet up wid th 4f ppl esp tingyu &kitty
6. SHOPPING!
7. catch up my beauty slp
8. i nid th SUN
9. pw ):
10. chi A's

everyth seems perfect except 9&10.. which actuali i wish nt to do bt haf to. no choice.. dat last 2 wil determine part of my future mxt yr and th followin years to cum.. sianx.. dat's th sad life bout jc.. u cnt escape fr studyin. oya.. stil gt aj choir pracs.. owel.. carollin and concert comin le.. no choice.. bt at least i'm free fr th tormentous of muggin (: yay! :D

2007-09-17T18:19:00.000-07:00

bloggin agn in the midst of pw.. hahas.. dat's th bst part of prj work.. wher i cn juz slack and use th comp.. yesyes.. noe shld spend my time mor wisely esp when th promo exams lyk just 2wks away.. just had math lesson and i realise my basics evn sux.. cnt evn differentiate a 2mark qn.. is DAT bad.. owell..

a bad start 4 tis wk.. nths been gg reli wel this 2days.. and i concluded sth..
jc life = detrimental to health.. *agrees with both hands! is been reli taxin on every part of my body.. my head.. my brain.. my mentality and evn my dat huge amt of eye bags.. =.= ther's lyk total proof to it summor la.. been feelin reli sick.. absent fr sch last wk cuz i was so weak dat i almost fainted fr my cramps and mb juz cuz i simply haf no energy.. nxt day went to sch lyk sum weakling and i felt so sick la.. bt th worst thing i had no appetite.. didn't evn eat a meal bside a bowl of fake sharkfin soup and a pau for th whole day.. tried liftin th spoon to eat my dinner and my hands were evn shiverin.. neva experience lyk tis b4.. worst still.. nw i'm hvin a major headache dat's been gg on for these past 2 days.. i felt as if my whole head was explodin and images of my uncle suddenly havin a haemmoraghe is his brain (is dat hw u spell) u noe dat blood vessel burstin thing and en excessive bleedin.. yupp.. okok.. mb a lil too paranoid.. bt i'm phebe.. i AM paranoid.. summor at tis kind of time.. owell..

bt had a reli nice time on sun.. at least managed to catch up wid th ppl.. (: lols.. xp made a reli surprising bt yet and admirin confession or iszit supposed to b a bdae wish? lols.. bt yea.. hope u're feelin beta nw gurl.. dun wori.. wateva decision u make, we'll sppt u.. juz make sure is a wise and considerable decision ya? dun lyk to c dat traumatic u lyk dat time agn.. and my dear twinaiai.. dun wori, it'll b ur turn soon 2! (:

alrighty guess shall end here and get bak to doin my pw.. and oh.. my tagboard's owax damn screwed.. for dunno wat reaosn onli wid sch computers en u cn c.. so yea.. tks ppl.. noe i stil haf alot of gd frens pushin me on and encourgain me.. tks.. (:

gogojiayou jc ppl! we cn do it! (:

lols.. for once.. i sound optimistic.. c th sickness.. lols..

2007-09-09T08:32:00.000-07:00

ok.. i'm supposed to b lookin for my 3000word essay on stem cell research.. i dunno wat make me cum here.. guess i reli nid a break :/ so th rantin session starts agn..

is lyk this whole wk of holi i've been spendin almost my whole time studyin. why? cuz i dun wanna get retained.. simple.. i feel lyk i'm studyin as hard as i am for my prelims lyk just last yr and here am i studyin reli hard agn and tis time is nt bcuz i wanna do wel bt juz bcuz i wanna get promoted.. haix.. c th difference.. jc life reli = no life.. i feel so sick of studyin already.. reli cnt wait for al these to b over.. 4wks ltr and i cn fly! (hopefully)

i cld actucali get so retarded dat my book drop and it pressed th backspace button and it exited my whole online chem test.. wanted to redo bt they dun allow me cuz is a ONE attempt thing.. and great.. i'm gettin a straight zero 4 dat test cuz simple.. i wanted to attempt th qn and th "book" didn't allow me.. so now hu shld i blame.. th bk? aj for NT thinkin dat careless and butter fingers ppl lyk me wil accidentally drop sth dat wil click th backspace button and nt even do th test at al? or shld i juz blame myself for bein so retarded.. and for al those tests dat they neva count in major xams.. they gg count tis 1 for promos.. so let's see.. i've been failing al my tests this whole friggin term.. math bio and nw chem which i'll get a great fat zero.. yea.. life's so (NOT) great.. wow..

so nw every1's stressin me.. evn th teachers.. to em, al it matters is u pass their subj and en is ok if u fail th others.. y do they lyk to make it seem as if theirs is th most impt? selfish.. haf they eva spare a tot dat we nid to study other subj as wel? is nt as if i pass theirs wid a NICE A and i fail th others and i'll get promoted.. and wid ur form teacher actin lyk u're stil sum sec sch kid, u cnt hlp bt jz feel lyk explodin at her.. i promise i'll neva b lyk tis if i do bcum a teacher.. i'll b Understandin wid a capital UUU!

tnk tis 2yrs i bet i'll break dwn mor than any i did in my whole 16yrs of life.. is lyk juz tis wk i already broke dwn 3times.. nw u c hw stressful it cn get/.. onli thing i hope is i dun go hysterical and go mad and no white hairs or i'll freak.. lols..

so in another 6hrs time.. i'm bak to sch.. another torturous time.. cnt wait for this 4wks to quickly cum and quickly go..

i hate my sch life nw! ):
*i noe it sounds so childish.. ppl sayin hate here hate ther.. and th nxt day everyth wil b fine.. bt nw, i mean it literally.. had enuff of al these.. oh God, juz let this 2yrs or evn this yr juz quickly pass..

2007-09-01T23:44:00.000-07:00

pri sch frens (:

twinaiai (:

bestf! (:

2904 = lemon barley lovers :]

random SL concert.. aj choir

sth i'm super proud of u! (: and dat last word meant champion! (:

hey.. i'm nt lyk eve.. no photoshop skills.. nt lyk cheyenne.. no camera skills.. so dat's y is so bad.. oops.. hee..

2007-09-01T23:21:00.000-07:00

supposed to do my pw nw.. bt guess i wanted a break fr al those 300 words so decided to update.. th hols are finally here (: yay! finally cn catch up wid sum of my slp le.. bt th sad thing is ther's neva endin workload of things to do.. dat's th prob wid teachers and hols.. they tnk wid hols, u gt lyk 24000000000000000 million billion hours a day.. and they simply juz throw this huge amot of work to u expectin u to do al ur work.. wth la.. hello.. ther's reli lots of revisions i nid to do to seriously catch up wid my work la.. haix.. so many things on my mind.. th worry of gettin retained is gettin upon me mor and mor.. i dunno y.. i juz feel reali scared.. and 1 thng bout th hols is when it ends, it juz 3wks away fr my promos and this wil determine my life and death le.. i noe is exaggeratin. bt in a way it reli does la.. owell.. i cn soon c th white hair sproutin out.. :/
okok.. shall stop rantin on and on bout hw jc life reli sux le.. shall tok bout happy stuff (:

skipped sch and went phs on fri.. saw so many ppl (: tink i tok mor to th students than to th teachers.. bt those teachers dat i missed out tokin to on mon wasn't ther on fri either.. esp ms haq.. tried callin her bt her no was number error??? as usual.. is owax fun to catch up wid th 29o4 ppl! (: i reali miss them alot man.. juz sat ther ate tok and camwhored.. th best thing was for th past 3days.. i went out wid sum of them.. so it reli made me happer too (: left first.. and in th evenin.. went to find my pi sch frens for dinner.. and 1 gd thing bout 6/11 is dat tho we mayb already far apart fr each other's worlds.. bt every teacher's day we'll def make it a pt to meet up.. (: hahas.. i feel lyk we're as if th cowherd and weavin maid.. once in a yr.. lols.. sum ppl changed.. esp sum guys.. shot up lyk anyth.. sitl laughin at their ht last yr and this yr thet're so much taller than me le.. lols.. ok la.. mb onli 1 reli grew taller.. th others haf a long way to go stil.. hahas.. bt is owax nice catchin up.. and we celebrated siying's bdae agn.. this lucky girl.. owax get ehr pri sch frens to celebrate for her.. lols..

didn't manage to make it to play bbl wid th 29o4 ppl.. ): quite sad bt dun haf a choice cuz i reli gt lots of work to catch up.. i'm actuali startin to feel guilty to c al my time wasted lyk dat.. owel.. th study stress reli drives ppl crazy man.. bt at least gt to eat a reli reali gd dinner last nite! (: yummy! dat "i cn make u fly" ducks! as usual.. simplt delicious.. bt tis time didn't reli fly when i was queuein up saw hw th ducks were bein killed.. their eyes were poked through and then u c th way th chef break their neck fr their bodies u cn feel for th duck man.. bt sitl.. th duck's nice.. and i'll cont eatin provided i dun look at them bein killed th nxt time.. hee..

alrighty.. tnk shall end here le.. gg off to slp le.. gave up on my calendar.. owel.. shall post sum photos ba.. lyk finally..

welcum holidays! and welcum th stress! :/

dear daddy mummy.. i'm sori for losin my temper.. sori 4 bein such a naughty girl.. pls forgive me.. just wanna say i'm reli sori to th both of u.. sori for hurtin u.. :/

2007-08-27T18:08:00.000-07:00

supposedly hvin prj work nw.. bt none of my grp members in th mood to discuss.. lols.. al doin their own stuff.. owell.. so tot of comin to blog.. went to my blog and realise is been a reli reli loong time since i blog.. no wonder it explains th reason for th stagnanted visitors.. mguess any patient soul wil get impatient oso since i take lyk friggin loong to update.. well.. wid al th bz schdule.. al th remainin time u haf.. al u do is juz feel lyk slpin.. no wonder they say dat jc is soo no life.. *agrees totally wid 2hands up..

hvin dreadful bio spa ltr.. haf no idea hw to study for it.. realise al i do is juz keep dozin off when studyin evn tho i slept lyk finally an afternoon nap ytd.. totally nt productive la.. owel.. bt at least had quite an eventful wkend.. upload sum photos if i haf th time nxt time.. ytd ajc had teacher's day celebration.. kiasuism.. nw.. dun evn noe if i cn make it in time on fri to c th ppl.. :/ i miss them alot.. went bak ytd wid sum 4faith ppl.. manage to tok to a few teachers.. saw th classroom, felt v melancholic..m iss th timeswhen i juz nsit in class and listen to th teachers or juz simply lay my heavy head on th table and juz slp.. nw.. haf 2 keep walkin about.. feelin mor and mor stressed up as th time passed.. dat neva endin pile of hw.. ok.. sori.. i'm rattlin non stop bout hw jc life sux agn.. owell..

shall chng topic and tok bout th wkends! (: had sum flag day thing b4 rushed dwn to sppt him for his national tkd comp.. seriously, tkd reali a v rough sport... no offence horx.. bt th way i c them fight reli scares me.. sum evn fight till their nose bleed la.. and ya his ankle was as swollen as pig trotters?! wid bruises al over.. cldn't stay for th whole tkd comp cuz had sum stupid SL concert ): concert was alright bt th dinner sux..th audience was so solemn durin th concert.. choir over ther zi high.. lols.. received news fr him dat he gt into finals (: was reli happy for him.. en b4 went up to perform.. realise he won 1st.. (((: was super super proud of him.. (: so tzai! (: dat neva eva givin up spirit of his.. (:
went hme in th nite and sis told me dat mel jie mum's passed away.. was super super shocked.. and felt sad for her.. cuz th nxt day was actuali her bdae and such a thing had to hpn to her.. life's reli unpredictable.. :/

went churhc as usual and en decided to go mel's mum wake to pay her a visit.. lost my way agn as usual =.= seriously.. i reli haf probs wid directions man.. no wonder i'm 1 of th three blind mice.. lols.. in th end manage to find her place.. my sis was already ther.. was surprised 2c dat it was a christian wake cuz mel's family supposed to b buddhist.. realise fr mel dat th whole family didn't evn noe she was a christian cuz she was hidin it al along b4 th day she die.. felt quite happy for her mum.. at least i noe dat she's sumwher in heaven (: tried cheeirn mel up bt she's reli strong.. manage to pick up enuff courage to look at her mum.. was quite scary la.. bt felt reli sad at th same time.. bt mel's reli strong.. went waterfest aft dat (: fun! (: saw sum stars of china doin sum water skiing stunts.. damn cool la.. bt cldn't play those water boats cuz i didn't bring xtra clothes.. wakeboardin is seriously cool!

phebe went hme a v v happy girl dat day ((:

alright.. tnk shall end here.. my frens complainin dat my blog's lyk an essay.. hahas.. no choice.. i onli blog lyk once in awhile.. so pour out al at 1 time.. last wk of th term b4 th hols are here.. dunno whether if i shld b lookin forward to it :/ is nt reli hols oso.. muggin al th way for my promos.. well.. hopefully i cn reli study dat's th thing..

wish dat i cn c th ppl on fri!

2007-08-19T06:26:00.000-07:00

multitaskin abit while doin my pw.. i wonder if my blog is stil uh.. see-able? since soo many ppl told me that trhey cnt view my blog.. guess muz b th blogskins prob.. haix.. dat's th prob of usin other ppl's blogskins.. they hang up on u anytime they wn.. dat's y is th best to trust urself.. bt sad to say.. i haf no single clue hw to do a friggin blogskin la.. =.= besides i dun evn haf time to do it.. th onli reason i cn blog nw is cuz i'm waitin for my frens to fin up wid th prj work written report b4 i cn go and continue wid my work.. lots and lots of work.. mountainful ):

i'm so afraid of th coming sep hols.. it means dat th promos are comin near.. feelin so scared about it.. my work's lyk shit nw.. and is makin me reli v v discouraged.. tried to do al th tutorials.. and i neva noe hw to do.. in th end spent wasted soo much of my time.. stress reli amountin to me.. higher and higher.. sumtimes i juz feel lyk givin up and juz gg to poly.. forget al bout jc.. so no life.. so stressful.. so no fun.. it juz makes sum1 go crazy.. ):

broke dwn v v badly on fri night while doin chem.. felt so stressful.. ylka l dunno hw to do.. worse.. ask my teacher le.. she went through the whole tutorialwid me.. i went hme and i stil dunno hw to do ): haix.. my mum gt a shock seein me cry.. she tot wat hpn to me.. she tot i had bgr prob la.. lols.. initially didn't bliff dat it was due to my stress.. bt at least nw she unds.. well.. hopefully i'll b able to go through.. every1's feelin th stress.. so yesyes.. shld stop self pityin myself.. well.. gd form of self denial :/ gogojiayou phebelimlixuan!

went for fireworks festival ytd wid th 29o4 ppl (: LOVES! nice bondin time wid them.. missed th ppl alot.. hahas.. shipmate esp him.. v v long neva reli c him and tok to him le.. at least nw his face is beta bt stil as un retarded as eva.. hahas.. his high pitch voice.. and he's damn zi lian nw.. lols.. oops.. hopefully he wun kill me if he sees la.. hees.. bt fireworks aren't v nice.. wasn't reli worth th 1& half hour wait wid lots of air pollution of smoking.. =.= i tink i'm gg crazy.. i actuali evn tot of gg to esplanade lib studyin while waitin for th fireworks.. cldn't imagine th amt of time wasted while waitin.. u c.. stress reali drives u crazy.. :/ admire th poly ppl.. 2wks mor of xams and they gt a whole 1mth 3wks to themselves.. *envious envious! sumtimes.. i do haf second tots gg to jc.. ok.. make it most of th time..

didn't manage to catch a movie wid th ppl cuz well.. i haf strict parents.. lols.. bt at least ther's anet to acc me till tpy.. managed to find a seat and slept through th whole journey..

is bak to sch tml agn.. haix.. another 5days of "torture" b4 i cn get another break.. bt tnkin agn.. ther's neva no break.. i haf to keep runnin th race to catch up wid the rest.. bt yesyes.. tryin to fight till th end and hold on.. i dun wanna b 1 yr bhind everybody if i go to poly.. it juz dun make sense to me.. owel..

gogojiayou phebelimlixuan! gogojiayou dd! hees..

twinaiais (:

too bad didn't get to take a photo wid min.. threesome! (: no choice.. anet said sth bout durin 7th mth th center person wil b damn unlucky.. lols.. love th twinaiai.. love th threesome.. love th three blindmice! love th 29o4!

2007-08-08T09:45:00.000-07:00

came bak at 12midnight and realised is 9aug today!

HAPPY BDAE SINGAPORE! (:

hahas.. kk.. well.. feelin damn tired rite nw.. cnt wait for my hair to dry b4 i head to th bed.. out for th whole day.. bt yea.. quite an eventful national day eve tho..

started off the day to sch.. (lyk duh) was feelin kinda tired bt 1 happy thing to cheer about.. i gt brownies for breakie! (: hahas.. bt ate in in sweat la.. was rushin to th mrt station cuz i left my hse lyk 5mins late so nid to catch dat stupid train.. as usual had ndp ceremony.. and omg.. it totally sux.. evn their ceremonial music is sum recorded de la.. and th recollections part.. they dun evn coordinate 2gtr.. =.= tnk phs 1 is sososo much beta.. started reminiscin bout th past.. th parade etcetc.. started off wid aj race wich i dunno y was it evn a race la.. ther's lyk onli 2 stations.. tasks were stupid.. sun qn and ans stuff.. SHE went alng wid us which totally spoil my day.. make us wait for her summor la.. hello.. we're supposed to b in a race =.= (apparently).. 1 of our task require us to take a class photo.. purposely ask every1 to cum in except her& ask her to take.. which SHE dun evn noe hw to operate a camera properly la.. in th end gavin was so pissed he juz went to take.. retarded.. last station was at amk hosp.. al of us bz findin clues she juz sat ther lyk nobody's business and read her prs till she saw th principal approachin en she quickly keep her papers and act as if she so enthu bout th whole thing.. hypocritical fellow.. tks to u.. i've been usin quite a few fcuks here and ther.. seein u juz make me pissed.. hearin u teach juz make me slp and irritated.. stupid SHE.. if it was mrs alice teo.. everyth wld b sooo diff.. i totally (dun)love SHE.. well.. shldn't waste too much of my blog space &time bloggin bout sum stupid SHE dat's nt worth bloggin bout.. well at least aft th ajrace things gt beta.. went to an aircon class and started switchin on th mp3 and my fren gt so enthu she took an umbrella and dance rhihanna's umbrella la.. lols.. damn hilarious.. make me tot of a game.. ask em play zhong ji mi ma and huever gets it hafta go out and dance.. well.. tot everyth was save for me till th last game.. i kenna la.. and had to dance jolin's Mr Q.. lols.. had no idea wat to dance and th onli thing i did was shake.. =.= had concert aft dat en everyth ended.. while waitin for ij's race to end, played bball wid my class.. kinda fun tho.. bt stil missed th times when th 29o4 play wid th guys at dat khatib bbal court.. went bugis had lunch and dat was th hottest lunch eva man.. i sweat till i feel as if i was bathin la..

see see see.. th effects of globalwarmin.. weather was friggin hot th whole day! quickly rushed hme and chng b4 gg to phs carnival.. came out fr th bathroom was already sweatin lyk madcow la.. stupid weather.. stupid globalwarmin.. quick quick! save th trees!

saw ahma and fiona.. as usual.. ahma wid her lots of criticizin comments.. and is owax me la.. dunno wat's her prob.. juz a piece of cloth.. if nt cloth en hair.. if nt hair.. en my brains.. she owax haf sth bad to say bout me.. sumtimes reli wndr iszit she suffered too much criticism in sec1&2 and nw she's takin revenge? bt y owax me.. juz bcuz i dun argue bak? wadeva.. phs carnival was alright.. nt many stalls oso.. pity those ppl in th sun watchin th march past and those standin ther.. th sun was soo hot it looks as if they're glowin la.. lols.. saw most of th 29o4 oso.. bt well.. didn't manage to spend much time wid them oso.. see them here and ther.. haix.. had to rush of for church anniversary.. had my dinner drippin sweat agn.. active sweat glands.. lols..church service as usual.. aft dat went newton circus for supper.. for th 1st time wasn't interested in gg.. was feelin damn tired le.. bt stil when th food came.. i juz ate.. hahas.. hokkien mee, fishball soup, fried oyster eggy, bbq chicken wings, satay &lime juice.. wat u expect.. i'm phebe la.. (:

took 960 which was friggin long.. almost an hr journey.. dun evn noe y my dad wanna take bus instead of th mrt which is lyk so near fr th newton hawker oso.. owel.. was quite pissed while takin th bus.. soo many inconsiderate ppl hu dun move in la.. is lyk a long bus and stil nt enuff space cuz those bak ppl juz stay ther lyk sum retards.. was so extreme till th bus driver had to ask th passenger tap th card infront and go to th bak to take th bus la.. =.= owell..

*well.. saw most of ual 2day and i was reli v happy tho ual might tink otherwise since i didn't spend much time wid ual durin th carnival.. was quite hurt by sum of ur comments tho it may cum as no harm.. still.. i'm phebe.. i'm a gurl.. and i'm sensitive.. bt i juz hope ual wil unds.. is nt ez hvin to balance both frens and bf at the same time.. i cnt possibly hv th best of both worlds.. wat's mor my bf is nt in th clique sort of a thing.. and i cnt possibly leave him ther alone and join ual.. i'll feel reli bad.. tho i reli oso wish to spend time wid u guys since is a lonng time i did.. ok.. i admit.. i neva reli lyk hangin out wid both frens and bf at th same time.. is reli nt ez 4me.. well.. both of u pp are impt to me.. dunno y i'm tellin ual al these.. bt well.. jz wanna clarify things and wat sum of u say kinda hurt me in a way or another? jz hope sumtimes ual cn b mor understandin towards me ya?.. is neva ez to balance both.. owell.. wonder al dat i'm sayin wil ual unds.. bt evn if ual dun nw.. i bliff one day ual wil get to unds eventually..

&yes.. i stil love th 29o4 clique! (:

2007-08-07T09:15:00.000-07:00

is lyk 1am in th morn of national day's eve and i'm stil awake??!! lols.. wonderin y in th 1st place am i awake.. is nt as if i dun haf 2 wake up at 6am tml.. stil HAF TO la.. summor 1 whole long day.. so many progs tml bt th best thing is I DUN HAF 2 STUDY! yayness! (: lyk finally.. 5days of break.. hopefully la.. tho ther's stil project work written report which i'm gettin damn stressed and frustrated over it at th same time ): prob: my grp and my tots dun click.. or mb is juz 1 person.. bt bcuz of dat we owax get into "conflicts".. dun unds.. ther's lyk sooo many details nid to out inside th written report bt he juz dun c it.. arrrgh! saw th written report he collated.. lyk dun he edit or sth =.= feel so frustrated juz tokin bout it .. haix.. owel.. dat's wat hpn when ppl work 2gtr.. conflicts wil def arise de.. haix.. well.. bt guess every1 juz wants th best of our written report (hopefully)

tml's 1 of th days i've been lookin forward for! phs nite carnival! (: hahas.. hopefully wil b able to c lots of ppl.. esp th 29o4 girls.. miss em alot! bt bt.. sad thing is i nid to go off early )))): haf church anniversary exactly on dat day.. hopefully i wun look out of th place in formal attire.. i tink i shld jz chng out when i leave fr th carnival.. owell.. c hw tml..

anw.. aj's ndp prog is BORING! lyk sum aj race tml which is kinda retarded.. ther's lyk uh onli 2 stations u go to and en u're supposed to cum bak =.= summor is ard khatib amk area which is sooo near my shc.. might as wel dun play la.. and sum mini concert.. boring.. owell.. ~~bt is aj u're tokin bout anw~~ .. shhh.. tnk i shld stop sayin already.. lols..

alrighty.. shall end here and get sum slp b4 i look lyk a panda tml! nitenite!

2007-08-04T08:56:00.001-07:00

well.. for th first time in lyk dunno hw many million days i'm actually updating my blog concurrently for 2days.. lols..

well.. was supposed to do my written report in limitations and solutions for my event bt nw,.. i'm hvin a mental block aft i tot of three limitations.. so in th meantime, i decided to cum and update since nw my brain's th 1 dat has its limitations of tinkin a limitation for me.. ok..does it evn make sense? aiya wadeva..

didn't reli do much today except sum studyin.. at least manage to get sum hwk done.. (define done.. done = effort put in to TRY to do th tutorials and assignment bt either is stuck halfway or is not ~~DONE~~finish) yaya.. so my hwk for th wkends are almost "done" in a way.. well.. bt at least i tried.. is nt i dun wanna do, is dat i CNT do la.. al stuck halfway or my ans so diff fr th supposedly ans fr th tutorial and evn lookin at al my workings 100 or even 1000 times i stil cnt find wher i went wrng.. tsktsk.. reality call.. is jc.. dat's th onli way to self-comfort myself :/

was clearin up my mountainful of 150plus of new emails and saw THIS dat min sent me! (yes min, noe u gonna say lyk omg.. i send this to u lyk sooo long ago! lols) bt sori.. cnt blame no time to open.. saw these photos reli make me reminisce the past.. i miss th times when we juz sit and tok at thkhatib playgrd.. at th khatib bball court.. playin bball.. tokin on th phone wid ahma till late late in th nite.. or even gg shoppin together.. i miss em al.. is been loong since th last time went out shoppin or evn sittin and tok or evn playin ball 2gtr.. my bff! uh.. min.. wat's bff by th way? best fren fren? lols.. i lyk bgf beta! BEST GIRLFRIENDS! (: hee..

and this..

I MISS TH 2904 GURLS 2! v v long since i saw th whole gang.. last time was at least 3wks ago.. hopefully wil get to c em at phs carnival.. wid al th clash schdules and so lil time.. is so diff.. nw, th canteen scene of dat $1 plate of maggie mee dat cheyenne and anet owax buy and every1 gulpion up their food nt wantin to b last seems so vividly in my head..

okok.. supposed to b sum random update and it became a melancholic post.. =.= bt yes.. i reli miss my secondary sch life.. sec2 and sec4 esp.. suddenly i wish dat i cn juz go bak to o's.. it seem so much easier and happier and less stress free en..

2007-08-03T09:10:00.000-07:00

yesyes.. updating this cobwebbed blog of mine le.. well.. jz waitin for dat honey grilled chicken and fishball soup to b digested b4 i head to th bed.. i'm feelin damn tired nw.. eyes are lyk about to cloe bt for th sake of fatness i shldn't slp nw.. ironically, eatin at lyk 12midnight ain't gonna make u any much slimmer oso.. bt well.. th stomach's empty and growlin.. wat do u expect a dinner at lyk 5.30pm.. confirm wil hungry de la.. lols..

went for meetin today.. v v long neva go bak le.. realise my sense of direction is gettin worst la.. i actuali gt lost at amk central tryin to find amk park macs =.= cnt evn bliff dat i cld b so blind.. i'm lyk studyin at yck which is lyk soo near to amk central and wat's mor amk park for lyk uh.. 5yrs and countin.. such a failure la.. no wonder i'm one of th three blind mice! lols.. bt meetin was quite fun? well.. i do miss hpt.. is been a loong time since i last went bak.. so yupp.. interestin meetin today.. lols.. bt ya.. prog comin up which i cnt wait to.. well.. dunno if is safe to say it publicly. so shall remain as it is first.. lols..

well.. so this whole wk is juz lessons and mor lessons and of cuz addin to dat never endin pile of hw... seriously i wndr when's th day when i cn actuali fin al my hwk which is non-exclusive of al the mountains and mountains of revision dat i've yet to do for promos.. stress stress stress.. scared scared scared.. in my whole 17yrs of life i've neva once been soo afraid dat i wun get promoted and gt 2 retain.. and en nw, i totally feel it.. no way am i gg to waste this 1yr dat i've gone through.. wat's mor is a damn freakin tough 1yr.. quick quick.. jz let al this b over.. 1 semester down.. 3mor to go & i'll b free!

choir's confirm gg italy nxt yr for th comp.. hvin mixed feelings.. tis competiton is damn prestigious and damn tough.. standard's lyk world choir olympic or even higher.. and is mr kwei takin us nw.. i wonder hw th pracs wil b man.. tnk of al these reali deterrin me fr gg wat's mor th cost is 3K for 8pathetic days onli.. so is reli damn nt worth it.. bt th gd thing is th teacher say we'll prolly go to venice, milan or even SWITZERLAND! omg.. switzerland.. 1 of my dream country and 1 of my unfufilled dying wish! bt wid 5days of competition down.. 2days of travellin bak and fro down.. ther's lyk onli 1day left la.. cn visit al these countries meh? their distances aren't lyk wds and semb la.. owell.. shall c if ther's subsidies for me nt.. if nt guess i juz haf 2 forgo th trip? :/

oh and my chi lyk crap.. tks to my new chi teacher.. seriously.. she haf a prob of teachin la.. dunno y.. her teachin style juz dun suit me or i juz haf a prob of clickin wid her.. i get so turn off at every chi lesson.. i dun unds.. y u nid lyk mor than 1wk juz to mark 24 chi compos.. alice teo onli took lyk th wkend which is lyk 2days and hers is oso v detailed.. wndr how "detailed" urs cn b la since u take lyk mor than 7days.. wat the =.= and she does irrelevant stuff dat's totally nt gg help me pass my A lvl chi wid an A or B la.. haix.. losin confidence in chi tks to her.. sum secondary teacher tryin to teach in jc.. plz la.. reality! i miss alice teo.. wun 4gif her 4us throwin us to sum cheena teacher hu cnt teach ):

owell.. guess is enuff of al th complaints.. oh and i reallie sth whish reli agree wid wat min say in her blog.. ur frens cnt experience th kind of stress dat u're gg through unless they're in th same plight as u.. i mean in terms of schs la.. well.. bt humans are lyk dat.. we juz tnk dat we're th most pitiful creature.. owell.. bt at least an assurin thing to noe is dat frens wil continue to b ther for u evn when u're in th same or diff schs (: and dat's th best part.. so yesyes.. happy to c at least eve anet kailing today! cnt wait for wed to cum! (: 29o4 <3!

shall end here ba.. long post to keep u guys gg.. stil haf lots of work to do.. haix.. quick let this 2yrs juz pass.. ):

2007-07-29T08:58:00.000-07:00

photos agn (:

went to spore crocs farm.. tho it was reli small&quite uh unspottable bt stil v cool! 1st time i gt sooo close wid th crocs (:

those are sports wheelchairs.. damn diff fr normal ones

dat's dr william tan if u cn recognise..

see.. i told u so.. hee..

anw.. went for disabled national track&field comp dat day(lyk 2sats ago) for pw.. enrichin experience if u c them run.. esp those intellectually disabled.. al they wn is to fin runnin th race and dat makes them a winner.. so diff fr normal track&field meet.. sumtimes.. bein ignorance& nonchalent of th things ard u cn b a bliss.. went spore croc farm aft dat.. love dat day! 10hrs (((:

anw.. dat's sum bio experiment dat's damn cool.. is to test for ascorbic acid in orange.. wil decolourise th blue thingy away if it reli concentrated.. the blue thing is actuali agar la.. damn cool!

2007-07-29T08:50:00.000-07:00

juz went to my blog and realise my photos cldn't b seen? wonder iszit juz my computer's prob or blogger's? so nice ppl hu do visit my blog leave me a tag or sth to noe if the photos are seenable? tks (:

anw.. juz makin a short update b4 packin up to slp.. a start of a new wk tml agn ): hw fast time flies.. esp th wkends.. bak to a bz wk agn.. life cn reli b so routined. juz fin up my conclusion for my written report for my prj work which i felt lyk i was writin total crap.. seriously, my conclusion doesn't feel lyk a conclusion and ther are parts missn here and ther la.. feel so clueless about it :/

anw i dunno y i'm bloggin oso.. juz bloggin i guess.. bt has quite a gd bondin time wid min eve yx vic and jy on sat.. at least we finally meet up aft so long.. tho venue was reli v troublesome initially bt stil at least everyth ended up well (: tho cldn't go over to min's hse to ton.. owell..

oh ya.. my dad's hp bill juz came which amounted to 200plus bcuz of th huge amt i accumluated in thailand.. which is lyk 16o plus i tink.. gt a heart attack when i saw th bill la.. lyk omg.. i cldn't bliff i spent so much.. i felt lyk i was cheated.. didn't noe bout al th connection call charges and everyth.. arrgh.. it juz sux.. nw, hafta fork out money to pay for it.. 160bucks.. bt well.. at least my fren's payin for me sum cuz she used it too la.. so lesser burden.. bt stil is ALOT.. imagine i cn use this amt of money 2buy th shoes dat i seriously nid.. my 2pairs of slipper and shoes juz broke la.. wth.. =.=

owell.. enuff of complainin.. shall end here.. random post agn.. lols..

2007-07-27T10:09:00.000-07:00

ok.. summor pictures..

i swear i'm gg to learn hw to tie this hair.. sumhw..

uh.. dun mind th picture.. we're juz being bored.. oops..

my hotel room's toilet.. makeup session! i mean aft.. lols..

dat's my hotel room! bt dun mind th messy bed.. hee..

fadee and i in th bus..

was sittin near th window seat when comin bak.. u gt 2 admit.. th clouds are reali damn nice! (:

dat's my aeroplane food.. bt dat's when i comin bak to spore..

my grp members! (:

dat's their beach dat's lyk apparently IN th compund of th hotel.. cool rite?

fadee.. carol.. josephine.. phebe! ((:

kk.. dat's al for th photos.. gg off le.. blogged 1 of th longest time today.. yayness! hee (:

2007-07-27T09:57:00.000-07:00

well.. i'm nt so mean la.. write so many.. neva put any photos.. hahas.. bt i took wid my hp cam cuz dun dare bring th digi cam to thailand.. scared i'll lost it.. hees

mine's th Polo 1.. told u mine's th smallest! hahas.. damn cute rite? hees..

uh.. dat's my aft lunch.. 4gt to take b4 dat.. bt th food's stil disgustin..

josephine.. fadee.. phebe! (:

dat's their runway and dat aeroplane actuali damn cute! gt cartoons drawn on it.. and rite "now everyone cn fly" lols..

angela.. carol.. phebe! (:

their baggage collection area.. bt th main thing's th art pieces..

their sunset damn cool la..

2007-07-27T08:23:00.000-07:00

finally.. and finally.. i'm updatin this cob-webbed dusty or wadeva u wanna say dead blog of mine.. well.. i checked th last day i updated my blog and it says 7july 2007.. so exactly 20days ltr i'm updatin agn.. so ya.. this time my blog's gonna b damn long.. bt anw.. i doubt any1 reli cums and read oso since this blog haf been dead for soo long.. hmm..

well.. since i'm bloggin means i'm bak fr thailand le.. lyk duh.. hahas.. owell.. th thailand trip was kinda hmm.. meaningful bt at th same time was reali veri sickenin and frustratin.. bt overall.. is stil an experience gained (:

well.. didn't go to sch on dat thurs 12/07/07.. a day dat i was reli lookin forward to cuz well.. finally aft sooo many days of choir pracs i'm finally flyin over al th way to thailand to sing! hahas.. and well.. first time gg myself without any1 reli v close so ya.. was an experience.. tks for sendin me to airport dat day! reli v v happy (((: hee.. well.. as usual.. haf a phobia for aeroplanes takin off.. bt thai airways.. experience was reli bad.. al bcuz SQ haf no nice timings la.. so in th end had to take thai airways.. juz stepped into th plane and cld smell this uh weird smell dat reli gave me a headache.. had a bad feelin.. when th plane took off fr th grd was screamin lyk crazy.. well..uh as usual.. public embararssment agn.. lols.. bt is in cnt blame circumstances.. if u were ther to xperience hw th pilot takes off u'll unds oso la.. seriously.. is reli bad.. landin was as bad.. i wonder hw he lands.. i felt lyk th plane was headin for a nosedive.. it landed wid a LOUD thud on th grd summor.. i felt lyk pukin at dat moment.. bad bad experience.. and fr dat time i swear dat i'll neva eva take thai airways.. evn valuair is sooo much beta la..

gt to bangkok airport.. i felt lyk i was in m'sia.. th airport was of cuz nt as nice as spore.. bt was stil alright? juz dat th queuin to stamp ur passport is exactly lyk queuin in m'sia custom to get bak to spore lyk dat.. bt th cool thing is they gt this camera and u muz take a pic wid it.. hahas.. was tnkin of wat funny pose.. bt in th end gave up and juz look at th camera.. i cnt keep actin stupid rite? hee..

waited for our baggage and went to th bus.. oh ya.. my luggage was lyk th smallest la.. every1 was soo amazed at th size of my luggage and they ask me hw i pack.. lols.. their luggages lyk th lightest is 9. sth kg and heaviest lyk 16? bt guess wat.. mine's onli 4.5! hahas.. c.. th gd thing bout hpt.. those campings wil teach u hw to pack properly.. hahas..

went up to th bus.. and off we go to pattaya.. manage to cal dd (: for awhile wid th international callin card.. bt seriously fadee and i shared and paid 5bucks each and we cld onli tok for 13mins in total.. so pathetic la.. well.. fast forward al those bus journey thingy.. bt this whole travellin reli made me v tired.. fr morn 10plus till night 9plus.. imagine almost 12hrs of travellin... gt to th hotel lyk finally and it was reli quite nice.. went up to my room.. open th door and it looks damn scary.. didn't noe fadee was afraid too.. hahas.. in th end ask th guys to hlp us go in to on th lights.. lols..went dwn for dinner and bak to rm.. tok to fadee till lyk 3plus in th morn.. and th nxt thing i was voiceless.. die! th choir comp th nxt day and i lost my voice.. bad bad..

rmb dat day was fri th 13 and was reli damn unlucky for me.. received quite a bad and urgent news in spore and gt so worried and distracted and moodless dat i cldn't evn eat a proper breakie.. and worst.. my slipper broke la.. tsktsk.. so had to drag my feet wid th broken slipper wherever i go.. no time to rush bak up to my rm to chng to shoes.. felt reali veri irritated.. haix.. so well.. was juz prac prac and mor prac.. bt at least cld feel dat we were soundin gd so felt mor assured (: had choir exchng at th hotel lobby wid mjc and nus choir too..

so day 3 was competition day.. th day dat al of us haf been lookin forward for.. calm and composed.. woke up damn early dat day to get my breakie and do my make up.. guess every1 was gettin th jitters.. mr toh told us sth bout willpower while we were waitin for our turn.. tink it reli make lots of sense.. sth lyk if u dun set ur mind to it and overcome those nervous wreckage dat u're hvin and succumb to it.. en u're gonna regret it for th rest of ur life.. well.. mb rest of ur life seems too strong a word bt ya.. is kind of a once in a lifetime for me to participate in an international choral competition summor overseas.. what's mor al those hard work we put in.. of cuz we wld wn th gold dat al of us haf been strivin hard for.. finally our turn.. al of us said our prayers and gave each other hugs b4 gg in.. and we finally sang fin! (: th process of singin was kinda scary.. seein so many diff international judges.. i recalled i was shiverin when i was singin summor.. lols.. sat for a few mor choirs.. sum of them were reli gd espp those fr philippines.. omg.. they cn reli sing man.. was awestruck when i hear their voices bt fr this i cum to a conclusion dat fat or uh nice word bigger size ppl (lols) haf big diaphragms to sing dat well..

aft dat went for lunch and en shoppin b4 we cum bak to hear th results agn.. they brought us to a shoppin mall and was kinda disappointed cuz was reli lookin forward to shoppin.. th prices ther was almost lyk spore.. saw no pt in buyin ): ther were sum small shops outside.. went out and took a look and they def were much cheaper.. bought a few pairs of shades (: hee.. bt in th end didn't buy much stuff oso since th things ther were reli ex bt 1 gd thing is th ice cream's damn cheap! 1tub of swensens icecream lyk onli 8sing bucks! whoa.. made me so excited and i decided to buy 1 to th hotel.. hahas.. bt bcuz of dat missed th van dat i was supposed to take & had to wait for th bus.. quickly rush ther.. sat down and waited for our results.. when they say ANDERSON JUNIOR COLLEGE, 82.64. GOLD C! i juz jumped and cried la.. lols.. felt reli reli happy.. at least al our efforts reli paid off.. went out cheered for mr toh and we sang no importa la distancia (means I will go th distance..u noe dat hercules song?) in one circle.. en sang halfway i started cryin.. my mascara was stil on summor.. lols.. bt well.. i dunno y i cried.. mb when i started tnkin bak hw i started in aj choir and everyth.. al those diff kinds of memories lyk hw much i didn't lyk th choir initially.. and nw, me, hu didn't lyk th choir actuali am cryin for th choir.. lols.. was surprised at myself oso.. bt still.. i'm reli glad for th results (:

well.. so guess my thailand trip post bout to end here le.. seriously.. is damn long le la.. bt well.. this trip was 1 eventful1 for me.. cuz i realise choir reli nt juz standin ther to sing.. saw many choirs dancin and sum even look lyk dance troupes to me la.. lols.. bt had a reli great exposure.. and at least this trip i manage to bond wid th choir ppl which is a gd thing la.. lyk finally i'm mor open up to them le.. bt th sad thing is many unlucky things happen.. broke my slippers.. lost th red pin dat twinaiai ave me ): i put near th sink it slipped and went al th way down into th bottomless hole.. lost my rubber band and th crown fr my crown belt drop evn at th last 30mins b4 i touch dwn to spore la.. irritatin.. bt well guess u lose sum and gain sum.. bt ya.. stil v happy dat i went..

oh ya.. i actuali 4gt my wallet and handphone twice la.. and lyk aft 10mins or so en i turn bak.. and rmb is gne.. so careles.. tsktsk.. and 1 word of advice.. wn go shoppin DUN eva go pattaya.. cuz th shoppin seriously sux ther.. bt th beaches are nice.. oh did i mention our window juz face th sea.. damn cool la...! so afterall.. is still

a once in a lifetime experience for me (:

2007-07-07T09:26:00.000-07:00

exhausted..

didn't go choir today.. i overslept.. lols.. and no way wil i wanna b lock outside th rm agn.. dad told me to cab dwn.. almost wnted to.. bt was tnkin bout hw tired i reali felt moreover, i've reali lost my voice.. cnt evn speak properly wat mor sing.. so decided nt to go and went bak to slp.. woke up bout 2hrs ltr.. went bras basah to look for guide books.. bought 1 GP used guide bk which i gt cheated la.. stil tot dat th uncle was bein nice make it cheaper for me.. tsktsk.. cuz initially sa th price tag on th bk was 12bucks and en he onli asked me for 10bucks.. en aft payin when i felt satisfied realised i was cheated la.. cuz th bk was a used bk ma so th price is for th initial bk when it was new.. wth la.. stupid indian guy lie to me.. summor th bk is lyk until 2001 edition al.. wth wth.. sumtimes cnt help bt reali feel v v v dumb.. tsktsk.. wnt ard walkin here and ther.. found a nice food centre (: food ther damn nice and alot summor and found this v cool garden terrace and ther's lyk evn an old folks hme and above and below the storey is hdb flats.. cool cool.. national lib as usual.. realise my pw gt lots to b dne.. saw huifang which means th nxt time when feli cums bak, wil b able to contact her le (: yay! hee..

ytd was fun fun.. had dinner wid th 2904 at nite.. celebrate jolene's bdae.. didn't noe dat o6july was such a common bdae dae.. nw i noe lyk 4ppl wid th same bdae on dat day already la.. lols.. went suntec sizzler.. hmm.. overall stil tink th price was quite reasonable mins th fact dat th chicken was damn freakin freakin small and i shldn't haf ate a bar of chocolate b4 i went.. was damn full.. as usual.. we were th noisiest ther.. lols.. bt is owax funfunfun wid them ard (: camwhored wid min and twinaiai.. long time since i met them oso.. well.. th 2904 are stil 1 of th LOVED (: rushed bak hme and surprisngly dad juz called me and i told him wher i was and he was fine wid it.. whoa.. for th first time he didn't scold me when i came hme soo late.. if is last time.. tink he wld prolly haf scolded me lyk shit me and en ground me and nt let me go out.. thnk God thnk God.. hahas.. tink i beta start appreciatin this freedom dat my parents gif me.. hopefully it'll b long.. bt beta nt take advantage of it.. i'm a nice daughter aftal ok.. hee..

well.. today's a damn special day.. 070707.. bet almost every1 bloggin wil tok bout this day.. th day wher many couples gt married.. y anne kang dun wan marry on this day instead.. en lyk dat i cn go her weddin le lo.. tsktsk.. lols..

flyin to thailand soon in 5days time.. feelin excited bout th trip bt yet nt wantin to go at th same time.. singapore has things dat i dun reali bear to leave behind.. hmm.. bt once this trip is over, guess my choir burden wil b soo much lesser.. and hopefully th choir wil b able to sing.. this 2days reali weird weird de our voices.. guess every1's juz tired? owell..

endin here le ba.. my eyes are lyk startin to close as i type this post.. nw u c hw exhausted i already am..

photos nxt time ba.. when min send to me.. *hint hint.. hee..

2007-07-01T08:34:00.000-07:00

well.. makin a quick update b4 i head to slp soon.. feelin reali tired fr a whole day out..

well.. as usual.. went to church today without dad cuz he's in KL.. wanted to hail a cab wid 5ppl bt sadly.. no cab drivers wanna take us la.. 1 bad thing bout a big family, u cnt take a taxi.. tsktsk.. so in th end took th bus and train.. fell aslp while i was in th train.. tink i almost slept on sum1 else shoulders bt luckily i woke up in time.. hahas..

aft church went dhoby ghaut to meet my godsisters! ((: been lyk ages since th 3 of us last met.. tink th 3 of us last met was lyk uh.. almost half a yr ago.. went to minds cafe.. was quite an experience for me.. first time went ther.. quite interestin tho.. u get to play board games and most imptly, get to eat kinda nice food.. i lyk th brownie wid ice cream ((: yum yum! played card and board games bt as usual.. lost al th games la.. well nt al.. at least i won th last 1! (: hahas.. gd achievement for me lei.. heex.. toked quite alot and tot bak bout th times we had last time.. feelin feels so diff when compared to last time and nw.. tho is stil th same dat i'm th youngest and owax th 1 cnt do this cnt do dat.. troublesome 1.. lols.. bt ya.. missed th times we had last time alot alot.. when we were veri veri close to each other.. bt guess every1 has to move on is th wonderful and th beautiful memories dat matters th most isn't it? at least i'm glad dat nw, we stil keep in contact wid one another and make th effort to at least meet up uh once or twice in a yr? lols.. bt ya.. i stil love th train rides hme wid joyce wher we cn owax tok non stop and ther's owax lots of things for us to catch up wid each other.. sumhw.. ther's this seemingly close feelin wid her dat makes me nt hide anyth fr her and juz say everyth.. guess is th bond aft lyk uh.. 2,3 yrs bein close to each other in choir? lols.. bt yesyes.. stil love th godsisters alot alot.. tho i owax get bullied.. hmmpphh.. bt stil, they owax try to accomodate me no matter hw troublesome i am.. hahas.. thanks! (:

oh.. and thanks for waitin lyk 2 1/2h for me evn when u're so tired and weak dat u cldn't evn walk and stand properly.. sori sori.. feel reali bad about it.. :/ bt tks alot for owax bein this sweet! (:

juz finished doin up my gp on the holocaust and anti-semitism.. purposely choose this cuz is bout nazism.. tokin bout dat makes me rmb my sec2 lit on fredrich.. owax intrigues me to noe mor bout th jewish extermination dat hpn durin hitler's time.. at least nw i noe mor bout it.. tho when i was findin info bout it kept makin me fall aslp.. think my body's signallin dat i'm tired le..

tml's youth day supposedly a holiday.. sth dat every1 looks forward to.. bt ther's choir tml fr 10am-5pm.. imagine.. nearly 7hrs of singin.. i hope i dun lose my voice fr singin so much.. bt no choice, competition date gettin nearer and nearer.. juz bout 2wks mor and i'm off to pattaya le.. hw fast.. let it quick quick cum and quick quick go..

alrighty.. guess shall end here le ba.. nitex ppl!

oh.. and sum photos!

th loved godsisters: phebe mel joyce! (:

well.. onli 2 photos dat i haf.. joyce's th 1 dat kept takin th photos.. hahas.. tink minds cafe lightin quite bad.. photo seems blur.. bt another tot.. it seems as if is cuz i dunno hw to hold th camera lei.. lols.. hahas.. owell.. shall accept dat is th lightin dat's bad and nt my bak camera skills! hahas.. dun care.. self denial.. hee..

2007-06-28T09:23:00.000-07:00

yesyes.. tis to reply to eve.. i'm finally bloggin agn.. hahas.. lyk finally la.. and tis time i blog wid uh.. lightness and ease? lols.. cuz lyk finally my xams are over! yayness! ((((: for sum reason or so i dunno y i juz feel so excited and happy dat finally finally th mid yrs are over la.. lols.. fior th first time i'm gettin so high and excited over th fact dat my mid yrs are over.. well.. imagine if ur whole 1mth holiday being bagged (is ther evn such a word?lol) down by th burden of hvin mid yrs at th start of sch.. u play u oso cnt evn play peacefully la.. bt oh well.. at least is al over.. tink this time i shld b able to pass sum subj (: hahas.. gd.. hopefully la.. bt for definite sure.. i'm gonna fail chem and fail badly.. tink i'll get an E or F.. i practically dunno hw to do 3/4 of th pr la.. lols.. and th most irritatin thing is th guy beside u was writin lyk crap.. lyk noe everyth and u everyth oso dunno.. summor dunno wat's wid th aj hall la.. tink is haunted or sth.. ther's this damn vibratin irritain noise dat cums and go once in awhile la.. imagine u do ur paper and en a vibration cums along en lyk 1min ltr is gone and 1min ltr it cums bak.. oh well.. wat cn u expect.. is aj.. th v old buildin dat seems lyk is collapsin anytime la.. th gd fact is onli dat th hall's air conditioned.. and thank God for dat.. if nt i'll nt noe lyk y th hell i'm evn doin ther.. owell.. bt at least is al over! dunno y,, fin chem pr bt didn't feel v sad or wat for th fact dat th first time i actuali dunno how to do lyk 3/4 of th chem pr and gonna fail it pretty bad.. lols.. guess i'm gettin numbed to failings le.. jc life.. reality.. muz accept.. lols..

well.. no sch for me tml! double yayness! yay! finally cn slp lyk hw long i wn le.. hahas.. bt guess i'm gg for a run tml.. tink these few days neva exercise i'm startin to feel fat.. and damn th stupid time of th month la.. cum durin my xams.. hw to study i was practically writhin in pain when i was doin my paper s la and it was lyk bio and math.. damn th person hu invented mense cramps..

went bak phs for awhile today.. ms kang's gettin married!! she even wrote me an invitation card.. so sweet of her (: bt th sad thing is i cnt go ): i'm lyk al th way in thailand singin away la.. bt i reali reali wanna go.. cuz th person is ms kang.. no offence.. bt sum1 hu every1 tot dat seh's gonna remain single for life ma.. oops.. curious to look hw she's gonna look in her weddin gown cuz every1 say woman's prettiest at their marriage.. so bet she'll b pretty (: and of cuz hr husband.. juz v curious.. hee.. bt so sad i cnt go ): y can't she put it lyk 21july or 7july or sth.. y muz 14july.. tsktsk..

no mor syf openin ceremony tml since no tickets.. bt hvin dinner wid mel jie tml (: loong time since i saw her le.. hahas.. can catch up wid her oso summor she's gg uni soon le.. so muz faster catch up.. bt missin min eve they al oso.. so long neva meet up wid em le.. bt nvm.. ther's stil nxt wk.. ther's sth gd bout th 29o4 (: we celebrate each other's bdaes! and bcuz of dat, we get to meet up often (: yay! hee..

no hpt for me on sat oso.. ther's choir.. and ther's evn choir on youth day la.. summor morn to evenin.. choir reli dun gif u rest man.. bt ya la.. international comp.. if we dun put in th effort and get a bronze or silver bak instead of a gold i tink al of us wil juz break down and cry.. so for th sake of dat four letter gold word.. shall b nice girl and work hard for choir ba.. anw.. saw th hpt ppl at th bbal court today cheerin.. memories started floodin bak.. oh last time we often hafta go ther and shout our lungs out and cheer.. those ph we're hot.. switch on th radio.. and those claps.. i do miss hpt.. bt sumtimes.. i guess cuz i've nt been bak for too long.. ther's this detached feelin bt thankfully ther's stil twinaiai and anet.. hahas.. 3 blind mice see hw they run! rofls..

owell.. guess i shall end here.. promise i'll slp by 1.10 today.. cnt go against my promise if nt wil die.. oh well.. guess is a long post enuff to keep u readin.. well till.. th nxt time when i'll b free to blog.. tho xams are over.. ther's soo many overdued work dat i nid to get it done.. jc jc.. hectic forever.. let this 2yrs juz faster go past ba..

2007-06-14T05:58:00.000-07:00

bak to bloggin.. well.. ytd was kinda bad cuz my sis found out th "b" thingy at sentosa.. oh well.. asked me and hannah threatened to tel my dad.. so in th end mum stil gt to noe.. bt nt dad.. tks to mum huu say she'll gif me 1 mor chance and nt tel dad.. which is sth dat i reli hafta thank God bout.. imagine if my dad noes.. tink i'll b sooo dead.. mb i wun evn b here bloggin.. bt well.. everyth cums wid a price.. she's damn pissed at me.. she says no mor sentosa for me.. cnt go anymor and if she finds out i secretly go i'll die.. bt seriously, is lyk isn't it th "b" thing dat's th most impt 1 and nt bout gg to sentosa? lols.. dun understand.. bt i dun care.. sentosa is stil a lovelove.. i still wanna go juz dat mb nt wid th "b" thing ther? ))): bt at least she didn't ask me throw it away or pass to her or sth if nt i'll so die.. and reli.. i dun understand.. is nt as if i'm exposin out my body to every1.. al i haf in mind is juz to get an even tan.. wat's so wrong wid it.. is nt as if i model and parade myself th whole of siloso beach to show every1.. huh? al i did was juz lie dwn on th sand and let th sun do th job wat.. i reli dun c anyth wrong.. haix.. dun understand.. bt thanks to my sisters.. nw i cnt wear.. i dunnno y bt it juz dun seem wrong to me lei.. haix.. owell.. mb nxt time when i bcum older or sth i'll get to understand? cuz seriously, nw i reli dun.. haix..

pirates of carribbean is reali a disappointment.. weren't so nice aftal.. tink th 2nd 1 is stil th best.. oh well.. wasted dat 3h.. cld haf done sth beta wid it lo..

anw.. went swimmin today! yayness! (((: for th first time in my whole of 17yrs life this is th first time i went swimmin without my parents.. and they actuali allow! (: was super happy and of cuz excited.. hee.. cldnt bliff i actuali cld go.. bt yesyes.. was stil v happy.. swam my first time wid u oso which made me an even happier phebe (: eh.. so min cheyenne ahma kailing twinaiai and hueva else hu do go swimmin, call me call me! cuz now finally i cn go swim wid them in th pool instead of slackin ard th bowlin alley at yishun safra passin my slow time away while waitin for em to fin swimmin.. hahas..

aft dat went for 4f lunch farewell gatherin for ms yeo.. well.. onli bout uh less than half turned up? guess every1 had their own activities ba.. bt oh well.. every1's into their own clique oso.. didn't reali felt lyk a gatherin to me.. mor lyk juz a meet up session wid ur own cliques.. went fish and co for lunch which wasn't so great.. stil dun reli lyk th food lei.. and reli is nt worth it lo.. tok to ms yeo for sum time.. guess when she's nt in phs, wun b able to go visit and tok to her so often le.. 1 teacher dat i'll reali miss alot.. 1 of th closest teacher i had in phs oso..
most of em went hme while sum went shoppin.. didn't reli shop wid them and left wid (:
*tc of urself ya?stil as worried for u as eva.. tks for everyth! <3!

few mor days b4 th 3rd wk ends and is th last wk of holiday le.. time reali flies man.. exams bout to start soon too.. bt nt done any work yet.. haix.. procrastinatin and laziness do do u harm man.. :/

no mor hpt june camp for me le.. cuz is n 23 and 24.. doubt my mum wil let me go lo.. soo near my xams.. bt bet is gonna b soo fun.. say is sum kind of cyclin thingy? nt v sure oso.. bt i reli reli miss al th hpt ppl.. esp my batch de.. v v long neva meet up wid em le.. miss th times how we work together durin camps.. durin debriefs.. durin al the "knock it down" sessions.. and of cuz th get alng sessions and fuel cookin.. i reli miss hpt.. i reali miss outdoor camps :/

oh well.. enuff of al th miss here and ther.. nt gonna do any improvement to my studies for now.. so guess shall end here.. o ya.. enlarged my blog font.. iszit easier to read nw? lols.. tag tag me to tel me cuz yupp.. ni sum comments.. anw.. cbox is so screwed la.. keep gettin th "403 forbidden" thingy.. cnt c anyth.. tsktsk.. oh well.. time for bath and sum work :/ till en...

2007-06-12T07:57:00.000-07:00

ok.. for an instant.. i dunno y am i doin up here blog surfin and hoppin fr 1 site to another.. i'm lyk supposed to b sittin dwn at my table doin gp lyk 2hrs ago.. uh.. guess th temptation to use th comp is juz a lil too great? hee..

i nid a change of blogskin! i've been sayin dat lyk since last yr i tink and till nw i'm stil stuck at th same skin and when th words effin small dat evn i myself hafta squint my eyes to read lahs.. seriously, sum1 shld teach me hw to chng th blog posts font bigger.. i tried lyk dozen of times.. bt sumhw it stil looks th same lei.. -.- bt yesyes.. twinaiai, if u eva get to c this, i wn a new blogskin.. kk.. this time i promise promise u i'll use it.. actuali i owax wanted to use th blogskins u make for me.. bt owax doesn't seem to haf th time to lyk edit lahs.. tsktsk..

anw.. ytd was fun fun FUN! (((: hahas.. well.. had my tannin done.. tho my skin's stil red and hurts and my nose stil looks lyk ruldoph.. bt well.. was 1 of th most relaxin day ytd la.. hahas.. is al juz tannin and tokin and camwhorin and shoppin and mor tokin! hahas.. so ytd twinaiai,min,anet,phebe (: finally finally a time wher i cn get to spend wid th girls! (:

reached habourfront.. realised i overstayed inside and had to pay 2bucks lahs.. and it costs evn mor than th adult fare la.. -.- finally bought stuff and settled dwn.. by en was about noon le.. sun was real hot! toked.. tanned.. went swimmin.. took lots of pictures.. hahas.. hmm.. bt aft hearin lots.. guess is shldn't regret gg to a jc.. wonder hw i'll reali fit in.. and oso.. th ppl ther.. cn i evn get alng wid them? bet i'll chng oso lo.. bt nah.. dun reali wanna chng nw.. i'm happy and satisfied wid this phebe nw.. so yesyes.. no matter wat, i muz get promoted this yr! muz muz! oh.. and bob dat big nose seriously sux la.. dat stupid ass guy.. lols.. oh well.. th ah bengs shld reli beat him up.. lols.. bt seriously.. i feel so cut out fr th world.. everyth oso dunno.. aiyo.. tsktsk.. lols..

anw.. evn had an open bath cuz too many ppl were queuein for th bathroom le.. lols.. lyk wat min say.. is kinda cool to bath in th open! hahas.. bt in th end stil had to go to th toilet to chng.. saw cherlene and daphne ther too.. wat a small world! lols.. went habourfront.. yuenchen left first en th budget 3 us went walkin ard th foodcentre and gt th cheapest food.. hokkien mee for 2bucks! lols.. tasted exactly lyk phs canteen hokkien mee.. lols.. tokin bout dat.. i do miss phs lots and lots.. went shoppin ard.. and i actuali bought a racer which i dun look uh fat in?! hahas.. ok.. wait.. contain my excitement.. hey bt is lyk th 1st time dat min they al actuali said dat i dun look fat in sth call sleeveless and esp a racer lahs.. lols.. guess muz b th effect of th tan dat made my skin glow? lols.. nvm.. shall live in th self denial dat i dun look fat in a racer.. hee.. aft dat we juz walked ard and anet left en eve.. so min and i cont walkin ard.. bought a long necklace and a shirt dat looks lyk a guy's? lols.. bt i like.. hees.. was tokin lots wid min al th way.. we toked bout alot alot.. hahas.. owax loved tokin to her.. we'll neva run out of topics.. (: tok lots bout th past.. and well sum bout th present.. hees.. and yesyes.. when u looked bak to th past, u do feel dat u've grown older and bigger and ya la.. is th experience dat counts.. bt sumtimes.. if u juz wished u cld turn bak time.. and decide to walk a diff route.. mb lots of things wld haf taken a chng oso.. lols.. gettin a lil too on th melancholic side.. hmm..

reali wonder when i'll get to c em agn.. stil th best tokin ppl.. stil th best shoppin partners (((:

stayed at hme th whole day today.. went out lunchin wid ahma.. and en her hse.. and we started hoppin fr friendster tyo friendster.. and viwein profiles.. and en she brought me to celeste chen's videos at youtube.. rofls.. seein al those reali feel lyk makin me laugh.. hahas.. imagine u go do a video of ur bf when ual get 2gether and when ual break.. funny la.. and summor guess th onli things she does is juz stick her v v long tongue at th camera lyk uh dunno hw many thousand cow times.. rofls.. gt kinda tickled when i was lookin at it.. hahas.. went hme studied sum econs and dozed off.. woke up and decided to go runnin.. started joggin fr my hse to wds mrt and en admiralty and en to semb.. lols.. unbelievable huh.. jogged bak bt almost "died" la.. lols.. whoa. seriously loong man.. gave up joggin on my way when i jogged till admiralty and juz walked bak fr ther to my hse.. damn tirin man.. bt still.. great achievement for me! (((: bt went hme and gt scolded by my parents cuz i jogged too much and was dangerous? cuz v long neva jog le ma.. so guess thnk God everyth was fine.. yupp..

oh.. and hahas.. at least min they al cld view my blog nw.. lols.. seriously, i wanna chng my blogskin.. yaya.. gonna rant on it and en haf no time to do it agn.. *shakes head.. lols..

another "i'm so lookin forward" day tmll! yay! pirates of th carribbean.. hahas.. and of cuz wid th v right company.. gone for 2days in camp.. finally tml u break camp! hee.. mu!

alrighty.. muz muz end here le.. i seriously nid to do uh at least a lil work or my whole day's gonna b wasted today la.. :/ left wid 1 and a 1/2wks..kk.. shall hit th th books.. *hopefully..

kk.. sum photos.. actuali is fr eve and min's blog la.. lols.. no choice.. i dun bring camera la.. hee..

[/edit] uh.. decided to edit th whole thing to prevent anymor "i cnt bliff" gasps comin out.. lols. owell..

2007-06-09T09:27:00.000-07:00

2wks down, 2mor wks to go ))):

omg.. time reali flies when u're enjoyin it.. well nt exactlty tho.. for these past 2wks.. ahd a total of lyk 10choir pracs le.. whoa.. juz imagine.. think choir is startin to turn me abit no life.. bt nvm.. shall haf 2wks for myself! yay! hahas.. cnt wait when mon comes.. when wed comes.. when thurs comes! triple yayness! (((: hahas.. kk.. tink i'm abit nt rite in my mind.. sori la.. when choir drives u crazy and almost dominates ur life.. u simply wil go high on anyth dat cn take ur mind off choir for once and enjoy! nw dat's mor lyk it.. hee..

well.. guess ther's nth much for me to update these past few days or past 2wks oso.. didn't reali get any going out or anyth.. oh ya.. ahma came bak fr taiwan and omg.. she bought sooo many things la.. *i'm soso jealous! i dun care.. when i get to pattaya.. i muz lots and lots and lots of things oso! bt well.. was so envious to c so many things lo.. yupp..and hahas.. she rmbed me at taiwan.. bought a necklace for me.. yay! hahas.. kk..

tink i'm a lil too nt on th rite side.. mb gettin abit too self entertainin la.. well.. either cuz is already lyk 2plus and i hvn slp when i haf church tml and i spent lyk almost my whole day studyin math which is a v miraculous thing.. lols.. bt guess is th dinner dat's makin me high! haha.s. dad spent lyk 143bucks on a new restaurant at cuzway.. sum v cheena restaurant by th name of dian xiao er.. well.. cheena it mayb.. bt th food's damn nice.. evn th rice.. bt nice food oso comes nice price la.. damn exp.. bt seriously, ual shld try th duck.. omg.. is v nice la.. cn make u fly! hahas.. (((: everyth's nice ther.. nice ambience.. nice food.. bt v nt nice price... owell.. bt is gd for a once in a while treat! heee..

pirates of carribbean.. finally cn watch it lyk this wk! yayness! been waitin v v long le.. hopefully wil b able to watch! and hopeully wil b ncie oso.. cuz heard many ppl say is kinda disappointin.. :/ bt well.. bliff th show wil stil b nice.. esp wid th right company! *winks.. hee..

miss th 29o4 clique.. been a while since i saw them and heard fr them.. nvm.. ther's a day call monday! hahas.. kk.. nt makin sense agn.. in fact th whole post nt makin sense.. tink th duck till nw stil makin me high.. rofls..

oh.. and th tagboard is stil v v irritatin.. keep tellin me forbidden error and i cnt c anyth.. =.=

2007-06-02T10:26:00.000-07:00

finally bloggin agn.. told u my blog's gonna b sum kind of weekly thingy agn.. is 1wk of th hols and i'm stil as bz as eva.. when wil i eva get dat break.. haix.. bt well.. coir's of cuz takin up lots of my time oso.. no choice.. for th preparation of competition and for th good results we juz nid to keep singin and singin and singin.. owel.. bt at least th new song's damn cool la.. damn nice oso.. call kaser mie la gaji.. if cn.. those hu lyk cum across my blog cn go listen.. best is go u tube c th video.. tell u.. is a damn cool song la.. notes are kinda ez bt is th tempo dat's reali tough and confusin.. bt now. dat's phebe's fave choir song.. hahas..

well.. hols owax pass sooo fast.. 1wk of hols has passed and ther's 3wks left which is equals to 3wks mor b4 my mid yrs.. omg.. hvn evn reali started studyin oso.. feelin kinda scared bt wheneva i open th book it gets so sianx dat u dun feel lyk studyin.. bt if i dun study i'm sure gonna fail badly and i'll juz die at promos.. u c.. hw irony this whole thing is.. bt well.. life has owax been an irony anyway.. :/

had a small sms chat wid tingyu juz now.. LOVES LOVES! ((((: hahas.. felt kinda happy bout it.. well.. cuz she's always been thf ren dat i reali wanna continue to stay in comtact wid bt dunno hw.. :/ to tink th night b4 when i was on th phone wid kailing wenqi and cheyenne and was tellin them hw i miss tingyu and she msg me th nxt day.. so glad at least i cld tok to her quite alot.. yay! (: hee.. bt seriously, everytime in lessons when i'm sittin beside my aj classmates.. wil owax tink bak of th times dat we spent in class in th 2yrs.. esp hittin each other's backs damn hard so as to wake th other person up.. lollol.. those were th days man.. yupp.. bt guess she's 1 fren dat i reali treasure alot.. owax been v v v nice to me.. and well.. tolerant.. *ps.. guess she noes wat this means when it cums to bcumin tolerant esp when i'm doin math.. oopsy.. hee..

gt a msg fr clarinda and noe dat ther's nt gg b anymor june camp le ))): was kinda sad.. cuz i was reali lookin forward to this june camp.. tot cld finally at least go bak hpt.. is been a reali reali long time since i went bak hpt.. missin it quite alot oso.. :/

actuali weekly posts kinda suc cuz isa lyk many thigns happened throughout this wk bt en when u wanna blo al bout it within 1 entr u suddenly 4gt totally wat reali happened throughout th wk.. uh. tink i onli rmb gg for ijc's choir concert where their choir onli haf lyk 15ppl.. suddenly ajc pattaya choir seems so much bigger.. lols.. went up to teletubby hill and gtt bitten lyk 10timex juz on 1 leg.. sumhow.. mosquitoes love my right side? rofls.. onli keep bitin dat right leg and dat right hand of mine.. lols..

uh.. mind's nt gettin v ok nw.. images startin to blur and i tink is a sign to tel me dat is time to head to lalalland lyk reeal soon.. lols.. i wn go shoppin tho i'm currently lyk so borke.. aiyo.. eve and min went today and i cldn't go cuz ther's math tuition.. oya.. and my niece.. saw her today.. twinaiai.. she gt th same bdae as u! lols.. she's lyk uh// onli 3days old.. damn small and cute.. she's cal sherzyn.. lol.. cool rite.. and she gt lyk a v hairy and black birthmark on th bak of her neck .. lols.. dunno iszit supposed to b cute or iszit scary? lols.. owell..

guess shall end here ba.. another wk of intense choir pracs about to start.. i wn th time to study and th time for shoppin and th time for suntannin and of cuz lots and lots of time for u!!

2007-05-28T10:34:00.000-07:00

well// is lyk 1.35 am.. and i'm juz makin a quick quick post while waitin for my hair to dry.. well.. came hme at bout 11.50 and my dad screamed at me.. lyk wadeva lurhs.. already tried my best 2 cum hme earlier le ma.. every1 oso hvn leave and i juz leave lyk dat.. haix.. wanted to celebrate twinaiai's bdae oso.. bt cnt.. haix. owell. bt at least 2dae was fun! (: loong time since i went kbox oso bt well.. is damn ex la.. cost lyk bout 28bucks bt thanks to anet i paid 20 onli.. sori sori.. felt bad lettin her pay so much.. bt well..was already on my ends meet.. i spent my whole $100bucks of savings lyk within 3days when i saved for lyk 3mths.. u c hw fast th money juz go.. haix.. bt well.. at least it was kinda fun oso! (: hahas... i stil love love heart ehart th 29o4 clique! yay! (:

cldn't find wat to buy for eve and in th end juz bought ehr a topshop gift card.. bt well we reali had limited budget plus we juz simply ran out of ideas.. summor cheyenne was reali reali sick and pale.. was so worried dat she'll faint or sth? aiyo.. b aft dat, she was bak to th normal cheyenne le! (:

jz gt a notice fr my fren dat cuz those aj choir ppl hu went china can't go for th whole choir prac he postponed it to sum days fr th 2nd wk eh brought it forth to th 3rd.. haix sianx.. i reali wonder when do i reali get th time to study.. i dun wanna fail ): owel.. i dun care.. studies are gonna stil b th utmost importance compared to th choir prac.. juz look at my nath results and u'll noe y.. is this bad lo.. owel..

well.. a v v bz week this whole wk so guess rite down sum of th stuff.. oh ya.. lyk hw my class was acuali th lousiest class in th whole model process.bt sum highlights.. i went mjc concert and i saw joyce tan! my beloved godsister. see my godomo happy (: owel tink i losin my sanity.. i'm gettin abit blurred and dunno what i ritin le.. so guess i shall end here and get my precious slp! yay! hee.. slpin's lyk sooo ipt for me.. th blo's bcumin lyk a chore le.. oso no time to blog.. haix.. owell

2007-05-19T07:40:00.000-07:00

finally get can a mor decent keyboard and cn do my typin le! yay! well.. today was kinda tired out th whole day.. had to wake up at 8plus bt stil was late in th end for choir prac.. woke up in th morn and saw a msg which was quite saddenin lei.. choir pracs every single weekday for th 1st 2wks of hols fr 2.30-5.30.. whoa.. plus al th xtra lessons.. i reali wonder if i'll eva find th time to go out shoppin etcetc.. hols reali dun seem lyk hols to me.. haix.. cuz of th early choir prac today i had to gif sentosa a miss ): i wanna go sun tan! i'm hvin lyk a damn uneven colour nw la.. summor th billabong bikini dat th whole lot of 29o4 gurls bought for me i hvn evn gotten a chance to wear yet.. so imagine.. is lyk rottin in my cupboard for 3mths waitin for phebelimlixuan to bring her out to th sun la.. ):

bt at least choir prac wasn't dat bad today.. cuz today was juz vocal trng.. actuali was kinda fun.. didn't noe vocal trng oso gd way to get rid of ur stomach fats lei.. hahas.. juz keep usin th diaphragm and th diaphragm and mor of th diaphgram and en u'll feel th strain le.. lols.. was rushin through my make up for th college day oso.. and i finally bought my mini brush mascara! yayness! (: hahas.. finally ther's sth MINI and suitable for dat uh damn lil and thin eyelashes la.. hee.. at least for nw, no mor tearin when i'm puttin mascara le.. yay! (: camwhored wid th choir ppl for lyk an hour or so till my mouth was bcumin hard? lols.. bt was kinda borin oso.. was waitin sooo long for th teacher to cum call us dwn to perform.. waited for lyk 1hours plus or so.. was gettin kinda drained out oso.. tired since morn ma.. didn't reali get a gd rest oso.. and ther's sum flagday tml.. ): and so i hafta wake up at lyk uh. 7.30am agn? huh.. aiyo..

reali cnt wait for th hols to cum man.. juz 1 mor wk to go.. bt en agn.. i dun seem to reali get my hols oso.. wid th v v hectic choir pracs and xtra lessons and sum time left for math tuition and revision time.. i wonder wher cn i find th xtra time for u.. haix.. ): bt dun wori.. everyth wil turn out fine ya? hopefully.. as long as we bliff..

off to slp real soon.. gettin v tired.. nt been doin my hw for th consecutive 2days le.. whoa.. th work's neva done.. wheneva i tink of wat th poly ppl are gg through, sumtimes i wonder.. hw nice if i cn go poly.. cn get th hols.. cn get th slp.. no nid everyday cum hme so late and nt bcuz of other stuffs bt juz bcuz of sch and cca.. and cn practically ace al my tests instead of nw.. failin almost everyth.. worst state of my studyin life i'm gg through nw.. owell.. bt since i'm in le.. guess ther's no mor turnin bak and grumblin and whinin and complainin (well.. a lil la.. hey.. muz vent out wat.. hee).. since i've chosen this path, i guess th onli thing dat i cn do to make myself feel beta is juz to make th best out of everyth.. and yesyes.. i will.. no way am i gonna juz waste my dat 1yr strugglin so hard for nth.. phebelimlixuan wil make it juz so worthwhile! (:

was browsin through friendster and realised is been a reeeal long time since i caught up wid my secondary sch frens.. i mean th 4faith ppl la.. as in th usual clique? sumhw.. i feel detached fr them and lyk ya la.. feel as if i wasn't reali a part of their life in sec3&4.. owell.. juz a random tot.. bt ya la.. i do miss em.. esp tingyu.. owell..

and tokin bout dat.. to th 4faith ppl out ther.. ther's a class gatherin wid miss yeo on 15june at 12noon.. cuz she's leavin phs and gg over to punggol sec le.. so we juz gonna haf a simple lucnh wid her at amk hub? place hvn reali decided yet.. so if any1 of u out ther do cum to my blog.. leave me a tag or sth so at least i noe and oso.. hlp spread th msg ard! tks..

i miss secondary sch life.. i miss pri sch life.. i miss when i was juz a lil baby.. suddenly.. i dun feel lyk growin up anymor..
oops.. tink i'm gettin a lil too much on th emo side.. lols..

2007-05-18T08:27:00.000-07:00

is th end of th wk agn and i'm bloggin agn! hahas.. juz dat th comp dat i'm usin is v irritatin cuz the damn keyboard is damn lag.. i'm lyk practicisinh finger exercisse la.. pressin eveery letter wid lots of strength so u juz imagine.. lols..

owell.. this whole wk has been quite an emotional roller coaster 4 me.. was kinda emotionally drained this whole wk.. clashed schdules.. al th fails fr tests.. raging hormones (dat's an xcuse).. etcetc.. dunno wat's been wid me oso.. mb was reali stressful last wk cuz of th neverending tests dat i hafta study lyk mad bt stil fail.. esp dat dreadful math.. is lyk it has been a bane 4 me since pri4 la.. seriously, my brain dun function in a way wher i cn do math la.. screw dat bloody subj.. owax hate math tutorials cuz dat's when i get v demoralised and lost at th same time.. i owax feel lyk i juz entered into another space or evn dimension and nth ther mmakes sense to me.. owel.. ): juz feel lyk a failure in math.. summor wid th choir trainin 4 pattaya.. i reli reli wonder if i'll eva get a few sat 2 go 4 math tuition and get at least a bit of those martian lang to this stupid un-math brain of mine.. haix.. nt dat i wanna b neg or wat.. bt sumhw i gt th feelin dat i'm so gonna b th last in class.. wher gt th time to study or my midyrs? and alice teo is so gonna bite my head off la.. haix.. bt bt.. i'll nt gif up and jjuz gif my best shot ba.. hopefully la.. owel..

had dinner wid min eve ahma yx kel 2dae.. lng time since i met them oso.. yishun chicken rice is stil v v v nice! (: walked ard.. stoned ard.. tok ard.. lol.. bt ya.. afteral.. th company's stil kinda fun tho they stil tink i'm v dumb and a big embarrassment.. well.. afteral.. i'm stil phebe ma.. hee.. so hw diff cn i b?

anw.. shall continue another time.. i'm reli v v v v irritated wid typin wid this damn bloody screwed up keyboard.. took lyk an hr juz to type al these la.. so u juz imagine.. if i had th time 2 waste i def wun mind.. bt i nid my slp.. choir at 10 tml and ther's stil college day.. oh man.. i wann th hols.. and i mean HOLS and nt xtra lessons aft xtra lessons and choir prac.. owell.. juz a v random complainin post.. continue another time when i cn lyk use a proper keyboard.. tsktsk..

bt.. i'm juz glad u're ther 2 kip me gg (: no matter waat.. plz kip smilin and b happy.. cuz dat's th onli reason dat makes me feel so much beta! (:

2007-05-12T05:50:00.000-07:00

heyyas.. finally bloggin.. guess this bloggin thing in this 2yrs or so is gonna bcum a weekly sort.. ther's owax no time to blog.. i dun evn haf th time to catch up wid my slp.. wid my frens la.. wonder hw was th shoppin trip dat eve they al went today.. hmm.. i wan shoppin! ): i seriously nid sum retail therapy to get my mind off al these huge and moutain load of never endin work.. v tirin lei.. is juz as if lyk i hafta keep runnin and runnin and i cnt evn reali juz stop and take a breather for awhile if nt i'll fall reali bak cuz lyk evn now, when i'm tryin my best to run.. i'm already fallin pretty bak.. oh well.. dun understand.. is lyk 1 hectic yr of sec4 is juz over and en b4 i cn reali get th rest i nid, another 1 cums alng.. and this time is so so much mor busier and stressful.. suddenly al the stress and work dat i had in sec4 seemed so insignificant.. owell..

had quite a fun time catchin up wid th 29o4 people on ahma neo's bdae.. well.. tho things didn't turned out reli well in th beginnin.. bt in th end everyth was stil fine.. dat's th 29o4 power..no matter hw bad we bcum, we'll owax b beta aft dat.. cuz we simply love each other (: yea! hee..

math test was pretty bad on thurs.. haix.. i cldn't hlp it bt broke dwn when i was doin and aft th test.. is lyk i dun evn noe hw to start a single thing la.. and th worst thing was i DID study for this freakin test.. i studied for 2h and slept onli at 2 la.. no matter hw tired i was fr ahma neo's bdae.. and th result is stil FAIL and tink i'll get a freakin single digit la.. lyk wth.. ): haix.. mood swings haf been kinda extreme oso.. cn get reali irritated and pissed awhile and the nxt cn get v saddenin and th nxt, i'll b ok.. i feel so pmsed.. i feel so weird.. oya.. and my white bag spoil la.. th damn zip.. neva eva buty zinc bags man.. i spent lyk a friggin 47bucks and i onli lyk used it for lyk 3mths onli and th bag's lyk givin way soon la. wth.. neva buy zinc bags! (i'm nt generalizin =.-)

met up wid anet and ahma and her 2frens at kfc aft sch.. quite fun la.. and aft dat late in th nite actuali went to play a lil bball.. actuali it was juz me playin wid me la.. lols.. took th ball and played for lyk 15mins b4 gg hme.. damn shuang la.. is been sosososo long since i last touched the ball and played wid it.. bt well.. aft dat ther was sum bad news broken to em which made mefelt quite bad and sad la.. haix.. sumtimes is lyk reali so hard lo.. bt ya la.. aft dat i think through le.. no pt gettin sad and blame here and ther.. juz cherish every lil time dat we haf towards each other ba.. sumtimes.. we juz cnt expect so much and b satisfied wid wat we haf :/

saw anet and wenqi today.. ahahs.. ijc hvin sum flag day thingy.. in th end many of them slacked through la.. lols.. owell.. unexpected surprise.. bt it was gd in a sense oso! (: hahas.. tok to anet.. hope she feels beta.. and wenqi.. hope u're alrite 2.. bt ya la.. was reali glad 2 c them tho (: hee.. so nw, i nid to lyk look at my schdule and find a time to actuali go out wid twinaiai and lowminmin.. i wanna go shoppin! mb evn suntannin.. yaya.. al in my dreams.. sumtimes.. is reali v tirin.. and i mean VERY.. ):

2007-05-05T10:08:00.000-07:00

uh.. well.. blog's reali REALI v v v stagnant and still? lols.. feels lyk mosquito breedin waters huh? oh well.. received a call fr ahma juz nw.. realise the few of em were actuali out at town.. and they acclaimed dat i disappeared? owell.. th conv was kinda nt v gd to me? hmm.. felt kinda hurt? owell.. mayb sumtimes i tend to take things too seriously ba.. bt ya la.. th girls reali meant alot to me.. so felt kinda lyk left out when they didn't cal me cuz juz they tink i was bz? owell.. is nt dat i didn't try or wat ma.. bt sumtimes is juz reli v inconvenient.. and i dun evn get enuff time for myself oso.. dat huge mountain of work is neva eva done.. hw cum pl jc i jc.. i lyk soo much mor things to b done.. so much busier arhx? haix.. nvm la.. juz rantin lo.. since i feel affected? lols.. owell.. was juz randomly tinkin.. so if i juz didn't haf th time to contact them and they tink dat i'm owax nt free and they dun bother to ask me anymor bcuz of this and dat and wadeva else reasons ther is.. en so i'll juz simply lose contact wid em iszit? tot ppl say secondary friendships are th 1s dat wil c u through.. dat's gg to b th l0ngest 1? owell.. negative tots agn.. phebe's a paranoia and a negative person ma.. is nt as if th first day she's lyk dat.. owell.. dun bother.. was juz uh.. ventin it out? cuz juz felt kinda uncomfortable wid al these bottlin up inside me? i do cherish and treasure ual and i do tryto wan to find time to find wid ual.. bt ther's onli 24hrs in a day.. i can't possibly get th time dat i wn.. besides.. i haf restrictions and other uh.. commitments.. so ya.. hopefully ual wil understand? owell.. dunno y i writin al these.. bt dun mind me.. juz felt affected.. i feel so repetitive.. feels lyk i juz keep repeatin myself.. "oh so random.. juz sum tots.. dun bother me.. "
well.. nt v sane at lyk 1.45am ma.. is been soooo long i cn actuali sit infront of th comp and blog and nt worryin bout my pw or my neva endin tutorials dat i neva b able to catch up.. jc's life is juz oh so hectic.. i miss secondary sch times.. the aft schs and evn recess.. evn gg 2 sch makes me look forward to it no matter hw tired i might b.. nw.. is juz so diff.. ):
had a haircut th other time wid jolene and kailing.. and i dunno at wat kind of state was i in dat i actuali agreed to buy a small bottle of nice smellin mud dat cost lyk 16bucks mor than my haircut summor la.. i muz b retarded to evn tot of buyin it.. c.. al th work makes u kuku la.. so regret dat stupid bottle of nice smellin mud dat i ain't evn usin.. waste money.. any1 interested.. cn sell to u at uh.. 10nucks? dun mind makin a loss.. yupp.. bt i do lyk my new haircut tho my hair's lyk a lil uh.. fountain wid no water? lols.. bt i lyk bt th sad thing is auntie cut it shorter ): no mor v v v long hair le.. miss th hair tho.. owell..

alrighty.. tink shall stop here le ba.. time to slp le.. ther's stil sth cal church tml.. i wonder when cn i eva slp in till evn 10am.. ):

2007-04-22T07:20:00.000-07:00

finally and finally bloggin again.. its been reali long since i cld update my blog.. well.. i'm waitin for my pi to b edited.. tks alot.. (: seriously, i sux at ritin those kind of formal report thingy man.. i tink i'm stil beta at ritin craps and stories la.. dat xplains lyk y i haf a blog oso rite.. lols.. th stupid pi draft drivin me crazy lo.. reali dunno wat to do oso.. haix.. sianx.. anw.. th choir concert at esplanade was finally over! yayness! (: hahas.. noe i took a lil tad too long to blog bout it.. bt well.. i'm a bz person ok.. bt when th concert was over i reali felt lyk a huge burden off my shoulder.. and en ther was th syf comin up.. bt well.. decided nt to participate in th syf so i kinda lyk sing wrongly durin my audition? oopsy.. so didn't get in.. bt ya la.. noe many ppl wanna get in.. bt here am i bein th odd 1.. oh well.. i haf alot of commitments to fufill and also.. my work's damn terrible lurhs.. imagine a 10mark essay and i onli wrote 1 line.. dat's lyk th worst i've eva done man.. and no way am i gonna lyk get retained this yr.. i'll juz simply waste my 1yr away.. oh well.. kinda relieved i didn't get into syf oso.. they're lyk practically trainin everyday.. even their sundays and sats are al taken up.. i'll b lyk damn no life if dat hpns to me.. bt no pain, no gain.. so al th best for ur syf ppl! jiayou! and freedom for 3wks! yay! (: heex..

anw.. th dressin rm at th esplanade was damn cool la.. tink dat's 1 of my best exp there.. th dressin rm feels lyk a hotel rm.. ther's evn a shower rm.. seriously, i dun mind stayin ther la.. hahas.. and we evn walked pass th phantom of th opera dressin rm.. so cool! saw their names bein pasted outside of their rms and ther costumes and props oso.. hw i wish i cn b ther watchin la.. bt too ex le la.. hahas.. hopefully nxt time ther'll stil b a chance lyk dat .. lols.. bt well.. overrall th concert was kinda nice la.. guess dat's th best thing bout bein in a performin arts cca is dat u c al ur hard work wil nt go to waste when u finally get to perform juz dat 2hrs on stage and dat it turns out successful (:
min eve kailing came and support me.. and 4 dat, tks alot! (: had supper at makanssutra wid em and th cats ther were lyk OMG damn big la.. sum evn look mutated.. EEEWWWWW! dat's y i say cats are disgustin.. well except for th fact dat kittens MAY be cute.. camwhored wid kailing's mac which is damn cool.. bt we missed th last train bcuz of dat.. cabbed bak hme.. and dat's th first time i actuali took a cab bak wid a midnight surcharge when i'm together wid my frens.. lols.. bt sur[prisingly, it turned out cheaper than expected.. tot it was gonna b lyk 30plus or sth.. in th end turned out to b 24bucks.. yupp.. kinda missed em..
decided to skip sch th nxt day and went bak phs to sppt UVPHS! cld c dat they were al v nervous.. bt they reali sang well.. is ok ppl.. ual did ur best le.. damn th judges la.. they gt a bronze.. tink every1 was reali taken aback.. esp th choir ppl.. al their efforts put in.. hopefully they wun get too disappointed.. is ok ppl.. try harder 2yrs ltr ya? wat ual nid to rmb is neva gif up juz bcuz of a setbak.. instead use it as a motivation to spur u ppl on to work harder.. bliff ual cn do it.. noe is owax easier to b said than done.. bt well.. at least gif it a try ya? jiayou! anw.. wnted to eat ben and jerry dat day cuz they were givin out free cones and hu noes typical singaporeans, ther were many ppl ther le la.. queue was damn frickin long.. so in th end gave th ice cream a miss ): tot i cld lyk actuali taste ben & jerry's la.. neva eat b4 lei.. owell..

thurs i'm meetin 29o4 clique agn! yay! hahas.. missed em alot.. esp fiona anet jolene wenqi.. is been reali reali long since i last saw em man.. ahhh.. dat's y i say i smell th freedom of choir! hahas.. if nt i'll definitely b tied dwn la.. hee..

bak to pi le..jiayou! and tml's a new wk agn.. ); oh hw i wish for thurs and en fri and en weekends!

2007-04-13T08:52:00.000-07:00

heyyas.. well.. juz makin a quick 1 b4 i ehad to bed.. finally th long looong awaited fri has arrived! yay! (: bt well.. th sad thing is i stil cnt get my 8hrs of slp la.. ther's stil choir prac tml.. well.. can't blame oso.. th concert's lyk juz 3,4 days away mor.. so guess every1 has to rush through everyth.. bt ya la.. bt reli drained out this wk.. evn my eyes.. i dun grow dark circles and i'm startin to haf them nw.. which is lyk sososo bad.. and th earliest time dat i reached hme this whole wk was uh.. 8.30? i mean nite la.. lyk duh..and th earliest i slp is lyk 1am.. quite bad oso.. my wok's oso reli bad.. lotsa undone work and i'm lyk lost in outer space la.. every1's catchin up.. and i'm kinda fallin bak.. feel so unknowledgeable sumtimes in my class oso.. oh well.. cnt blame.. i'm in ajc u c.. and dat isn't supposedly a bias opinion horx.. hahas.. nw i'm startin to tok gp.. rofls.. bt well.. concert's comin bt ticket sales are stil kinda bad.. nt evn 50% filled yet.. gettin through dire means to make us sell our tickets by absorbing th costs of them.. bt sumtimes is reali nt easy to sell la.. imagine is a mon ite.. every1 oso v sian to go lurhs.. is a weekday and summor th 1st day of th wk.. sumtimes i dun undst y cant we juz make do wid vch? oh well.. syf's auditions comin up.. dunno if i shld opt out oso.. reali v drained out and i cnt b possibly continuin on lyk dat bt on th other hand i noe hw impt th syf is.. c, th ironies of life agn.. tsktsk..

looks lyk every1 is kinda lyk "sufferin' inside th jc life.. guess every1's or almost every1 is stil at th transition state? sumtimes.. me or evn all of us jz wanna take th easier way out and go to a poly and hopefully it'll b slacker.. bt ya la.. nt gg to gif up.. endured lyk 4mths plus here le.. yupp.. so al th jc ppl out ther and dat includes phebelimlixuan (: , we'll al gogojiayou together and hopefully miracles wil hpn.. yes they wil as lng as we bliff..
*lols.. cnt bliff i actuali made myself sound so optimistic when i myself am fallin.. bt ya la.. i noe i'm nt th onli 1 sinkin cuz we'e al in this together ! so we'll jiayou together.. al we hafta do is ENDURE.. i cnt bliff i'm startin to train myself to b a marathon runner.. so nt lyk phebelimlixuan bt i guess ther's owax a first time for everyth? well.. ther's owax this role playin switchin thingy gg on ard for me every wk.. so guess this wk i'm bein optimistic? lols..

owel.. endin soon.. body dyin on me.. gotta wake up at 7am tml agn.. when cn i eva get my 8hrs.. my precious slp.. well.. meetin wid min and eve tml! (: lyk yay! hopefully min cn turn up too.. miss em so much..

2007-04-06T08:19:00.000-07:00

finally.. i'm bloggin again.. owell.. juz went online and went blog surfing and a lil friendster surfing and en i realise whoa.. i'm once agn v v out of touch wid th world agn.. livin in my own world revolvin ard busy schdules and whole pile of workload and non stop of chorale singin once agn.. lookin at al their profiles and blog entries, reali miss each and every sigle 1 of em.. esp min and twinaiai for sum reason or so.. cuz is lyk reali v v long neva keep in touch wid em le.. is lyk it neva reali happen this way last time.. owax gg out wid em.. at least keepin in contact.. miss th 29o4 clique alot alot oso.. miss th times when we haf b4 sch together.. durin recess and evn aft schs jz hvin a simple lunch.. bt nw.. they are al juz memories.. is kimda diff to get bak to last time when every1 has diff paths of theirs to walk and diff commitments and responsibilities to fufill.. was browsin through friendster and came across tingyu 1.. hmm.. kinda miss her alot alot oso.. been so long dat i reali tok to her oso.. reli miss th times when she smack me hard on my bak or i smack hers to juz wake each other up.. well.. tried this on my other frens when they're reali tired.. bt none of them find dat it works.. al they juz tink is OUCH! well.. dat's th tingyu and phebe thing ba.. wonder wil she eva get to read this.. bt tingyu, if u eva do, i'm missin u alot oso! owell.. gettin v emo agn.. dunno wat's wrng wid me recently.. been hvin extreme moodswings.. 1 moment cn get reali v depressed and stressed and en start breakin dwn and cryin lyk a big crybaby and th nxt i'll b smilin and hu noes when i'll start gettin v moodless agn and th whole cycle starts.. haix.. muz b dat H thing dat's doin their job agn.. tsktsk.. owell.. bt seriously, i reali miss every single 1 of em alot.. :/

well.. been reali bz this wk as usual.. choir was reli bad.. tink nelson kwei was reali pissed wid us.. tink he kinda gave up on us and en ask th SLs to gif us auditions 1 by 1 and if we fail, we gonna get kicked out of th concert and when th concert's juz 10days away (i tink).. went for th 1st round well.. onli 1 j1 alto passed so obviously i failed.. went hme wid a reli bad throat cuz i'm stil feelin damn unwell.. was so sick th nxt day and went to c th doc agn.. i spent lyk a total of 71bucks on my medical fees already la.. haix.. most ex summor.. en woke up at 9.30 and prac my songs till 1plus b4 gettin a quick nap aft takin my med.. felt kinda drowsy stil when i woke up.. went for th 2nd round of audition sang halfway and xianhui told me nt to sing and go hme and rest and she say she'll test me agn.. i kinda lyk aft when i eklft broke dwn and cried agn? haix.. sumtimes i juz feel dat i'm reali v v useles.. th onli thing dat i noe hw to do is juz cry ): fadee and char and josephine tried to cheer me up.. bt well.. is lyk i spend th whole day tryin to learn my scores instead of gettin my rest and en al my efforts al gone dwn th drain.. can't sing properly.. keep pitchin wrongly.. mixin up my entries.. etcetc.. i dunno wat's al th effort 4.. in th end it seemed lyk nth worked out for me oso.. haix.. was reali v demoralised.. 9yrs of my choir life neva once lyk dat.. ~~kinda regret joinin th choir.. cuz is reli pullin down my schwork and i'm failin al my tests.. i dun wanna get retained bcuz of choir oso..~~ :/ well.. guess dat's th diff of a gold wid honours choir and silver choir bt stil.. i miss uvphs alot alot.. went bak on mon.. saw miss yee and th rest was reali v happy (: hopefully, they'll jiayou and do their best for their syf! kinda sad dat i cldn't go for their comp.. if is nt bcuz if bio spa.. i'll prolly juz skip sch th whole day and juz go.. owell.. wish em luck ba.. and oso wish me luck.. gg for audition (not AGN! ):) on mon cuz i'm stil nt feelin well.. doubt i'll b gg tml oso.. math tuition! well.. studies are stil piority i guess?

well.. guess i shall end here.. nth much to rite bout oso.. my life's kinda borin revolvin ard choir and schwork and neva endin complains.. oh.. bt well.. i manage to actuali sit on a hill and saw many many stars! (: evn tho th street lights are stil v bright, th stars and th company was juz simply sweet and wonderful! (:

2007-04-01T02:15:00.000-07:00

heyyas.. lyk finally i'm bak to updatin my blog.. well.. seems lyk is been a reali reali reali long time bloggin.. well.. once u enter jc's life is reali hectic al th way man.. u dun evn get th chance to rest at al.. my body was so tired and finally they decided to break down.. didn't go church today and went to c a doctor.. was damn sick till i totally lost my voice.. i cldn't evn tok properly.. imagine phebe nt tokin.. whoa can die man.. keep tryin to tok and make sum sound out of it bt nth much came out oso.. tsktsk.. bt imagine singin for lyk 3hrs straight and en rest 1day and sing 5hrs straight and th whole wk th earliest time u reach hme is 7.30 and dat day doesn't haf choir is juz normal lessons.. and aft u get hme and u're so tired and ur onli restin time is havin ur dinner and bathin and en u haf 2 make urself wake up no matter wat lyk mayb slappin urself or bangin ur head on th wall or sth so as to finish up dat mountain full load of work dat u haf bt th most dat u eva can do is lyk onli one per day.. cuz by th time u settle everyth, u can onli start work at lyk 11pm and u gt 2 get to bed by 1 or sth if nt u'll juz die off tml mornin.. and u cannot evn get th chance to take a wink cuz most of th time u'll b movin fr 1 place to another.. juz imagine.. dat's hw hectic my whole life haf been.. i guess i reali nid alot alot of strength to adapt to al these esp to sum1 hu likes to slp alot.. nw, i dun evn get th chance to get a proper rest.. guess today's my first day dat i cld actuali slp in.. imagine when i'm fine and i start goin to church, i wun evn get to slp lyk 8hrs a day.. is DAT bad.. owell.. juz randomly complainin.. nth much to update oso.. been reali v bz wid choir oso.. their choir's lyk damn hectic la.. guess dat's wat u get when u're in a gold wid honours choir.. reali wid great powers reali cum great responsibility.. and anw.. juz makin an announcement.. any1 interested to cum to ajc's choir concert on 16apr? is a mon nite.. tickets are at 16 and 21 bucks.. is in th esplanade lei dat's y is so exp.. plz plz.. cum support me lei.. i sing until no voice so dat's th least thing u ppl humane enuff out ther to do for me! heex.. jkjk.. can't possibly force ppl to go watch my choir concert oso.. owell.. bt if any1 interested, tel me asap can? can hlp ual get th tickets unless ual wanan go sistic and purchase urself lo..
bt anw.. juz wanna say thanks to anet eve and min for gg? lols.. well.. at least dat made me felt beta lyk gt ppl go and watch esp anet.. thanks alot mei! was reali so sweet of u.. she didn't evn mind gg down to watch herself.. thanks alot.. reali kinda touched.. well. we shall gogojiayou togethe rin our respective schools alrite? noe is tough.. bt we'll hang on no matter wat ya?

anw.. had a 4faith'o6 gatherin on fri.. lyk yay! finally aft much discussion, we stil went dwn to marina bay steamboat for our gatherin.. seriously, dat's lyk th best and cheapest place u can find le la.. hahas.. and th food's clean.. bt guess sumtimes ppl haf their unfounded worries? owell.. had a fun time at ther tho.. did quite alot of catchin up wid em.. bt th sad thing is i cldn't tok la.. bt seems lyk our class is kinda ajc and ijc populated lei.. lols.. 2 xtremes schs.. owell.. bt was fun tho (:

well.. missed stomp th yard wid min and eve.. hw sad..t to cld finally watched a movie wid them or sth.. bt haix.. cuz of hectic prog cldn't watch wid them.. owell.. nxt time ba.. hopefully they'll b free oso.. well.. al th best when ual start sch in poly! jiayou! and oso thanks for th other time when u 2 were so concerned 4 me aft readin my blog or sth? so guess blogs are gd in a sense aftal.. at least they make u noe bout each others' lives? so thanks for al those care and concern th other time.. reali appreciate it alot (:

well.. guess i endin here le.. whoa.. quite a long post huh.. reli no time to blog man.. so many things to do.. so lil time.. :/

wel.. guess is reali v diff to meet up wid each other when everyth seems so hectic etctec.. can't find th rite time.. bt no matter wat.. plz dun gif up.. cuz i neva wil.. hang in ther..

2007-03-21T08:21:00.000-07:00

well.. is been a reali reali long time since i started updatin my blog le.. throughout these few days.. well.. many things (unhappy >> ): ) happened to me.. haix.. i've been reali breakin down these few days.. owell.. so sick of cryin.. eyes are swollen and puffy fr cryin oso ): haix.. sumtimes i reali dun undst wat God reali wans fr me la.. well.. i listened to him and went bak to ajc aftal and didn't go ijc.. bt en y iszit when i decided to b positive and nt wallow in self misery anymor en everyth has to cum crashin dwn to me once agn?! i reali dun understand.. i'm lyk
"sufferin" in ajc nw la.. u told me to go bak i went and en y aren't things turnin out well for me? haix.. i'm pratically cryin every night la.. is been a long long time since i did dat.. keep tryin to stay positive and look at things fr different angle.. bt no matter wateva angle i tried to look at, i stil dun understand wat's al these for.. God, are u tryin to test me agn? is been a long long time since i cried lyk dat already.. ):

well.. as i was bloggin.. was checkin through my mail and saw a forwarded mail fr huigun.. well.. th mail goes sth bout a story bout a donkey hu fell into th well.. and en th farmer decided to seal up th well since th donkey and was old and he didn't wanna retrieve it.. so th farmer and his neighbours started shovelin dirt into th well.. to their surprise, everytime th famer and his neighbours shoved dirt into th well.. he wld shake it off and take a step up. soon, the donkey cld evn stepped over th edge of the well and trotted up..
MORAL OF TH STORY:
Life is going to shovel dirt on you, all kinds of dirt. The trick to getting out of the well is to shake it off and take a step up. Each of our troubles is a steppingstone. We can get out of the deepest wells just by not stopping, never giving up! Shake it off and take a step up.

tink through th mail as i read it.. well.. it feels lyk is speakin to me and nt speakin to me at th same time.. and hopefully i'll b able to find th step to get out of this damn well of mine.. :/ was tellin myself to jiayou jiayou jiayou today.. and en had a bad end.. u thrown me al th way bak into th dumps and nw, aft i haf lyk finally picked myself up i hafta start al over agn ): great.. so wat.. nw is to test hw strong i am huh.. uh wadeva.. *roll eyes.. juz feel so discouraged and disheartened.. evn lost my appetite to eat la.. yay! so finally i found a way to jian fei huh.. =.=

aj choir i reali tough man.. sectionals al th way fr 2.30 to 7 today and bcuz of dat cldn't get a bite at al cuz of th previous 3hrs plus toks and gt a veri bad gastric.. ): bad till i started cryin.. well dat's juz part of th reason tho.. sumtimes i reali ask myself y did i evn decided to go bak when i noe i'm gonna b miserable ther.. lyk wat's wrong wid me? juz blew my chance away lyk dat.. guess gt no1 to blame except myself.. oh God, y can't u juz bring bak th positive and cheerful phebe cuz this phebe nw totally sux lyk hell >> ))))):

2007-03-12T05:25:00.000-07:00

well.. updatin my blog agn.. hmm.. so th first day of th mar hols are finally here! (: yay.. well.. at least today i was able to slp in and thankfully i gt enuff slp b4 wakin up.. bt actuali i cldn't reali slp aft reachin a certain timin oso.. guess th body's clock is used to th wakin up early.. bt guess ther were things on my mind dat reali required me to tink.. is lyk well.. tot of sth reali veri silly ytd.. i was decidin to appeal out of ajc and en transferred to innova.. guess any1 hu reads this entry wil kinda lyk tink i v qian bian ba.. lyk anderson such a gd jc dun wanna stay and wanna go to such a lousy jc oso.. actuali i dunno wat was on my mind oso.. cuz well.. i was tinkin dat mayb aftal i dun suit anderson.. juz feel kinda uncomfortable in th environment ther.. oh well.. dunno if ijc's environment is gonna make me beta oso.. bt hopefully it'll b a beta 1? told my parents and guess they kinda lyk either gif up on me already or juz let me make my own decision for my own future.. dunno y bt i kieep havin th feelin dat aft dat time when i did sth reali bad and en apologiesd to my dad, he's been veri patient and tolerant towards me.. guess is been a reali reali long while hearin him shoutin and scoldin me.. and 4 dat, i juz wanna say, tks alot daddy.. (: he was so nice ytd to let me make my own decision.. rmb if it was th last time, i bet he wld prolly violently object me goin lyk hw he did for meridian.. so well.. went to appeal today.. evn th teacher hu took my appeal form was shock.. y wanna transfer fr anderson to innova.. actuali i dunno.. i guess i was juz followin wat my heart tells me to.. so i gt th call fr ijc durin choir dat my appeal is successful.. whoa.. damn fast man.. so they were lyk askin me to go dwn to settle al my paperwork transfer tml.. bt sumhow i wasn't prepared dat it was gonna b lyk dat.. and so i decided to lyk drag it for awhile in th meantime tink through if i reali wanna get into ijc and forgo ajc.. well.. dat's th place dat every1 is snatchin for.. oh well.. i reali dunno wat i'm tinkin oso.. my parents kinda gt a shock esp my mum.. she kinda discouraged me to go ther oso.. bt guess my dad accepted it or sth le.. haix.. mummy told me u sure u wanna go ther? u goin ther wid th rite motive? iszit bcuz reali of ur studies or ur frens? u sure is God's will.. if u haf th peace of heart to go ijc, en u go.. if u choose nt to listen to God, en u beta prepare to bear th consequences urself.. well.. dat kinda struck me and gt me tinkin.. been spendin th nite to c if i reali wanna go into ijc, if is reali God's will for em.. tryin to find and feel if i'm gonna b feelin veri uneasy if i go ther.. oh well.. juz wishin dat God.. plz gif me an ans by tml.. i nid an ans.. plz show me wat u wan me to do.. if is reali ok for me to ijc to study.. :/ been tryin to put my faith and trust in God bt sumtimes it gets reali v hard when u reali dunno wat God wans fr u and wat he reali has in plan 4 u.. shld i go or stay? haix.. c this damn postin prob reali givin me a big headache man.. this whole thing has been buggin me lyk since th day i received my o's results and choosin wher i shld reali go.. :/ hope al these wil go over real soon..

2007-03-09T08:25:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. updatin agn.. well.. juz waitin for my hair to dry at lyk close to 1.. juz bath an hour ago and gt bak lyk 2hrs ago.. whoa.. juz look at th time man.. oh well.. decided to go to sch for th last day of orientation today.. woke up in th morn feelin kinda lethargic and well abit moodless.. dat's hw morns are without any1 u can tok to ba? oh well.. went ther and saw shina! (: she's bak in ajc le.. they accepted her appeal.. realised gt lots of ppl had successful appeals.. everytime when i hear 1, i'll b lyk tinkin whether ur appeal wil go through anot.. and at th same time, hearin another person appeal goin through means dat 1 lesser chance for u to get inside ajc and of cuz i wil b disheartened.. haix.. juz realised dat this world is reali a veri practical and realistic world.. well.. is nt as if i dunno or wat lurhs.. bt juz sumhw i feel lyk unjustice is bein done.. is nt as if dat they dun haf th cca and he can't contribute to th sch ma.. in fact tink the sch wil juz gain much mor recognition in sports etc wid him ard la.. haix.. dunno hw to appreciate.. summor many of those successful appeals al gt much higher scores and they cld get in.. sum evn use ccas lyk TLDDS to get in la.. and her score is higher by 2pts.. and en juz bcuz he doesn't fit into any cca here he can't get in?! oh well.. sumtimes i juz dun undst.. reali dun understand >> ):

anw.. today was kinda ok la.. at least th seemingly aces day dance turned out to bnicer aft they increased their speed? lols.. and well.. th campfire's th worst dat i've eva been..imaginin hvin campfire at 5pm in th afternoon when th sun's settin and is lyk shinin directly at u.. imagine th heat la.. wasn't veri fun tho.. except th last part.. well.. at least they managed to get sum ppl high? yupp.. went kfc wid maye shina qinpei aft dat and i dunno wat was on my mind, was drinkin th pepsi and i juz spilled th whole cup on my bag :/ i guess i muz b lost in my tots agn.. oh well..
at least ther's stil th 1st 3mths ppl ther la.. so nt dat lonely oso.. bt.. realiwishinuwereherejuzbesideme:/

and i wonder y iszit evn call march hols i hafta go bak to sch for th 5 freakin weekdays la.. 4days is for choir and 1day to get my dumb uniform.. qinpei was sayin wat kind of cca is choir? meant to kill u arhx? whoa.. imagine 4pracs.. i wonder wher i'll get th voice and strength to sing man.. oh well. cheer up phebe! sumtimes self denial do helps (hopefully)

well.. startin my math tuition tml le.. hafta wake up early.. guess i reali nid to get bak my tempo to go bak to studyin le.. haix.. oh well.. every1 in ajc dat i noe haf been askin me eh phebe, u stayin arhx? well.. evn they're surprised dat i stay cuz i kept sayin i can't catch up etc.. actuali evn i myself oso surprised dat i'm actuali stayin.. bt do i lyk haf a choice? juz take it as God's will ba.. if i can't promote up this yr en i tink i noe wher i hafta go le.. yupp..

well.. sori for al th ratings and complainins these few entries.. is juz dat i stil find it abt hard to accept it la.. juz kinda demoralised by everyth.. bt i noe i hafta pick myself up and stop whinin complainin and lamentin.. cuz is no use.. bt juz gif me a bit mor time.. :/

2007-03-07T20:00:00.000-08:00

well.. updatin nw at this itme cuz i didn't go sch today.. haix. actuali wrote a whole long post bout my postin results etc.. and en th stupid blogger had to screw up at th time when i'm feelin my lowest.. haix.. well.. postin results came out and i'm nt v happy.. oh well.. every1's been tellin me dat whoa.. so gd u gt into anderson.. bt i dunno la.. is juz dat i reali dun feel anyth bout gettin in ther.. cuz well.. th main thing is dat i'm goin bak ther alone and u're nt ther.. stupid sch.. noe alot of ppl is lyk vyin for dat chance to get into dat sch so chances if u gettin in is lyk goin to b soo slim.. bt nvm.. we'll neva gif up and persevere on! jiayou.. bt actuali aft lyk 2times of tryin and failin, everyth juz seems abit hopeless and bleak.. i dun wanna go bak ther and struggle out myself.. rmb dat day when i called for our postin reults.. i was shocked of wher u were posted to.. and th whole morn i was askin myself.. y? y did this hpn? sumtimes God's mind is so unfathomable dat no1 can understand wat he's up to.. bt God, if u're hearin this.. plz.. plz let it b successful this time.. plz.. :/

was actuali tinkin of gg poly aft gettin th results bt aft dat decided to gif up dat idea cuz went to nyp dat day and saw a loooong queue of ppl quein up.. so wat.. is dat supposed to b lyk God's will dat i go to a jc.. to a sch lyk ajc and strike out ther on my own.. no way man.. i'll juz die ther.. look at th pressure ther and is enuff to kill me.. haix.. i noe i hafta b positive and persevere and nt gif up when i'm lyk halfway on my race bt sumtimes, is reali v v v hard to juz hang on to it.. and mor imptly, i'm nt a long dist runner.. i'm nt 1 hu can run a marathon without givin up halfway.. so Lord, dun make me run sth alone dat i can neva do it.. is owax been ppl ther for me.. evn in races.. ther's owax twinaiai beside me runnin together wid me and tellin me nt to gif up.. and nw al i ask for is *..

ytd's orientation as usual was damn borin.. was stonin ther half of th time.. wasn't reali in th mood to do anyth oso.. my mind kept driftin off elsewher. haix.. went bak phs to settle sum stuff and tok to ms yeo oso.. she told me dat i cannot gif up and hafta b th pillar of strength nt th lamentin 1 oso.. her words kinda struck me tinkin.. can't possibly let 2ppl wallow together if nt nth's gd is goin to b comin out of it oso.. and i'm tryin.. hopefully i can change al these into my positive strength.. :/

anw.. did sth reali bad on mon.. is been quite long and guess dun wish to elaborate ba.. juz wanna say thanks mummy and daddy for nt scoldin me.. and thanks daddy for nt throwin a big temper out of it.. thanks alot.. i geuss i hafta thank God for this 5letter word called SORRY.. seriously, this word is damn powerful man and of cuz damn diff to say.. bt sayin it reali makes a diff..

guess i'll b endin here soon.. tot mayb cld meet min and eve for lunch bt mum dun allow me to go out cuz i didn't go sch 2dae.. haix.. gg for choir ltr bt guess by en min and eve shld haf fin their lunch and eve cut her hair and they'll prolly b makin their way bak for dinner le.. owell.. miss em.. hopefully durin th mar hols.. wil b able to find a day to meet up and catch up wid em..

and till nw, i stil can't bliff dat i'm in ajc.. i can't imagine myself wearin dat gray shirt and blue skirt.. omg.. tink i look fugly in dat.. i can't bliff i'm reali on my way to jc and i reali hafta get serious and start studyin le.. omg..

2007-03-02T08:25:00.000-08:00

well.. juz makin a quick update since min complains dat i'm takin a damn long time to update my blog.. hahas.. no choice la.. i'm bz ma.. gt so many diff commitments oso.. summor my dad and evn my mum is lyk findin fault wid wadeva i'm doin dat's nt related to studies and choir.. wadeva lurhs.. dat's me wat.. i tok so much.. blame it on urself for givin me talkative genes? -.- c.. dat's y i say i'm so sick and tired.. every once in a while and en ual wil start scoldin and shoutin at me and en we'll start this whole i'm pissed at u and ual are pissed at me cycle.. sickenin.. and th worst thing is hannah she did soo well for her A's la.. gt straight As and a B4 for her gp.. omg.. stress me nw.. she did so well so i can't b lyk anywher reali lower than her or wat.. and ther goes th comparin thing agn :/ altho they say they dun compare bt sumhow or so they stil do la.. mayb unknowingly or wat.. bt it suxs.. mayb i shld juz go poly and en they'll haf nth to compare bout oso.. o well.. dat's childish.. bt yes.. i'm nt copin well wid my work oso.. haix.. i juz can't sit down and study non stop.. dat's 1 thing i admire bout my sis.. she can mug.. as in MUG.. altho mugger seems lyk a mean term or wat? bt wel.. if nt for al th muggin, en u wun oso produce this kind of results ma.. o well.. life is juz soo full of ironies lurhs.. haix..

anw.. today went to crash ijc.. hid in th toilet at first was so afraid of gettin caught cuz well sum1 gt caught b4 and th consequences were quite bad la.. bt thank God everyth was ok la (: and ahma if u eva c this which i reali reli doubt so tks alot for acc me in th toilet today and skip ur morn assembly.. well.. altho u owax say me :/ bt u're stil a fren in nid is a fren indeed! (: attended sum lectures and realise their speed reali much slower compared to ajc.. so dunno whether is gd anot.. o well.. many things happened oso.. decided to look for my shoes aft dat bt cldn't find la.. walk here and ther until go to th woodlands causeway ther.. went th town garden when it started pourin and hid in a playgrd wher apparently ther's a shelter bt lyk no use oso.. cuz al th rai keep comi in and we were of cuz veri drenched and so were our bags.. so evn th didn't manage to buy th shoes bt it wasn't a wasted trip aftal (:

anw.. meetin min eve ahma for shoppin for my shoes tml! (: bt b4 dat meetin mel jie for lunch. kinda sad joyce can't make it cuz she has her bai nian to do.. nvm.. ther's stil a nxt time.. so yesyes.. at least can c 1 of them.. miss them kinda much and of cuz alot of catchin up to do.. (: and so i shall end here and get my slp! damn tired nw la.. life in jc is neva ez esp when u haf v heavy commitments goin on.. oh and i gt my math test bak and i failed badly.. gt lyk 6.5/22 and guess i'm th lowest and apparently this 1 are th easiest math topics.. c how dead i am? i already said i sux at math :/ o well.. hu cares.. my slp mor impt now.. heex..

2007-02-25T19:30:00.000-08:00

hvin gp lectures nw.. supposedly supposed to do research on sum world news or wadeva.. bt well.. nt reali in th mood to do nw.. feelin damn moody nw.. oh well.. dunno y oso.. mayb cuz i lost my dat nalgene bottle.. th 1 pinwen gave to me 1.. guess today's nt my day.. oh well.. bt well.. is cheyenne's bdae today! so happy 17th bdae cheyenne.. (: missinualot&alotkeeptinkinofuwishinuwerehere:/
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anw.. found my bottle le.. (: it was at th auditorium.. hahas.. 4gt to take it juz now.. phew.. bt oh well.. th whole day reali didn't turned out well for me.. haix.. juz quarreled wid my parents agn agn.. sumtimes i reali wonder iszit juz communication breakdown btwn us? lyk i can't understand them and they oso can't understand me.. i noe they were already bein veri nice to allow me to go sentosa th other time.. i noe how much they try to compromise.. so iszit reali my fault? sumtimes i reali wonder.. bt well.. i tot is beta to let em noe truthfully lyk wher i was goin etc bt guess it was al wrong suddenly is lyk so much beta nt to tell em and everyth.. juz lyk today aft comin bak hme fr choir was lyk so tired and hungry bt decided to tel my parents dat i was goin to mjc tml and en ijc on fri.. and en they scolded me for keep on hoppin here and ther.. well.. is nt i wan to.. is juz get sum other sch's experiences b4 i reali settle dwn.. is lyk i DO noe my limits la.. until nw, can't they c dat i hate them to control me lyk dat.. ok.. mayb i'm reali wrong to b so stubborn and insist everyth to b done my way :/ bt i juz told em dat i was reali considerin bout poly cuz i've been tinkin these few days.. does th jc sys reali suit me? haix.. and en my dad started scoldin me and say i follow friends agn.. so well and dat gt on my nerve agn.. so ok mayb my attitude of speakin bad to him was kinda bad so i was lyk follow hu.. follow hu.. u tel me la and my eyes was open v wide tink dat pissed him off and aft dat he started askin my mum wher's th cane or sth so wat is he lyk gg to whack me?! wadeva.. en my mum say no cane en lyk an hour ltr he told my mum u tml go buy 2canes if nt th nxt time i'm gg to use th stick.. wadeva.. ytd nite mum was juz tellin him he shldn't throw th chair th other time and he cld lyk say until is al my fault and nt his and en nw he wans to use th stick?! 4get it la u might as wel beat me to death *&^$$! ): was lyk tellim myself jz nw th nxt time if my dad uses violence at me agn i'm gonna run away fr hme.. reali.. is lyk wat's this family gettin to me man.. keep gettin into quarrels and my dad dong bu dong use violence on me.. hello! for goodness sake i'm 17 and i'm a GIRL and u stil wanna use violence.. plz.. we've been lyk quarrelin wid each other on and off.. ok en nt ok en ok agn for th past 3days and i'm totally sick of it.. since we find so hard to get along wid each other i might as wle juz leave th hme save th trouble of u gettin pissed at me and me gettin pissed at u.. haix.. sori for bein rebellious bt sumtimes is juz dat i reali can't take it anymor.. i reached my boilin pt le.. it has been lyk this since sec3 onwards and i'm reali v sick and tired of al these le.. mayb i'm reali turnin bad. i noe my attitude sux sumtimes bt i reali cannot take it le.. sumtimes is lyk dun u tink u're bein too petty oso.. keep gettin angry over nth and keep usin violence towards me.. everytime u get so disappointed and unhappy at me.. b y dun u put urself in my shoes and dat's th xact way dat i feel bout ual.. sumtimes i reali wish to juz tel ual my probs bt everytime aft tellin ual al i get is disappointments and condemnations and scoldins.. i reali dun c th pt anymor.. everyth is juz gettin so meaningless ): so my mum was lyk tokin to me and ask me to behave myself en i was lyk tellin her wat i felt and everyth bt 1 thing which i reali regretted sayin was tellin her if daddy's goin to beat me i'm goin to run away fr hme.. i had enuff le.. of cuz i was cryin la.. hello.. dat hurts ok.. well and bcuz of dat she scolded me mor.. o well.. noe she's worried bt reali.. can she c th struggle dat i'm in.. haix.. noe they're strugglin wid me too.. since is so diff i'm so tempted to put everyth to an end lurhs.. save al th heartache al th worryings and al th cryings.. haix.. ):
actuali wanted to blog bout my bdae celebrations etc bt guess i reali nt in th mood to nw.. knew today was reali bad.. since mornin until nw nth has been goin smoothly oso ):

so guess i shall juz thank those ppl here hu celebrated my bdae and make it such a memorable 1.. thanks ppl.. (: bt is reali th best bdae i had.. yupp.. so thanks to:
1.deeumadearealispecialbdaecelebration4metks4puttinaltheffortrealivtouchedwellmytearsareproof(:tksforatleastmakinmefeellykimlovedandcaredforandbeincherishedheartsu!
2.those hu celebrated cheyenne's and my bdae! (: eve.min.anet.wenqi.jolene.
*well noe th other 29o4 gurls cldn't make it cuz is stil durin cny ma summor is ren ri lei.. thanks for ur bdae wishes anw! (:
3. those hu wished me happy 17th bdae 1 way or another!
4. hueva dat decided to release th fireworks on dat day and at dat time! (:

well.. had many diff surprises this bdae (: of cuz v pleasant 1s la.. thanks for al ur effort put in reali am veri touched.. oh ya.. min and eve and victorr, thanks alot for dat box of hearts! :D well.. many unexpected ppl wish me happy bdae this yr oso.. while expected sum ppl to wish hu didn't in th end? oh well.. is ok la.. evn my own auntie and cousin oso 4gt la.. lols.. my bdae dat diff to rmb meh? o well..

guess shall end here le.. at least i feel much beta aft bloggin? hopefully la.. stil feelin abit down.. haix.. God, if u're hearin me, pls help me and teach me wad to do :/

2007-02-18T20:07:00.000-08:00

today's th 2nd day of chi new yr.. time reali passes veri fast man.. juz 1 mor day of hol and en i'm bak to sch bt in another uh.. 5days mor is phebe's bdae! *hinthint.. xP heex.. bt well.. this new year was kinda diff la.. quite alot of things happen oso.. bt thank god everyth turned out fine.. esp btwn my dad and my uncle and of cuz my grandpa.. :D onli knew dat ytd when i saw my grandpa.. omg.. he looked lyk 10Kg lesser.. and of cuz he looked weaker.. :/ felt kinda heartpain when i saw him.. lyk it was lyk 2mths ago th last time i saw him, and en th nxt time i saw him he was lyk sooo thin already.. oh well.. i guess absence reali makes th heart fonder.. and is owax lyk this.. when u lose sth, en u'll reali learn how to cherish it.. sumtimes human beings are owax so fan jian.. is lyk u noe wat u shld b doin lyk cherishin u haf th ppl ard u and treasure everyth u haf instead of grumblin and whinin and complainin non stop.. dunno y sumhow is owax lyk this.. oh well..

toked to ahma and min on th phone for lyk 3 1/2h ytd la.. lols.. already sooo long neva tok till so shuang le summor my dad didn't evns cold me.. guess he muz b too tired le.. hahas.. so slept at lyk ard 2plus ytd bt woke up at 9plus today.. keep makin myself slp bt sumhow cannot go bak to slp.. summor th stupid lion dance has been drummin non stop this whole morn so of cuz cldn't go bak to slp la.. tsktsk.. guess aft al this slp veri little nites now wanna slp mor oso abit diff le.. this is wat happens when u get so bz lurhs.. oh well.. anw.. woke up this morn and realise our hamster died ytd nite... kinda saddenin la.. tho's th hamster nt mine bt when i heard it, felt kinda sad oso.. peace b wid u dear hammie..

anw.. nice rite? th new blog song.. oh ya.. thanks to nicholas hu "saved" my day la.. was lyk lookin for th song throughout th whole time to download it bt cldn't.. so nicholas, if u eva c this, thanks alot for hlpin me! and take care cuz noe u're feelin unwell.. oh ya.. jiayou for sun oso! sori i can't go support u cuz is a sun nite.. bt nevertheless.. keep ogin and al th best for u and ur band! (:

alrighty.. shall end my post here le.. guess ltr i'm nt goin visitin le.. so guess shld by goin min's hse early ba! :D kinda miss al of them.. and happy 2nd day of cny every1! (:

2007-02-15T06:56:00.000-08:00

hmm.. well finally can find a time to update.. hahas.. tml's cny celebration tho ther's sch bt i dun reali care anw.. oh well.. went bak to ajc today.. had math test first thing in th morn and i already haf no clue fr th 1st qn onwards.. a definite fail la.. oh well.. so sch was as usual la.. oh well.. suddenly i dun feel lyk bloggin anymor esp when i'm bloggin things bout sch life.. is kinda borin.. :/

so anw.. finally i bought a bag aft much persuasion fr eve and min.. hahas.. in th end instead of min buyin, i bought it.. and i tink shoppin wid gurls esp for clothes is stil much beta bt bt bt.. is owax this way wher eve and min get to buy th clothes dat i lyk bt i can't wear.. ): this is wat happen if u haf big body mass and weird body shape.. :/ oh well.. bt anw i've gt a new phone! (: hahas.. finally.. altho is juz a typical w810i bt tink i'm startin to lyk th phone esp th big memory space.. and i mean BIIGGG! actuali is nt lyk is 10GB or wat is juz a 512MB bt i'm reali satisfied.. compared to last time when i onli had a pathetic 41MB and hafta keep tinkin of ways to save space for my mp3 songs and oso crackin my brains to tink of which songs to delete away if i wanna take this song etcetc.. th freedom of juz puttin a song into my phone without considerin th memory space is uh.. unimaginable? lols.. and finally i can cancel lyk 3things away fr my veri nt up to date wishlist already.. hahas.. and hint hint.. heex.. 9mor days.. xP

anw.. juz watched th cd dat th sch gave us of our videos.. onli gt our own lo.. tot gt th class de.. bt anw.. managed to get sumvideos fr our class and oh man.. didn't noe guys in my class are dat childish.. tot they onli study study.. rofls.. kk.. actuali every guy do haf their uh.. childish side? lols.. oh well.. bt watchin th video and th ppt brings bak many memories.. esp th ppt slides.. u reali can c hw much each of us has reali grown.. is lyk u dun c th diff bt when u look bak, everyth reali changes.. sum chagned for th beta (: while sum changed for th worst :/ bt th main thing is as long as they are fond memories.. nth else reali matters.. yepp.. feel kinda melancholic..

anw.. chose my jae le.. so in th end ajc was stil my first choice.. bt is nt MY choice mor lyk MY PARENTS' choice.. hafta lyk placate them by puttin dat first.. and en i put meridian as 2nd en nyjc as 3rd.. sajc as 4th and en remainin are poly courses.. sumhow juz hope dat mayb i dun get into ajc? oh well.. is al God's will i guess.. been crashin other jcs oso.. wanted to crash cjc on mon bt due to uh unforeseen circumstances.. didn't manage to.. oops.. bt at least managed to crash mjc on wed.. hahas.. guess jc ppl are mor of thos hu'll celebrate valentines day.. u c flowers goin everywher... gifts and activities.. dedications etcetc.. kinda fun in a way.. lols..

and chi new yr is juz ard th corner and i hvn reali bought any new clothes!! ahh! die.. no time to reali go out to shop oso.. summor ther's lyk nth in clothes shops nowadays dat reali catches my attn and of cuz provided i can wear em nicely oso.. tsktsk.. wat's wid designer nowadays.. they didn't tink of fatter ppl lyk us? mayb nxt time i shld design my own clothes? hahas.. and so much for dat 49kg.. tink i'm lyk movin furthur and furthur away fr my target.. which equals to i'm gainin weight! i feel fat!! :/

hmm.. realise hw fast time reali flies man.. is lyk how everyth juz cum and go so fast.. guess th sayin is reali true.. th most easily wasted and precious thing in this world is stil TIME aftal.. once is gone.. is neva gonna cum bak agn.. yupp.. stil tryin to learn hw to cherish time and of cuz th ppl ard me.. bt time realic hanges th heart.. changes th ppl.. changes everyth..

anw.. happy belated valentines day! :D

tks4datsweetvalentine(:

2007-02-11T05:53:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. finally updatin my blog aft a million thousand cow years.. yupp.. finally can find th time to blog oso.. everytime wanan blog oso veri diff cuz well my dad's owax usin th comp or if nt i'm nt free to use th comp oso.. oh wel.. guess by nw every 1990baby already noe their o's results le.. :/ hmm.. and duh.. gt mine too.. bt till now, dun noe if i shld b hapi or sad bout it.. bt i guess mayb i shld b satisfied wid my results ba.. cuz aftal i didn't put in xtra effort for my o's compared to my prelims and of cuz i feel dat i put in mor in my prelims than durin o's.. i guess i'm reali nt a marathon runner.. i can't run a race for veri long.. i guess i juz dun haf th stamina to run for so long and well.. i get tired veri easily and of cuz gif up veri easily dat's wat happen in al my jogathons in my 4yrs in phs ma.. owax givin up halfway or even when i'm lyk 200m away fr th finishin line.. oh well.. dat's me i guess.. anw.. so i gt wat i gt bak for prelims.. 12pts.. yupp.. at least wid this pt, i can stil haf quite many choices so i shld b satisfied juz veri disappointed wid my combined humanities.. bt i shld b glad at th same time cuz at least i'm much beta off than sum ppl.. esp hendri.. tink i reali pity him lo.. poor thing.. so now is al to th "i muz make a decision" agn thing.. haix.. so sick and tired of lookin at th book already.. and i dunno if i shld stay in ajc oso.. haix.. is lyk well.. ther's th choir to consider and of cuz th studyin environment and everyth.. i noe goin to a new jc means i hafta adapt veri quickly to their culture bt seriously, i reali dun mind tryin sth new cuz th culture at ajc is reali kind mundane and borin.. and of cuz dat inclused th stress factor.. bt ya la.. can't possibly b condemnin bout th sch onli.. at least i had quite a fun class! :D th ppl ther oso kinda interestin.. didn't manage to noe every1's results.. onli noe one or 2 onli.. and en ther's stil th subj comb to consider about.. haix.. i owax hate makin decisions and nw, i hafta make sooo many decisons al at 1go at such a limited itme is reali testin my limits man.. juz get so sick of tinkin bout it oso.. oh Lord, plz show me ur guidance.. i tink God beta speak to me soon if nt i'll b stil lyk a wu tou gui unsure of wher am i gonna head nxt to.. :/

anw.. went ijc and yjc's funfairs ytd.. hmm.. sumhow aft lookin at their funfairs tink phs 1 dat time is stil much beta lei.. much mor interestin oso.. dunno y oso.. and watched th video dat they gave us.. awww.. al th memories juz came flowin bak for these 4yrs.. rmb.. comin into th sch at first "hatin" th sch and en now, lovin th sch and dun feel lyk leavin.. guess is th ppl and th teachers ther dat made it al so memorable for me.. and aft watchin and tinkin bak, realise how time reali flies man.. juz glad dat at least when i look bak, didn't reali regret my 4yrs ther.. at least i made a bunch of reali gd frens andosou.. (: and osos through this, realise i shldn't waste my time and make sure i make th correct decisions so as nt to haf any regrets in th future when i tink bak about it.. yupp.. bt this kinda add on to th pressure to me to make th rite decision oso.. haix.. juz dun feel lyk returnin to ajc's choir these few days.. juz feel lyk enjoyin myself b4 i reali start committin provided dat i'm gonna stay ther la.. ohwell.. c how things ba.. and is owax so nice to go out wid th 29o4 gurls.. reali miss each and every1 of them alot.. well.. they were th 1 hu made a great part of my memory at phs oso ma.. so of cuz they're 1 of th most treasured la.. yupp..

alrite.. crashin cjc tml.. oops.. hee.. bt so ma fan lo.. stil muz borrow their shirt to wear.. tsktsk.. oh well.. hopefully God wil gif me an ans by tues and en i'll noe wher to go.. :/

2007-02-02T06:00:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. well.. bak to updatin.. oh well.. as usual.. been reali bz and i guess my body reli can't take it le.. so i fell ill.. guess th whole coughin thing reali worsen.. well.. thanks to twinaiai hu spread to me since last yr.. it has nt get any beta throughout these 5, 6 wks.. oh well.. in th end went to th polyclinic to c a doctor.. guess my throat was infected badly.. and i hafta swallow tablets dat's darn big agn! ))): ah.. sumhow i tink either my oesophagus is darn small or my glottis is darn tiny th tablet owax has difficulty to find its way down to my throat.. :/ terrible feelin.. and th worst thing is i ate th antibiotics ytd and today gt so much worst? i vomited and had a loss of appetite la.. oh well.. vomited out and en felt beta.. well.. so instead of goin ajc i went to yj instead.. hmm.. they al start so late de.. unfair.. went ther th sch's quite ok.. kinda old tho.. bt nvm la.. aj oso new bu dao na li qu.. lols.. bt th canteen's food quite nice i guess? except dat is kinda small la.. didn't stay ther for veri long tho.. yupp.. anw.. ajc's choir damn tough man.. they haf sooo many pracs and curse dat stupid composer la.. th set piece darn diff oso dun evn noe how to sing la.. bt i guess wid great powers reali cum great responsibility.. bein in a gold wid honours choir is neva easy.. of cuz ther's definitely bound to b many sacrifices.. and time is 1 of th main sacrifice.. is lyk if u're in this kind of choir, for syf.. u can get nth less than gold wid honours if nt dat's gonna b a definite embarrassment la.. oh well.. stil tinkin if i shld stay in th choir aft 1st 3mths bt besides i dun evn noe if i can go bak ther.. nid to wait for my results oso.. moreover dunno if i'm stayin ther oso.. th culture stil nt veri accustomed bt i lyk my class now tho.. a bunch of interestin ppl.. (:

anw.. my dad threw his temper at me ytd and he threw a chair at me! )))): arrgh.. can't totally blame him cuz i argued bak at him and threw a temper oso.. bt does he hafta throw a chair? and en now my hand hurts lyk *^&^%! oh well.. he was scoldin me for usin th phone, throwin a temper etcetc.. bt sumtimes is nt dat i wanna throw a temper or wat ma.. bt when u cum hme and th day gets so stressful and u're already so tired.. bein in a foul mood, u reali dun nid al these to make u feel evn worst rite.. sori daddy if i haf such a hot temper.. is nt dat i wan it oso.. bt y do u hafta throw th chair and evn threaten to kick me out.. actuali i dun mind gettin out la.. bt well.. i hafta control.. and nt b lyk u to let th emotions rule over my head.. wadeva lurhs.. so now.. i'm nt tokin to him.. nt tok to him since mornin until now.. blame th dominant genes of me gettin ur stubborness.. i'm sori.. if i sound unfillial.. sumitmes i juz feel disappointed and i'm sori if i made u feel disppointed.. i reali felt bad when i saw u threw th chair at me and injured ur toe for i dunno how u gt it injured and it bled so badly.. oh well.. th ironies agn.. he's my dad aftal.. :/

anw.. ther's hpt installation tml and apparently i'm in charge of decor.. great! such an unartistic person in charge of decor.. lols.. i wonder how disasterous th seminar rm is goin to look lyk tml.. stress man.. and i've to b ther at 9 which means wake up early agn! i miss my slp! ))):

bt i'll continue to gogojiayou! cuz had an inspirin chi lesson lyk 2,3days ago.. th teacher taught me to nt gif up cuz well.. she said sth lyk if u gi up once, ther's bound to b a 2nd time and a 3rd time and en are u goin to run away and gif up ur whenever u're faced wid difficulties? y dun u face it up and b a stronger eprson instead? well.. kinda inspired me to carry on my jc life and nt quit it.. i noe is owax easier to say than done bt at least if i can't hang on, at least i can tel myself i've done my best already.. yupp.. so gogojiayou for those out ther hu are strugglin to carry on! let's strive on! (:

and jie.. in lyk 1hrs time is goin to b ur bdae le! so happie 18th bdae! and hope u'll haf a happy 1 and dat everyth wil go well for u.. best wishes! takaire! hugs! :D

2007-01-28T05:50:00.000-08:00

well.. guess i juz didn't felt lyk doin any work today.. so sick of studyin.. so sick of muggin.. so sick of usin th brains and juz tink about how to solve this prob? etcetc.. oh well.. guess this entry i'm juz about to start whinin and complainin agn.. haix.. dunno y.. feelin a lil to th emo side today.. been tinkin alot when i was on my way hme fr hpt meetin.. well.. guess is reali been a loooong time since i went for hpt le.. went bak ther i felt a lil weird bt thank God ther's eve.. guess i juz didn't reali click initially ba.. bt.. aft dat, thngs gt beta! (: yupp.. wanted to haf dinner wid em bt as usual.. my dad.. haix.. wans me bak for dinner.. sumtimes i reali wonder.. i'm already 17yrs old y does he hafta restrict me this restrict me dat.. hello! i'm no longer young le lei.. oh well.. guess i simply juz dun unds his mindset la.. and finally i cld go blog surfin so as usual.. went to twinaiai's blog first.. and saw th 29o4 gurls at marina celebratin wenqi's bdae.. oh man.. felt lyk a rush of emotions runnin through me la.. i felt lyk i missed out alot and alot and of cuz i miss every single 1 of em too.. and al bcuz my dad didn't allow me to go.. sumtimes th temptation of runnin fr hme and let me rule my own life is so temptin.. bt i guess th flesh is strong bt th heart is weak.. in th end i'll stil relent and b an obedient gurl bt to em.. i'm stil reali veri naughty and rebellious and disobedient etcetc.. lyk wadeva lo.. in their heart i'm already a veri bad gurl so no matter how i try to b nice, is stil pointless.. everyth feels so pointless now.. oh well.. bt i guess th gurls reali did enjoy themselves! anw.. tokin to eve today made me realise i'm reali veri veri out of th world lei.. i've lyk almost lost touch wid every1 of em.. it seems lyk this whole ajc's 1st 3mths life is reali makin me veri veri busy.. i sumhow regretted joinin choir so quickly durin th 1st 3mths.. cuz th choir pracs are reali veri hectic.. and i can say without em, my life wil b so much free-er and beta and en mayb i can meet up wid sum of em.. i feel lyk i;m sum kind of dumb ass hu doesn't haf any idea wat's happenin to my frens etcetc.. and is nt dat i dun care is juz dat i reali can't find th time.. i can't evn find th time for my ownself la.. and seriously, is either eve's sis reali had an enjoyable time at yjc wid this hectic schdule or iszit bcuz th whole 1st 3mths system juz reali changed? cuz is no longer lyk wat her sis say is al bout fun.. every1's lyk rushin their tutorials.. went ther for hpt meetin today saw jack reagen and vanessa al spendin their time doin their tutorials.. al complainin how stress th whole 1st 3mths thing is.. so at least now i noe i'm nt th onli 1.. lols.. oh well.. stil tinkin if i shld reali continue wid jc aft dat oso.. wil poly b beta? bt isn't it al bout studyin and self discipline ther oso? bt in th meantime.. i'm reali veri envious of eve they al la.. altho they're workin, bt i geuss at least workin is much mor beta relaxed and fun than studyin.. at least they dun hafta reali crack their brains.. and cum hme to rush finish hw.. or iszit my previous job was too easy goin and nw, th temptaion of juz followin ppl to quit sch and go work is so overwhelmin? haix.. i seriously dunno la.. i onli noe i haf prob catchin up wid my work and oso i haf a prob catchin up wid my frens.. nw sum of their conversation i seriously haf no idea wat th hell they're tokin bout.. and dat didn't happen last time.. c th difference? )))):

oh well..e nd of this complainin and whinin post.. i feel fat and swollen! damn this whole jc thing! i tot is supposed to make me thinner?! guess al this stress is drivin me crazy and makes me get so hungry easily dat al i do is eat and eat in th hope of releasin th stress.. kk.. wadeva.. i sound lyk sum veri self pathetic asshole here.. :/

2007-01-27T07:11:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. well.. and once agn.. is my weekly bloggin update time! rofls.. guess jc life compare to sec sch life reali damn bz man.. dun even haf enuff time to do this and do dat.. haix.. bloggin bcums lyk so diff oso.. cuz well.. is late in th nite and my dad's scoldin me to slp.. oh well.. wanna use th comp wanna tok on th phone oso so diff.. haix.. i reali dun understand.. is lyk isn't 1st 3mths is supposed to b mor slack or sth? how cum i feel as if i'm bak to my o lvl days wher i haf to pia my studies everyday i get hme and finish up al my work.. arrgh! i dun wanna get bak to this mundane life of studyin veri veri hard agn.. and en when everyth is so bz i dun evn haf time to catch up wid my work and seriously, i'm fallin behind al th lectures man.. i dun evn understand a single thing la.. arrgh! sumtimes it can reali get soso frustratin.. oh well.. juz tryin to do sum whinin here..

anw.. th 29o4 celebrated wenqi's bdae and i cldn't go!! )))): cuz my dad didn't allow.. lyk wth la.. b4 o's lyk dat.. aft o's oso wanna lyk dat.. hello.. at least let me enjoy and meet up wid my frens oso so diff meh? miss al of their company alot and alot man.. haix.. oh well.. hope they did enjoy themselves!

anw.. guess i'm nt buyin D900 aft al.. cuz it doesn't haf radio.. and radio is veri impt to me.. oh well.. so i guesss i hafta wait.. patience..

guess i'm endin here le.. cuz my dad's screamin at me and he evn off al th lights la.. so i'm lyk typin in th dark.. wadeva.. shall tok mor nxt time.. mel jie called me ytd.. had a fun time tokin to her as owax.. and hopefully we'll b able to meet up of cuz wid joyce as well.. th 3 of us.. so long neva go out le.. and can celebrate joyce's jie bdae oso.. (: and anw.. cheer up alrite jie? if u eva c this la.. smile and noe dat we'll owax b ther supportin u! jiayou!

and mel.. big enuff to c le horx? lol..

2007-01-21T05:16:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. finally finally.. i can blog.. well.. wanted to update ytd bt th stupid blogger was bein such a biatch and i cldn't blog.. oh well.. anw.. been reali busy these few days oso dat's y i cldn't reali blog oso.. oh well.. another lots of ups and downs this wk agn.. i guess i'm startin to get accumstomed to th life in ajc le.. al thanks to u! (: well.. u were th 1 hu told me bout th sunray tryin to shine through th dark clouds.. and yesyes.. it reali made me tink alot and i told myself to stop wallowin in self misery and keep puttin ajc in a bias and bad light.. and so it started wid th "i wil lyk ajc" thing goin on in my head.. kept psychoin myself dat i'll lyk ajc and of cuz i'll enjoy my days spend ther.. yupp.. i will.. at least i'll try.. try to enjoy myself and love it instead of givin up.. cuz i realise is reali pointless to complain and whine bout how much i'm "sufferin" at ajc.. cuz in th end th 1 bein miserable is me.. so if ther's a choice to choose btwn bein miserable and happy of cuz i'll choose th latter la.. dat's y i decided nt to wallow in self pity and misery anymor.. yesyes.. gogo jiayou phebe! :D

anw.. went bak sch last thurs and saw char.. well.. she's stil as thin and slim as usual.. *envy.. hahas.. feel so fat beside her.. tsktsk.. wat's wid al my frens.. al so thin.. lols.. oh well.. destined to haf thin frens and i bein th fatter 1.. tsktsk.. anw.. tok to her and she said rumored dat o's wil b released by end of jan.. wow.. dat's lyk super fast and dat's already lyk nxt wk lo.. bt others say is prolly 9feb.. so is lyk dunno hu to bliff oso.. al i noe is dat th results wil b released within these 2,3wks? kinda feelin nervous when i tinkk bout it.. cuz i sumhow dun reali haf a gd feelin bout my results lei.. bt i reali feel lyk gettin it asap.. cuz at least lyk dat i'll noe wher i'll b goin and wher am i reali headin to.. actuali tnkin bout it.. th 1st 3mth ain't a veri gd system cuz wat if i get accumstomed to al these routine now and en suddenly i can't gio bak to ajc hafta go another jc or go poly? en i hafta start al over agn.. is tirin lei.. to make new frens al over agn and get used to everyth agn.. tsktsk.. lyk dat.. i rather nth started..

anw.. tml 's wenqi's and sherjie's bdae! lols.. how fast time reali passes.. is been a yr already and nw they're turnin 17.. and en soon enuff, is urs truly and cheyenne's bdae already! :DDD hahas.. and cheyenne, if u eva c this, we muz celebrate together.. so we muz start plannin wher we wanna go and celebrate ya? heex.. anw.. th 29o4 gurls are goin to marina tml to celebrate wenqi's bdae.. btbtbt.. my dad dun allow me to go! :(((((( haix.. no matter how i tok to him he stil say no.. wadeva lo.. told him veri long neva c them he tel me so? i dun care.. idiot.. promise him wil cum bak early he stil dun allow.. haix.. and bcuz of this, now i dunno when i'll c them agn.. wth.. :( i reali reali miss every single 1 of em!!! now absence reali makes th heart fonder bt distance reali drifts us apart.. is been reeal long since i tok to em.. hope they're al doin fine.. takaire gurls! :/

anw.. i can change my phone!! yay! bt bt bt.. N73 is reali veri ex lei.. en 850i.. dunno lei.. i rather get N73 lyk dat.. my dad asked me if i wan dat samsung D900.. actuali i oso kinda unsure lei.. bt dat phone's sop much mor cheaper and it has gd camera functions and cn slot memory card oso.. so i oso nt sure lei.. anybody gt any lyk useful advices? cuz i dunno if i shld take th phone or juz wait lei.. bt my k700i is reali abit screwed lo.. juz today it send lyk 46sms to my ajc choir president.. arrgh.. no1.. i wasted my precious 46sms! no2. i tink she muz haf gt a shock dat sum idiot kept spammin her.. i tink she muz b cursin me now.. lols.. and th battery of this phone is oso screwed.. so mayb i shldn't wait longer and get th D900? oh well..

anw.. guess they celebratin my shifu's 21st bdae now.. whoa.. so fast.. 21 yrs old le.. so happy belated 21st bdae shifu! hahas.. grow up le la.. and get me a shimu soon! heex.. :X

alrigty.. shall end here.. cuz ther's so many things to do bt soo lil time.. guess i wun b reali bloggin until th nxt wkend agn ba.. can't blame.. i'm busy.. yupp.. bt sumhow bein busy is beta than bein free and rottin and juz wastin th time away.. bt yet at th same time u'll get so sick and tired.. which i am now.. and this dumb cough is makin my chest, my throat, my ear and my head havin pains here and ther.. twinaiai.. u gt a credit for this! hahas.. c la.. nxt time rmb to coevr ur mouth ah.. heex.. bt lyk dat, it makes me rmb u whenevr i cough.. ahahs.. so imaigne how many times a day i'm tinkin of u? lols..

2007-01-13T07:29:00.000-08:00

well.. looks lyk my blog's reali startin to grow cobwebs and dusts.. guess is been reali reali veri long since i last blogged and updated this blog of mine.. well.. i guess bein in a jc is reali veri different.. ur schdule is hectic.. u dun haf time to catch up and revise cuz by en when u get bak hme, u'll b soo freakin tired.. which i am nw.. is lyk i keep fallin aslp aft my dinner these few days.. imagine th amt of fat growin and accumulatin on my already veri fat body.. goodness me.. tsktsk.. so much for "i'm goin to lose weight when i get into jc".. zzz.. oh well.. these few days haf been veri busy wid th lectures and everyth and well.. catchin up wid ppl oso.. and oso.. choosin of cca.. everyth is lyk al comin at 1 bloody go and well.. i'm kinda sick of it.. :( anw.. joined bak choir in th end cuz i'm kinda clueless of wat cca to join oso and since ajc is kinda an established choir, so i dun c any harm joinin oso.. yupp.. thank God i gt through th 2 auditions altho i tot i kinda lyk screwed th 1st 1 up.. :/ i was so prepared to nt get selected and i evn wrote my name dwn for odac.. lols.. bt in th end.. gt passed th 1st and oso th 2nd audition! (: yayness! so in th end i'm stil bak to bein a choir gurl.. i've been dat for almost al my life since pri3.. can u bliff it? lols.. anw.. gt to noe my class for my first 3mths oso.. and th sad thng is, i'm al alone agn! wth.. arrgh.. is lyk no1 fr my og and phs ppl gt into th same class as me la.. which means i hafta start everyth fr scratch agn.. i gotta restart makin new frens al over agn.. rahhs.. :( sumtimes.. it juz gets reali reali veri tirin to make new frens al over agn.. cuz u gotta lyk keep tinkin of things to tok if dat fren of urs is juz gonna keep quiet or sth.. oh well.. i can reali die man.. oh God, plz help me.. tinkin bak, i wonder how i managed to tok to fiona at th first day and en aft dat al th other 29o4 gurls which aft dat made us so close.. th magic thing called frenship.. oh well.. hopefully, i'll b able to fit into these grp of ppl fr my class.. :/ bt i kinda doubt so la.. did sth reali bad on fri.. bt yesyes.. muz reali thank God dat th jump didn't make me break my ankle or wat.. bt well.. blogs are dangerous.. ~~i dun wan ltr sum1 fr aj cum stumble onto my blog and read wat i done and en i can celebrate if i do get a punishment aft dat..~~ lols.. bt actuali, it isnt reali sth dat horrible oso ma.. lols.. oh well..

well.. went to phs today for open hse.. oh i reali so miss dat sch bt sumhow, when u enter, u feel different.. lyk u no longer belong ther anymor.. :( haix.. anw.. saw th choir perform! yay ppl u've done well.. and i can hear altos singin! double yayness! :D bt bt bt.. ual muz reali improve on th facial expressions ya? we're aimin for gold this yr and en we can al go to hongkong! (: heex.. jiayou! well.. aft dat a few of us went walkin ard th sch and saw many diff classrooms.. and as usual.. ccp's 1 stil th best.. rite cheyenne? lols.. and tokin bout cheyenne.. i miss her so much! is been sooo long since i last saw her.. glad dat i was able to c her and of cuz tok to her and spend sum time wid her too! (: well.. th response for choir was quite gd tho and cuz th choir had no booth.. :( cheyenne and i became "huo zhao pai" for th sec1s hu wan join choir! (: hahas..

had lunch at amk and en headed dwn to look for min and eve at chinatown.. en juz when i went to chinatown, they told me ther was nth so went bak al th way to bugis to look for em.. and i tink bugis is oso gettin borin.. th things al look th same and en i cldn't find a bag stil.. :( haix.. hopefully i'll get a nice and cheap and suitable and big enuff 1 reeeal soon.. anw.. wasn't anyth much at bugis and so we went town.. min and i bought a pair of heels each.. tink is nice bt well.. i guess is quite diff to match lei.. so abit regret.. bt nvm.. lyk wat min say, whenever u feel lyk regrettin, juz accept it instead.. make sense make sense.. lols.. aft dat went centrept to look for kel and waited for ahma to release fr work.. saw anet and wenqi too! (: aft dat went heeren to shop mor bt min realise she 4gt to take her shoes so she went bak al th way wid ahma and en finally we cld go hme bt in th end i reached hme at 10plus and as usual.. my dad screamed at me.. wadeva lo.. oh well.. xi guan jiu hao..

well.. church tml.. and i tink i muz reali start studyin and doin sum work already cuz i'm reali laggin behind.. jc's life reali so diff.. i dun lyk th culture in anderson tho.. th ppl ther juz mug and mug.. seriously.. so nt my style.. heard fr yuxin dat evn natalie decided to quit sch.. and nw.. i feel lyk doin th same lyk her.. :( oh well.. i juz can't wait for o's results to cum out.. so at least i noe wher i can reali go.. :/

2007-01-07T07:16:00.000-08:00

well.. juz doin a quick 1 b4 i reali get off and start ironin my uniform and packin my bag! i miss my ahgong.. he's th 1 hu owax irons my uniform for me.. didn't realise his importance until nw he's no longer stayin wid us.. :/ oh well.. y are human beings always lyk dat? when we start losin sth, en we'll start cherishin it.. is lyk a vicious cycle dat al of us are trapped in.. when th thing or th person is ard, we'll neva learn to cherish it, until when is al gone en we'll realise th importance of th person.. and is kinda sad isn't it? well.. actuali i juz wanted to blog bout th powerpt slide dat min forwarded.. oh man.. al our baby photos.. so cutee! rofls.. and of cuz it brought bak many many fond memories.. i felt so nostalgic when i was lookin at al of them.. and of cuz memories started flowin bak of 1grace and 2grace o4.. :/ i tink if u gif me another chance, i'm gonna cherish each of them evn mor and mor and nw, i tink i'm startin to miss every single 1 of em.. actuali is kinda sad dat we didn't manage to haf a 29o4 chalet this yr.. :( oh well.. bt hope sum kind and free soul out ther wil plan a 29o4 outin? and yes.. al th 29o4 gurls wher are u ppl? i miss seein each and every1 of u.. evn ahma, she's juz nxt block fr me and i dun evnr eali get th chance to c her.. how sad rite? haix.. well... y iszit when we start losin, en we start to learn to cherish and treasure it? oh well..

i guess i'm juz gettin abit too emo and uh.. melancholic? when i saw th powerpt slide? bt i hafta thank min for sendin, if nt, i wun evn rmb al these.. and yesyes.. fond memories.. oh man.. look at how we grow.. rofls..

alrighty.. shall end here nw.. time to iron and pack my bag for tml.. rahhs.. > :((((

2007-01-07T06:05:00.000-08:00

heyy.. well.. bloggin b4 i go get started packin my bag for tml.. and so i officially start lessons tml.. bt well.. is juz lectures la..so yesyes.. i'm tinkin of goin other jcs to uh.. crash their jcs? lols.. nono.. i'm a nice gurl.. i'm juz goin ther to attend their lectures or sth? and noe how's th whole thing lyk? hahas.. yesyes.. oh well.. shall c how things go ba.. anw.. today went to church as usual.. bt th unusual thing is wat's wid al th taxis today? and th huge no of ppl wantin to get a taxi early in th morn? oh well.. my sisters and my dad and i waited for a taxi for sooo long la.. 45mins.. can u bliff it? omg.. in th whole 16yrs of my life dat's th longest wait dat i've eva waited patiently.. and in th end my dad was feelin so impatient dat he decided to call a cab.. yepp.. well.. this reali shows dat travellin fr 1 place to another is reali veri veri tirin lei.. so th best is get a transport! hahas.. ok.. dat's so lame..

anw.. went to sp open hse ytd.. well.. was uh.. kinda borin? kinda cold? oh well.. i dun reali lyk th atmosphere or th culture ther? well.. was lookin ard for familiar faces and uh.. saw fishy yuenzhen and i tink dat guy was her bf? lols.. oh well.. th sch's kinda old and big until i kinda lyk lost my way ard? oh well.. and sum of th buildings were so old and deserted and it felt lyk scary and eerie? lols.. ther was 1 of th windows wid a broken glass window.. i tink it felt mor lyk a haunted hse.. lols.. was kinda curious and fascinated about th courses.. oh well.. bt i'm stil contemplatin if poly or jc is stil beta for me? oh well.. hate makin decisions.. esp decisions dat can cause an adverse effect to my life if i made a wrong 1... oh well.. hu doesn't?

anw.. ajc choir juz called me and they asked me go for an audition tml.. whoa! super stress man.. hahas.. is been soooo loong since i went for an audtion le.. kinda nervous even when i tink bout it la.. oh well.. and th worst thing is i'm kinda afraid dat ltr i can't pass th auditons or sth.. cuz well.. th choir's a gold wid honours choir lei.. and if i reali dun get it, dat's gonna b lyk a total embarrassment.. well.. sori.. i dun haf veri thick skin and i haf quite a high sense of pride ok.. yepp.. so yesyes.. kind souls out ther if i'm reali goin for th auditions tml plz pray dat i'll get through and en i'll feel so veri thankful.. hahas.. i sound as if i'm makin an appeal.. oh well.. wadeva..

2007-01-05T07:00:00.000-08:00

oh finally! finally i'm able to blog agn.. blogger is reali veri veri screwed.. i tink if i can find th opportunity or th time i'm gonna change to livejournal or sth.. kinda pissed off wif al this laggin thing.. and i tink th opportunity is gonna take forever.. i dunno y.. it seems as if ther's owax sth goin on which is gd in a sense at least i'm kept busy and nt bored and well.. i guess th laziness in me oso la.. sumtimes juz plain lazy.. twinaiai made a blogskin for me lyk million cow yrs ago (ok dat's an exaggeration) bt bt bt.. is stil quite long ago oso.. and i haven't even find th time to edit th template and change it to my new blogskin.. sori twinaiai for al dat work.. promise u i'll change it if i find th time.. oops.. heex..

anw.. these few days haf been reali busy.. well.. sch has started.. so how free can i reali get oso.. oh well..

02jan'07
went out wid min eve yuxuan vic and sherjie to bugis for sum shoppin.. uh.. well.. as usual.. i was late.. oops.. so much for my new yr resolution no3.. lols.. is ok.. i stil haf a whole yr of 2007 muinus 2days to fufill it.. heex.. gd way of self deceivin myself.. hahas.. well.. so in th end min eve and i didn't reali manage to find our bags.. bt bt bt.. i'm officially startin lessons lyk nxt mon and i haven't find a bag yet.. :( i nid a bag!! means mor shoppin.. bt i reali can't squeeze out anymor time le lei.. haix.. oh well.. anw.. in th end we started shoppin for yuxuan and he bought lyk 2bermudas and a pair of jeans i guess.. we went fos oso.. so dat rock republic skirt.. super nice and of cuz cheap.. budget! bt ther wasn't my size! ): guess i'm too fat la.. oh well.. bt in th end stil managed to buy a white skirt.. (: went heeren to buy pins and i saw pinwen! :D is been a reeeal long time since i last saw him.. missed him! well caught up a lil and gtg le cuz i needed to go hme and he needed to get bak to his work.. oh well.. nvm.. shall find him 1day for lunch aft my jc hopefully he wun b workin dat day oso.. yupp..

03jan'07
well.. had serious trouble of tryin to wake up at 6 agn.. oh man.. is th veri first day of sch and th veri first day of me goin to ajc.. scary.. was feelin kinda nervous when i was in th train makin my way ther.. well.. felt kinda sick of th tot dat i hafta start everyth anew alone.. haix.. altho ther's lyk 20phs ppl ther bt none of them was i reali close wid oso.. oh well.. say i'm dependent or wat.. bt i neva lyk bein independent and strike out myself oso.. so gt to my grp and realise sihui and zhiwei were in th same grp as me! (: ok.. at least gt sum familiar faces.. bt well.. tok a bit and en most of th time was silence.. i felt kinda awkward.. bt i juz didn't reali noe wat to say oso.. had sum principal tok and subj tok at their auditorium which made me reali feel lyk sleepin.. i tel u aj ppl damn smart man.. they make their tables such a way dat u put ur head ther th whole thng wil juz collapse and resultin u to b unable to slp.. i was lyk practically holdin onto th table when slpin la.. of cuz.. had a tough time.. hahas.. aft dat had sum bondin games etc.. well.. in th beginnin everybody looked so serious and quiet? no1 reali spoke.. played double wacko and a few games and well in th end cuz of sotongness.. i had to do a forfeit la.. was asked to sing a song.. super embarrassin.. didn't noe wat to sing so juz sang twinkle twinkle lil stars? rofls.. so dumb lurhs.. had lunch bt it was horrible.. i was soo hungry yet th food tasted lyk ___.. juz imagine.. en had sum dance session.. well.. was kinda confusin so didn't reali catch th moves and by en was so tired already.. had treasure hunt too bt it wasn't reali fun oso.. i kept tellin sihui and of cuz countin down th time when th whole orientation can quickly finish and i can go hme.. i was feelin sooo bored..
well.. th sch didn't reali gif me a veri gd first impression.. i felt as if th sch was super calculative la.. well.. cuz supposedly my ogls were supposed to call me and tell me al th details and evryth bt they didn't.. so i didn't bring money and my pe shirt.. they evn made me pay th money for my handbook and my food b4 they're willin to gif me my food and my handbk and onli wanted to gif me my op (orientation package) unless i paid up.. ey didn't even wan to gif me th collar pin.. th worst thing is they made me feel as if is my own fault dat i 4gt to bring th money nt theirs.. bt hello! no1 told me anyth.. how am i supposed to noe?! i dunno if i'm too sensitive or wat.. bt it was reali a bad impression and of cuz a veri bad day.. >:(

04jan'07
i woke up late.. and en well.. missed th bus.. 4gt to take my breakfast.. dropped my earring.. unlucky day.. reached yck at 7.25 when apparently i'm supposed to reach ajc by en if nt i'm counted late.. so was slowly strollin to sch hopin dat th gate wld close and en i wld haf an xcuse to go bak hme bt to my dismay, it was stil open big, welcomin me wid big hands.. =.= bt ther was another st nicks girl hu was as late as me so in th end decided to go in wid her.. had subj toks agn.. and well.. aft hearin bout bio, i felt kinda lost la.. cuz well.. th teacher made bio as if is soo diff and well.. i'm kinda afraid of takin it now.. summor is molecular bio lei.. al those fungi bacteria cell thingy.. dat's lyk my worst la.. oh well.. so i didn't noe wat to take and en geog sounded veri interestin tho.. lols.. asked ard and it seems every1 is takin physics or sth.. anw.. had games and couple dance.. well.. today was beta.. at least i managed to catch up wid th dance? lols.. and th wet games was kinda fun la.. altho i keep didn't reali feel lyk playin.. oops.. bt hey.. i did my part to motivate my og to cheer la.. can't blame.. i've been a hpt leader for too long.. so i guess i'm stil beta at cheerin and leadin grps instead of participatin and b part of it.. i juz felt so weird la.. yupp.. and aft goin through al these orientation camp.. i miss hpt alot alot.. is been a rea while since i gone bak and i miss al th camps and everyth.. oh well.. at leeast th day was beta.. oh and en it poured quite badly.. so when i was waitin for th train at tpy to go town to find eve they al cuz in th end she decided nt to go to campfire.. :/ and en ther was this super weird guy hu came up to me and told me he lost 5bucks and ask me if i cld gif him so he cld go hme.. i had 1buck wid me and so i gave it to him.. he cont askin me wher i stay and en he suddenly asked me if i cld ask him a qn.. so i told him yes.. and en he asked me if he can bcum a gurl? =.= well.. dat stunned me and en i say up to him and en he kept buggin me for an ans if he can b a gurl and say if i say yes, he'll go b 1 rite nw.. so in my mind i was tinkin, he so young so poor gt money to operate meh? lols.. and en i asked him hw he's gonna b a gurl? he told me he'll go steal a gurl's skirt straight away.. *freak!!! and en i dunno y was i so dumb i cont tokin to him and ask him y he wanna b a gurl? and en he told me bcuz guys gt uh.. penis and gurls dun haf and he dun wan.. omg.. and he evn told me if i say no, he's gonna take off his pants rite in front of me.. well.. dat totally freaked me out and thank God th train came.. i juz rushed in and i saw him tryin to follow me bt thank God th door closed in time.. phew! i was lyk so pale for th remainin journey.. super tramautized.. bad thing to start on th 2nd day of sch.. =.- was tellin eve they al and she cld actuali lyk laugh at th whole thng?! lols.. diff ppl diff feelins.. rofls.. oh well.. scary.. waited for em to finsih their movie and in th end eve decided to head bak to sch cuz well.. felt kinda bad.. went bak and saw them in time for supper and wash up bt seein em made me tink of me when i was in sec1.. al those memories!! saw th sec3s bt well.. they appear kinda cold? oh well.. guess they muz b veri tired or sth ba.. tok to ms haq for awhile.. miss her! and dat ended my 2nd day of sch..

05jan'07
stayed at hme today.. hahas.. which means i pon sch.. oops.. actuali felt abit bad la.. to pon on th last day of orientation.. no choice.. i was tired.. heex.. so in th end vera pon wid me.. hahas.. felt kinda mean to lyk influence her.. lols.. oh well.. and en they called me this morn to ask bout me so juz ~~said a small lie and said i had a lil fever or sth~~ and en they repeatedly asked me lots and lots of qns.. guess they were afraid i might catch sum sars or chicken flu bug.. *touch wood touch wood!! oh well.. spend my day tinkin bout my subj combi in th end stil chose bio chem math as H2.. shall juz try out and c how iszit lyk lo.. yupp.. and i cldn't get out of my hse today ): cuz my mum dun allow me to leave th hse if i'm nt goin sch.. so in th end didn't manage to go sp open hse wid eve min ey al or pinwen ey al.. bt stil manage to go to th lib for awhile! (:

so guess tml is day out to sp's open hse.. last day of their open hse le.. hopefully ther's lyk stil sth available for us? lols.. anw.. th tp's mag came today and en th course al lyk veri interestin lei.. i feel so tempted to go! suddenly.. jc life seems lyk a bore and chore for me.. oh well.. shall juz wait and c ba.. anw.. i tink i'm finally gettin my pay tml! yay! (:

*sumtimescommitinrealirequirealotandalotoftimeandeffortitcanrealigetveritirin:/

2006-12-31T11:16:00.000-08:00

she's 26 & i'm 16.. bt doesn't she looks as young as me? so i look old or she looks young? shld b th latter 1 la.. heex..
we're th horse ppl! (: she's exactly 12yrs older than me..
juz lyk my dajiejie.. she reali takes gd care of me.. love her! (:

dat's phebelimlixuan's desk! (:

she's a horse oso & she's super funny! (:

th jiejie hu goes.. "dun learn ah.. bad influence" :D

and my 16yrs church fren eleanor hu acc me in work! (:

and as promised.. here's sum photos of my colleagues and my workin desk! and well.. ual can judge for urself how bad and short looking my fringe reali looks.. -.- bt besides dat, i love every single 1 of em.. they've been soooooo nice to me until i dun even feel lyk goin for 1st 3mths bt well.. do i haf a choice? oh well.. hope we'll keep in contact, and eleanor, if u eva c this, continue workin hard! jiayou! (:

2006-12-31T11:02:00.000-08:00

and now.. here's th happy (happier) post.. hahas.. so is 2007 and here am i right in front of th comp waitin for my supper to b digested b4 i can head th bed.. i guess twinaiai min kel xp and dunno hu else are stil enjoyin themselves tonnin outside ba.. *envy.. sp as usual.. i had my 2007 countdown at church agn.. watchnight service.. well.. actuali if u go tink bout it, is reali diff compared to al those countind down parties.. so ours is mor of testimony time to share God's blessings to his ppl throughout this whole yr of 2006.. well.. learnt quite a few lessons fr hearin fr those hu shared oso.. quite a different way to celebrate my countin down of 2007!

well.. lyk i say, fri was my last day of work.. bt bt bt.. i hvn gt my paycheck yet!! and well.. dat kinda make me nervous? nt dat i'm bein money minded or wat bt i wan th money cuz phebe's a veri poor gurl now.. so yesyes.. th pay beta cum any sooner.. bt well.. i wil reali miss every single 1 of em.. made personalised cactus for each 1 of em.. juz hope they'll lyk it! guess i'll upload sum photos ltr..

and sat.. finally a bright and sunny day! well.. wasn't dat sunny aftal cuz th sun wasn't reali up so i didn't reali get a nice tan or wat.. bt well.. sentosa was fun and aft goin bak ther, i realise is been a looong time since i went bak man.. so many new changes already.. and goin bak ther makes me tink of th last time when twinaiai brenda yuenzhen and me went.. well.. veri memorable oso.. kinda miss goin wid them.. :/

so yesyes.. th new yr resolutions.. uh.. actuali i hvn reali tot of em yet cuz i kinda dunno wat do i reali wan.. ok.. i wan *.. and i hope * and * can * and b *.. kaes.. dat's mor lyk a wish? oh well.. i guess my new yr resolutions shld b
1. Love God and grow closer to him
2. Stand straight?
3. Dun b late for meetings
4. Save sum money and stop spendin soo much
5. Study hard ( which means no mor last min work) and b able to promote to j2!

yepp.. 5 for now.. and i tink is mor than enuff for me to get em fufilled already.. no3 is already lyk impossible and no2 is lyk cmi.. nvm.. ther's a sayin dat goes when ther's a will, ther's a way! (: so yesyes.. ther'll b a way for me sumhow to fufill al my new yr resolutions.. gogojiayou! (:

2006-12-31T10:31:00.000-08:00

well.. is lyk 2.31am and here am i bloggin! so..

HAPPY 2007 TO ALL! (:

well well.. guess th yr 2006 juz ended lyk 2hrs ago.. when i look back, i realise how fast time juz slip past our hands and en here we are movin on to 2007.. well.. i'm feelin a lil emo now so if this post do get a lil emo dun blame me.. hmm.. dunno y bt suddenly tots of al those things that happened last yr juz kept comin to me.. i rmb th first day when 2006 started, i was tellin myself dat is gonna b a brand new yr and well.. of cuz a veri impt yr wid th o's and everyth comin and of cuz, finally i'm a sec4.. lols.. actuali i didn't even noe i was supposed to b happy or wat.. well.. en came sec3 adv camp and until now.. i'm stil uber super proud of 3humility'o5.. :D they reali done me proud durin th camp.. sori for nt keepin th promise to buy ual a trophy.. :/ bt dun wori.. i did buy sth for al of u! (: well.. hope to gif ual soon too and of cuz dun 4get me horx.. well.. jan was quite a bad start for me oso.. cuz in th end i finally ended sth which was supposed to end.. and things didn't turn out well for me.. heratbreaks fr everybody.. well.. almost everybody.. esp * and my family.. lots of quarrels and i rmb myself cryin and cryin.. and of cuz th times when ppl tried to cheer me up until now.. i stil can't hlp it bt i rmb wat anet told me bout "phebe, dun wori.. u've owax been a strong gurl" .. hahas.. cldn't reali bliff dat sum1 actuali said dat i was a strong gurl cuz well.. i owax tot dat i was kinda weak cuz wheneva i cldn't take it th first thng i wld do everytime wld b cry.. i owax felt lyk a crybaby en.. BUT ironically, i was proud to b a crybaby cuz at least i found a way to release my probs? and en i r,b i had a terrible sweet 16th bdae.. cuz i didn't reali had any celebration on dat day and my parents evn 4gt to buy a bdae cake for me.. ): bt i love al th presents and of cuz al th bdae wishes! tks alot ppl! (: celebrated cheyenne's and mine bdae on th nxt.. had steamboat and everyth.. (: well.. and ther was jogathon wher i rmb draggin twinaiai down bcuz of my darn friggin low determination and in th end she cldn't get a place in th top20.. stil feel kinda bad when i tink bout it.. sori.. :/ and ther came sports day oso wher th first time in my 16yrs, i drop th bloody baton.. :( haix.. oh well... stil abit unbelievable dat i actuali dropped th baton.. :/ and en well.. rmb we had th razzmatazz concert! memories! and en i rmb lowminmin feelin super super low and of cuz veri troubled durin dat period of time.. guess dat muz b her worst.. bt well.. at least al is over! (: and en of cuz we had al th studyings and studyings and i rmb makin frequent trips to woodlands lib wid my 4f ppl for studyin durin th prelims.. well.. dat reali helped me alot i guess? cuz i improved tremendously fr prelims.. (: anw.. rmb th social ettiquette now.. i rmb th time when most of th 29o4 gurls were so troubled of wat to buy and wat to wear and en we went lyk shoppin and mor shoppin. i rmb walkin by citylink & goin to town lyk dunno how many thousand times.. lols.. and en dinin ettiquette turned out to b bad cuz th food sux bt aft dat th time sum of th 4f ppl spent at tcc was kinda memorable.. (: we juz sat ther and tok and tok.. oh and i rmb gettin cookie (is a hippopotamus in case u dunno) fr limsherjie when apparently i tot it was famous amos cookies? rofls.. silly me.. heh.. and of cuz al th bdae celebrations dat we tried makin for each and every1 of em.. and of cuz anet's 1 was th 1 wid th most effort.. i can stil rmb rushin ard at bugis at 9plus at nite in my sch uniform runnin here and ther to get anet's presents settled.. bt well.. th presents is juz full of tots! and i bet she loved it! (: cuz she cried.. yepp.. and well.. of cuz th big O's wher every1 well.. almost every1 mugged lyk crazy and of cuz stress lyk crazy.. i rmb breakin down lyk a few times durin th o's la.. :/ bad... oh well..

now when i tink bout al these i feel melancholic.. i miss th 29o4 ppl alot and alot.. esp th veri random "aft sch, let's haf lunch" sort of gatherings.. wher we juz go over to j8, cuzway, or evn northpt.. dat chicken rice! i miss it la.. and well.. now i tink bout it.. i kinda miss al th quarrels and th patching ups aftwards dat we haf.. i miss seein each and every1 of their faces esp fiona cheyenne wenqi jolene.. since aft o's until nw, i hvn met any1 of em.. kinda lost contact wid em oso.. haix.. :/ bt well.. i reali hope we'll stay as close together and we muz haf get togethers! oh well.. i mizz choir too.. aft nt singin and of cuz goin for choir pracs, i miss th whole bunch of choir ppl adn of cuz th usual choir pracs and ms yee comin in wher every1 tried to keep quiet etcetc.. i muz go bak and hear them durin syf! jiayou uvphs! i noe u ppl can do it! (: oh.. and of cuz i miss sch now.. evn th usual "i dun feel lyk wakin up" mornings seem so missable to me? i miss goin to sch wid ahmaneo and runnin for th bus and squeezin into th train.. i miss slpin in class and well.. gettin caught by th teacher.. al th devotions and evn th veri nan ting sch bell.. lols.. so many i miss i miss.. i guess i reali understands wat's called, until u lose it, u'll neva cherish it.. is owax so typical for ppl to take things for granted and juz wantin mor and nt realisin dat once al these "takin for granted" things are gone, ther'll b such a big empty piece in ur jigsaw puzzle life.. suddenly, i dun even feel lyk graduatin anymor.. i miss sch! i miss every1! ): uh.. well.. guess this post came a lil too late.. dat was lyk supposed to b ytd stuff.. bt well.. came hme late ytd ma.. so no choice lo.. bt nevertheless.. i still miss every1.. :/

2006-12-28T17:29:00.000-08:00

oh finally finally, finally i cn blog already!! (((: yay.. i've been lyk tryin to get into this dumb blogger thing for th past 3days already la.. and finally i get to c this new post thing.. yesyes.. so finally i can blog.. oh well.. kk.. shall stop repeatin bout bloggin and updatin.. oh well..

well.. looks how time flies and today is my last day of work already.. :( haix.. kinda feel veri sad and well.. dun feel lyk leavin th place.. th ppl here haf been so nice to me and i reali love them.. i feel lyk a lil princess.. ahahs.. bt yesyes.. i guess i neva reali regret cumin here to work.. altho is juz a veri short 3wks bt well.. i'll definitely cherish and rmb every single moment dat's spent here.. guess i'll reali miss them alot and alot.. :/

oh well.. had christmas dinner wid mineveahma on boxin day! (: hahas.. is been a reali loong time since we last met and tok.. so kinda lyk miss th time tokin.. i guess absence reali makes th heart fonder.. actuali i nt onli miss them bt well.. i miss every single 2904 ppl.. oh well.. hope every1 is doin fine oso.. anw.. we exchanged presents and yesyes.. min, i'm soooo sori dat th dumb thing drop out and i screwed ur present up so badly.. :/ sori.. anw.. gt a necklace and earring fr min and a pair of HUGE sunglasses fr twinaiai.. lols.. bt well.. i gotta wait until my hair's longer b4 i wear it if nt i tink i'll look super super weird.. imaginin cheena gurl wid uh.. straight SHORT fringe!! wearin a pairr of HUGE sunglasses.. i tink i can imagine a beetle.. rofls.. and ahma sponsored me money to buy a new bag.. hahas.. well.. stil contemplatin whether if i wanna buy th bag.. such a waste of money if i reali go and tink bout it.. bt well.. is every gurl's right to lyk bags and b materialistic wat.. ok.. mayb juz a lil.. oh well..

anw.. i went to check my bank money and i realise omg.. my money's lyk poof! al gone!! i tink i spend lyk 300bucks within last wk already.. omg.. if nt for my bursary i tink by now, i'm already a veri poor gurl.. so thank God for th bursary.. and yesyes.. i tink i'm gettin my pay today!! (((: hahas.. finally sum money to b put inside my bank... i tink i feel richer now.. heex..

oh well.. guess i'm endin here soon le.. sure gonna miss this workplace and well.. nxt destination: ajc orientation.. oh well.. for dat.. i'm kinda dreadin it.. :(

2006-12-25T17:21:00.000-08:00

heyy.. well.. i'm finally updatin.. yepp.. been veri busy these few days doin christmas shoppin.. well.. i realised buyin things can b sooo diff.. i went to orchard for lyk consecutive 3days and omg.. th place ther is lyk sooo crowded.. i tink i feel suffocated.. lols.. oh well.. anw.. went to look for ahma and anet when i went to town.. went to look for kailing oso bt well.. dat day she ws't workin la.. oh well.. anw.. i reali miss em.. i saw anet.. was lyk soo happy can.. (: did sum catchin up wid her oso.. and she told me dat downstairs de city chain was havin a sale on th addidas watch.. well.. finally sth i can afford to buy.. (: so th nxt day i went to buy! :D bt well.. my elder sis and my mum tinkd dat watch is boyish.. oh wadeva.. nvm.. at least my younger sis has th same sentiments as me!! (: hahas.. so finally a long awaited addidas watch dat i've been likin it since lyk last yr.. yepp.. bt well.. askin me to wear a watch agn is oso kinda diff la cuz is been soooo long since i last wore a watch.. even i myself oso nt xi guan seein sth on my wrist now and en.. yupp.. oh and anw.. i finally bought a new wallet!! (: yay! finally.. decided nt to wait for kel to gif me le cuz he's lyk takin foreva la.. oh well.. nvm.. so finally aft sososo long i finally can cancel sth fr my wishlist le.. hahas.. bt well.. kinda lyk th wallet bt on second tot it actuali ain't dat great oso la.. oh well.. nvm.. i shld b satisfied and well.. i already bought it le ma.. yupp..

oh and i realised wat's th true meanin of you yuan zai xiang jian.. cuz well.. realised cheyenne was lyk workin at raffles place caltex hse recently and dat was lyk so near my workin place.. i evn went ther on th last day of cheyenne's workin day.. and well.. didn't even see her at all and of cuz she didn't c me either.. ): i onli get to noe she was workin ther aft she finished wokin and dun hafta go bak le.. how sad rite.. haix.. nvm.. we shall al cum out and meet up 1 day.. i reali miss al of them.. ):

anw.. ytd i finally had a haircut.. bt it was lyk at my hse downstairs and well.. th lady screwed up my fringe!! Hghf6^*&79!!! wth.. is lyk sooo freakin short can. i tink i look lyk miss ah toot now.. oh well.. th hair beta grow soon man.. i'm lyk goin to ajc wid this weird lookin fringe hair.. nvm.. tink positive.. ajc isn't a veri punk rock sch or wat.. is oso a sch of books ma.. so i guess mayb i'll blend.. =.= yea rite..

workin my last wk le.. time reali passes veri fast man.. oh well.. how i wish i neva applied for first 3mths and en mayb i can get to play mor..

2006-12-20T20:02:00.001-08:00

hey.. well.. bak to update.. hmmm.. guess time reali flies veri veri fast.. realise i've been workin lyk gonna 2wks in th office le and in 1mor wk time, i'm leavin work for my 1st 3mths.. how time flies.. and juz when i've started to adapt to th workiin life i hafta start adaptin to go bak to sch for studyin.. well.. kinda dun reali wanna leave my work cuz th ppl here are reali veri veri nice.. super pleasant wokin environment.. ther's lyk no politics btwn them and every1 loves each other.. yupp.. well.. they were veri sweet.. they bought christmas presents for me.. and well.. i dun tink i'll b givin them christmas presents? cuz i'm gonna lyk buy for em farewell presents nxt wk.. shld b alrite rite? actuali i dunno oso.. cuz i actuali felt abit bad cuz is lyk well.. my church fren oso received presents for em and en she bought for em en i lyk neva buy.. so kinda lyk uh.. takin advantage? does it seem lyk it? actuali i dunno oso lei.. juz had thi veri weird feelin oso.. oh well.. and now, i gotta tink of wat to buy for em.. hmm.. tough lei.. they're workin ppl and they can haf wadeva they wan to buy at a so much higher price oso.. so oh well.. if anybody gt ideas, juz tag me!! and i'll b veri grateful.. at least it saves me th trouble to turn and turn my brains and nt tink of anyth..

anw.. my dad bought a k800 phone ytd.. he asked me if i wan it.. well.. i'm contemplatin lei.. dunno if i shld juz take this phone, or wait for nxt yr jan and hopefully, i'll either get k850i or a N73.. cuz if i'm nt takin this phone, my dad's gonna sell it away le.. so actuali i'm nt veri sure oso lei.. shld i juz wait or juz take this k800? hmm.. cuz k800 seems lyk it has alot and alot of veri gd functions bt en well.. i tink k850i is so much nicer lookin? oh well.. so which phone beta? anybody gt lyk sum constructive comments cuz i reali ain't sure.. well.. ual can tag my blog oso? great.. so finallly i wun haf a rotten tagboard dat has stayed stale for long already.. hahas.. oh well..

guess i'm endin here soon.. i'm so nt lookin forward to get bak to sch esp to ajc bt well.. get to noe dat at least jiexin and siying are oso goin.. (: yay! at least i haf sum accompaniment.. (:

2006-12-19T00:15:00.000-08:00

Freddy and the Lord stood by to observe a baseball game. The Lord's team was playing Satan's team.The Lord's team was at bat, the score was tied zero to zero, and it was the bottom of the 9th inning with two outs. They continued to watch as a batter stepped up to the plate named 'Love.' Love swung at the first pitch and hit a single, because "Love never fails."The next batter was named Faith, who also got a single because Faith works with Love.The next batter up was named Godly Wisdom. Satan wound up and threw the first pitch. Godly Wisdom looked it over and let it pass: Ball one. Three more pitches and Godly Wisdom walked because he never swings at what Satan throws. The bases were now loaded.The Lord then turned to Freddy and told him He was now going to bring in His starplayer. Up to the plate stepped Grace. Freddy said, "He sure doesn't look like much!" Satan's whole team relaxed when they saw Grace. Thinking he had won the game, Satan wound up and fired his first pitch.........To the shock of everyone, Grace hit the ball harder than anyone had ever seen! But Satan was not worried;his center fielder let very few get by. He went up for the ball, but it went right through his glove, hit him on the head and sent him crashing on the ground; the roaring crowds went wild as the ball continued over the fence for a home run! The Lord's team win!The Lord then asked Freddy if he knew why Love, Faith and Godly Wisdom could get on base but couldn't win the game. Freddy answered that he didn't know why. The Lord explained, "If your love, faith and wisdom had won the game, you would think you had done it by yourself.Love, Faith and Wisdom will get you on base but only My Grace can get you Home

"For by Grace are you saved, it is a gift of God;not of works, lest any man should boast." Ephesians 2:8-9"

well.. i was randomly blog surfing wen i came across clarissa's blog and well.. i kinda lyk it.. th whole meanin behind th story.. tink is reali veri meaningful and of cuz veri true.. yepp.. everyth is given by God alone and we shld nt boast about our own works.. oh well.. so random bt a veri meaningful story! (: well.. this is wat happen when u get nth to do at work.. bout an hour and a half and a lil bit mor to end of work.. and en aft dat is gonna b marina steamboat! can't wait! (:

2006-12-18T17:31:00.000-08:00

hey.. well.. finally an update.. well.. as usual.. been kinda busy these few days.. and well.. i tink work is juz gettin beta and beta except th fact dat i stil hafta b sooo troubled to find sth "officy" to wear every day.. whoa.. tell u.. super stress man.. lols.. oh well.. so it shows i tink jc stil suits me beta cuz well.. at least i dun hafta troubled wid wat i wanna wear everyday.. hahas.. oh well..

anw.. ytd was kinda fu workin cuz well.. i ran an errand to nus law lib! and well.. it was kinda cool and omg.. nus is realidamn freakin big la and well..as usual.. i'm a direction idiot.. i lost my way while findin th lib.. =.- i even accidentally walk into a construction site and th supervisor was lyk callin me to wear th construction helmet la.. rofls.. super embarrassin.. and well..s eriously, without a taxi to get into th buildin and a taxi to get out, u hafta walk lyk forever!!! dat's wat i felt lyk la when i was tryin to walk out of th nus buildin and keep on prayin dat a taxi wil cum my way and en i dun hafta walk soooo much.. bt well... dat didn't happen so i ju continued to walk and walk and well.. super diff to walk.. cuz i was in heels and of en it was all downhill roads la.. for once, i actuali prefer uphill la.. cuz th rain was so heavy and en my leg kept felt lyk slippin fr my heels la.. zzz.. and en th wind was sooo strng dat th whole umbrella uprooted... =.= oh well.. finally gt a cab and en apparently th taxi driver didn't reali noe how to go and en i was lyk supposedly directin him and well.. i'm nt dat smart in orienteerin ok.. summor ter isn't my place and i've neva been ther fr a cab so well.. ther was lyk a few errors of directin here and ther and en when i finally decided to alight fr th cab and walk ther myself and en when i alight th taxi driver even blamed me for nt knowin th way ther.. lyk wth!!! screw him lurhs.. hello.. lyk hu's supposed to b th taxi driver? me or him?!! zzz..

so well.. now i'm juz waitin for work to cum while i quickly use th comp.. and anw.. today is th 19th of dec!! grinsgrins!! :DDDDD which means i get to see th 29o4 gurls and guys and kel too.. lols.. well.. celebratin dat poohead bdae.. yesyes.. i soooo miss them alot and alot.. and of cuz i miss th other 29o4 gurls la.. can we lyk find a day to go out together? i reali miss them loads.. al th work and th diff of schdule has made us al unavailable to meet up.. haix.. oh well.. bt i shld b happy today at least i get to meet sum of em!! (((:

2006-12-14T22:20:00.000-08:00

hey.. well.. bak to updatin.. well.. these few days were kinda busy so ther wasn't reali any time to blog oso.. oh well.. anw.. ytd was well.. shld i say a veri veri bad day to go out? yesyes.. it wasn't near th word gd cuz well.. many unexpected things happen.. yupp.. oh well.. bt we shld owax gif thanks to God for al dat happen isn't it? bt now.. if i reali go and tink about it..i tink sum of em i reali hafta gif thanks to God for.. yupp.. at least my mum didn't probe mor or sth or shld she c sth worst than dat i tink i can reali go and celebrat already cuz i bet this time everyth wil get much much worst and for dat.. i hafta thank God alot alot.. and thank God is my mum dat saw and nt my dad or any other relative or sth dat ltr bcums a blabbermouth.. i tink things wil get even worst and they may juz twist and turn and pervert everyth and en everyth bcums so terrible.. yupp.. so thank God for dat..

so well.. ytd.. everyth kinda started on a wrong note tho.. cuz sum idiotic person go and play my phone when he/she apparently tried on-ing my phone when i was slpin and cuz i put th phone lock code thing.. th person wasn't able to on my phone which in th end screwed up my whole alarm clock and in th end i woke up at 8.45 whn i'm supposed to wake up at lyk 8am and get out of my hse at 8.50.. great rite? oh well.. jumped out of bed and went to check my jc postings.. well.. when i gt my postin results i gt a shock.. cuz i tot i'll get into innova sci.. cuz well.. these few days i had a feeling i'll get into either aj or ij sci.. bt tot dat aj seems a lil too far fetched for a 12pointer lyk me.. bt well.. my results showed dat i gt into aj sci stream.. when i realised i gt inside.. i felt so mixed.. i dunno wat i was feelin.. happy or supposedly to feel sad dat y didn't i get into innova.. cuz well.. aj isn't reali wat i wan is cuz of my parents dat wan me to go ther.. and en my dad violently object meridian so i onli left wid innova.. most of my frens are goin innova and well.. i dun even noe hu th hell fr my class or even my sch is goin aj oso.. felt kinda lyk "wat shld i do"? (well.. dat was ytd 15/12/06 stuff which i blogged halfway ytd) bt now.. fr shimin, i kinda noe hu's goin to aj le.. well.. kinda sian when i heard hu was goin aj.. sum ppl dat i dun reali lyk goin and of cuz al those" weird" ppl oso goin? such as in a sense lyk i dun even noe them la.. as in i dun reali tok to em in sch and stuff.. well.. gt to noe sum of my pri sch frens goin oso.. bt well.. al oso nt close de.. great.. th whole thng bcums a cycle.. i hafta start makin frens al over agn.. is nt dat i dun lyk to make frens is juz dat.. when u're al alone is kinda difficult u noe.. oh well.. haix.. and another thing i hate bout goin aj is when ppl asked me wher i'm goin and i tel em.. they start sayin oh, u followin ur sister.. sumhow i dunno y i juz simply hate it la.. bt when i go and tink bout it.. is kinda true tho.. gt into th same sec sch as her en joined th same cca and en nw, i'm oso goin ther for my 1st 3mths.. haix.. oh well.. i hate ppl say dat i'm followin my sister's footsteps.. nt dat i dun lyk it or anyth bt well.. dat's juz nt me.. i'm nt a mimick image of hannah or sth.. i'm phebe for goodness sake.. i hate ppl to link me wid hannah and bcuz bein in th same sch, my parents tend to make me be lyk hannah.. which it sux.. serious.. totally.. cuz hannah's life isn't MY life and i'm nt lyk her.. i can't study and study and en ok.. mayb well.. th * section included.. plz.. she may haf great self control wid her hormones bt i dun.. and i admit.. so how can i b lyk her? and i neva wanted to b lyk her.. i neva wanted my parents to go rant about my results and en compare wid my sis's results or how well behaved she is and how bad behaved i am and th list goes on.. haix.. dat's 1 of th reason y i didn't wanna b in aj either.. bt since is God's will to put me ther.. i guess i hafta accept it and anw.. is juz lyk 3mths dat i'm gonna b ther and en aft dat i can decide for myself if i wanna stay ther oso.. so yesyes.. phebe, b mor positive!

anw.. went bak sch b4 goin aj.. cuz of my dumb contacts la.. oh well.. gd oso.. managed to c jack they al and they were discussin bout hpt trng camp stuff.. well.. kinda feel bad missin th camp.. bt can't help it.. i'm workin and i definitely can't afford to take anymor leave since i'm lyk onli workin for 15days.. ok.. make it 14 since i already took a leave th other time cuz of my jc postings.. well.. anw.. aft goin aj went to meridian.. as usual.. i simply love th sch.. i dunno y.. juz tnk dat everywher looks so comfortable and perfect.. exactly luk th sch of my choice.. bt haix.. y does it hafta b at pasir ris??!!! y can't it b lyk sumwher much much nearer? =.= oh well.. guess dat's wat i call a dream sch and en th sayin goes wher dreams and reality dun mix or sth lyk dat.. oh well.. alrite.. shall stop tokin bout th borin jc stuff..

anw.. ytd was on th phone wid eve ahma min and kel.. aft dat kel hung up cuz we gurls wanted a gurl tok! hahas.. poor him.. oh well.. gif me a choice, i wld oso wan kel to hang up la.. cuz well.. personal stuff is beta nt to let him noe so much oso.. anw.. is lyk th 4 of us were tokin.. well.. owax love th time when we tok and yesyes.. we did a lil bit of catchin up and updatin. and i slept at 2.40 cuz my phone died on me and we cldn't continue our conversation.. bt yepp.. i reali do miss them and of cuz al th other 29o4 gurls.. seriously, i dun reali noe when can i reali c th others oso.. wid al th work and everyth.. i guess a busy schdule wid al th work reali do drift us apart.. bt wel.. u ppl are stil veri greatly missed in my heart..

anw.. ytd my cousin told me dat his fren died when he was holidayin in china.. and guess wat.. he's onli lyk 17yrs old.. well.. my cousin's super sad now cuz dat's lyk his veri veri gd fren and he juz died so suddenly due to a sudden internal bleedin.. haix.. i guess life is reali veri veri unpredictable.. u neva noe wat's goin to happen and when.. i guess i reali hafta start thankin God for protectin and preservin my frens and me.. i reali can't imagine how any1 of em is gonna leave me.. so yesyes.. dear God, plz continue to protect al my frens and i.. and i guess i reali muz cherish and treasure and mor cherish and treasure each and every1.. life can b juz so short and so unpredictable and fragile.. yet it can b such a wonderful and beautiful creation.. :/

well.. i guess i'm gettin reali veri veri emo now.. oh well.. i guess is either cuz is th time of th month or well.. i juz haf alot of tots runnin through my head and suddenly, i juz feel veri insecure about everyth.. supposedly to go shoppin wid my mum and my sisters ltr.. sth i shld b lookin forward huh.. bt suddenly, i juz feel lyk stayin at hme and juz starin into th celing and juz tink and tink bout everyth..

2006-12-12T01:16:00.001-08:00

hey.. is lyk another hour mor to th end of work.. well.. today was kinda busy.. al th labour work.. movin things here and ther.. bt well.. at least we had sth to do bt today was kinda tirin.. realise bein an office gurl or an office lady or wadeva has alot of mental stress? is kinda mentally challengin.. lyk u can get tired and stressed veri mentally easily.. i onli started work for 2days and i an already feel dat kind of severe mental tiredness already.. no wonder many of em wil start smokin.. well.. even my this office already haf sum le and is kinda lyk uh.. surprisin? cuz i oso didn't reali expect em to smoke oso.. bt well.. guess now i can sumhow understand? bt well.. i tink is al bout th psychology thing la.. th so called mind over body thing? oh well.. my manager juz went down to ha a puff herself oso.. and whenever they go down, they'll go "eh. i go take five" which means smokin la.. and dat was wat eleanor told me was.. so professional rite? th way they make it sound.. hahas.. oh well.. bt i stil dun lyk and of cuz despise smokin la.. bt i guess every1 gt their own way of destressin? bt anw.. i doubt bein cooped up in a office is suitable for me la.. cuz well.. is mentally tirin and seiously, i rather b phsically tired en mental cuz th stress lvl is completely different.. yepp.. bt anw.. i'm lyk workin for 3wks onli.. bt ironically, i tink i'll cum bak work agn.. guess bcuz of th pay and of cuz th ppl here.. they seriousy are veri nice to us.. love em. i guess i haven't reali met th sayin of " th workin world is evil" or sth lyk dat.. oh well..

hmmm.. bt well.. i seriously nid to by mor clothes le la.. cuz well.. i dun haf anyth suitable for office wear la.. i take lyk an hour to ind my clothes.. and is reali gettin veri tirin.. i tink i'm th youngest workin gurl now.. hahas... shi ye you cheng huh.. oh well.. dat's crap la.. heex.. bt yesyes.. a gd excuse to buy mor clothes oso.. heex..

oh well.. guess i'll end my entry here.. i guess at this rate, i'll cum bloggin everyday le... hahas.. well.. i guess i'm reali missin th gurls.. hope to c em on fri or mayb nxt wk's poopoo head's bdae? well.. he's finally turnin 16 i guess th onli thing i reali wish fo him is to grow up and of cuz get a life and stop indulgin urself in those maple games which are lyk tormentin u cuz u kept grumblin em to me.. dun play la.. y make a computer game to bcum a burden for u.. tsksk.. oh well.. and anw.. u stil owe me a wallet! hahas.. bt i doubt u'll eva c this..nvm.. i shall constantly send u a reminder.. ahahs.. bt nvm.. i dun reali haf any hope dat u'll buy for me oso la.. dat's y th first thing when i get my pay is to by a new wallet! yepp..

2006-12-10T20:43:00.000-08:00

I'M BORED! ok.. mayb workin here is nt a veri gd thng aftal cuz i spend lyk hours doin nth and i already feel lyk slpin.. first day of work and i feel lyk slpin.. great rite? oh well..i guess th worst thing of workin is stil workin without havin anyth to do.. oh well.. this is so random

2006-12-10T18:46:00.000-08:00

hey.. well.. guess wat.. i'm workin and bloggin at th same time! rofls.. kaes.. finally phebelim can multitask.. ahahs.. anw.. first day of work today and well.. is kinda cool.. and of cuz i was veri nervous today and guess wat.. i haf my own workin desk.. lols.. i'm o gonna find things to decorat it la.. heex.. and i'm lyk usin a laptop? cool rite?first day of work and i feel exactly lyk a workin adult.. well.. bt of cuz i hafta wear lyk an adult oso.. i spend lyk 1hr tryin to find and dig though my closet to look for office wear la.. hahas.. bt th journey's kinda long lei.. a whole lot of 1hr lei.. yupp.. and i stil tink i look weird wearin lyk dat.. hahas.. oh well.. bt th ppl ther are kinda friendly tho.. (: they are lyk so warm.. yupp.. guess th onli bad thing is dat we waited lyk u.. 1 and a half hr sittin at th conference rm b4 we can lyk get started wid everyth.. yupp.. thank God i haf my church fren here wid me la.. hahas.. if nt i tink i'll b sooo bored to death.. i tink i'm startin to look forward to this job.. hahas.. altho is lyk onli 3wks? bt i tink i shld love it! yepp.. (:

and i'm so gonna find a bag l.. cuz i realise workin office woman ppl love to carry small bags and my dat germany tote bag dat i carried today looks lyk a luggage bag compared to em la.. lols.. oh well.. and i tink i nid to start findin computer games to play to drive away my boredom now!hahas.. oh well..

2006-12-09T05:48:00.000-08:00

I'M BAK! (:

hahas.. lyk finally la.. and yesyes.. finally i'm updatin my already veri cobwebbed blog.. yepp..

well.. i was out in m'sia melaka for a whole lot of 5days for my church camp.. yupp.. and for this time.. this church camp is reeal a veri veri memorable 1 for me.. so yesyes.. sori if is gonna getr eali veri borin bt i'm so gonna tok bout my whole experience throughout this church camp.. yupp..

well.. initially i wasn't reali lookin forward for th church camp cuz simply bcuz al my sisters except th youngest 1 which makes no diff al nt goin for th church camp.. so initially i felt a lil scared lyk wat if i'm gonna feel so left out at church camp etc cuz well.. altho i do haf sum close church frens bt sumtimes i juz feel a lil left out wid em esp when they're al so bonded wid al those west zone prayer meetins so i had lyk mixed feelings when i went to th church camp.. cuz on th other hand i wanted to go for this camp is to hear dr hubert spence cuz seriously he's a veri gd preacehr and yesyes.. he owax speaks in such a way dat it wil sumhow touch ur heart.. so in th end i decided to go..

woke up early and left for th camp when we reach ther ther were lyk so many probs la.. cuz no1. our dining hall became our main conference hall and our main conference hall which was a grandballroom was given to those 1000strong choir la.. and i was reali pissed at this fact cuz well we booked th whole thng first and in th end they gave it to th later 1000 strong choir hu booked it ltr and moreover they were kinda smart in a way cuz they onli said bout th hall lyk last min, th day b4 th camp.. oh well.. and en when i went for lunch.. omg.. th food suxs plz.. and th worst thng they dun replenish la.. is supposedly a buffet bt they dun replenish and by th time i reach ther i onli manage to get pathetic rice wid a few onions and sauce.. pathetic.. and ther was lyk cats ther plz.. omg.. simply freak me out can.. yesyes.. i'm afraid of cats.. and en when we went to th apt rm, they took off th aircon dat was in th livin rm so th whole place was freakin hot.. and th taps and shower weren't workin and ther were no bath towels and toilet papers.. wth.. i was freaking pissed la.. is lyk reached my boiling point already so i kept grumblin bout th camp.. and kept tinkin y did i even cum? i seriously regret it.. oh well.. and en we had thematic msg bt was too tired so i dozed off here and ther.. when finally went bak my apt wanted to find sum1 to tok to cuz i was lyk havin late night supper bt en sad to say no1 was available every1 was veri tired and slept.. so i watched th pathetic tv hu had lyk so lil channels which are borrin and ate my maggie mee b4 i fell aslp..

nxt day of camp went for congregational prayer in th morn and had brekkie aft dat.. brekkie was horrible oso.. so aft brekkie we had lyk sermons aft sermons and seriously, it was reali mentally tirin and challengin.. so quite a few of us kept fellin aslp when listenin.. dat time.. i felt lyk wth.. i can't even absorb th sermons properly la.. well.. had tokin sessions in th nite when everyth was screwed up when jonathan and uncle munwah came alng and conflicts settled in oso.. btwn j and j.. bt ya la.. th excuses dat j told us bout wat u say were kinda crappy and sounds lyk a bunch of shit to me oso.. oh well..
cums 3rd day and everyth became beta cld adapt to th sermons and everyth and keep tryin my best to keep myself awake oso.. played soccer oso! (: and it was kinda fun la.. bt b4 dat i slept a whole lot of 2hrs b4 playin.. and en 4th day was reali veri memorable and of cuz to me, it was life changin.. actuali wat i wanna tok bout was th testimony time.. well.. i guess no1 reali expected this to happen oso..cuz every1 was juz sharin their testimony in th grp b4 we had a few to pick up to share in front of every1.. well.. en a few shared and came to my dear cousin elisha..well.. his testimony was wow! super touchin.. i almost cried.. cuz well.. he shared his veri own personal testimony which kinda shocked every1 includin me.. and en he cried oso.. bt i'm veri proud of my dear cousin! (:
and i guess mayb bcuz of him, al of us or mayb most of us felt th conviction of th holy spirit? aft dat every1 juz continued sharin al their veri personal bad testimonies.. sum of em oso cried.. wat shocked me most was james, an apparently a veri strong boy hu seems as if he wun shed tears cried veri badly.. so well.. it became mor of a confession session.. so well.. at dat time i wasn't cryin yet.. i onli felt my heart feelin veri burdened and en soon it was my turn to share i went up nt knowin wat to reali share and hu noes when i uttered th first word.. i started cryin.. i was kinda shocked myself oso.. didn't expect myself to cry.. well.. shared a rather personal and nt so personal testimony oso.. cuz is mor of wat i'm tinkin and nt wat i experience so aft dat many ppl were cryin and i suddenly felt lyk i was veri mean.. veri veri mean to God..when he was so nice to me.. i felt so guilty dat i did so many bad thngs to him and i kept cryin and cryin.. aft dat of cuz i cried and prayed to God for forgiveness.. and well.. for th first time in 16yrs of my life i actuali cried durin prayer.. cuz well.. i neva knew hw to reali cry cuz everytime when rachel and mary pray, they'll cry and veri badly so i juz tot they were bein emotional onli until nw, i guess i kinda felt dat kind of feelin dat they had to make em cry.. dat conviciton and guilty feelin dat u're so sori to God.. yupp.. when i tink through.. i guess i reali made my heart veri veri hardened these past few years until i juz turn away fr God until goin to church and readin th Bible became mor of a routine instead of a "i wan to go and worship God" thing.. tink i've reali led a veri fake and lyin christian life oso.. yepp.. haix.. and aft dat time.. i suddenly feel myself wantin to turn to God and get closer to him.. yupp..

through this camp.. i guess many of us reali realise how badly we haf turn away fr th sight of God and how much we haf bakslided.. and well..gotta thank rachel for her hp soft toy (: and her veri touchin msg dat made me almost wanna cry.. oh well.. anw.. went for dr hubert spence's sermon and Q & A at th family service centre at lyk 9am-12pm.. woke up quite early today bt well.. today was oso veri enrichin for me.. cuz well.. i guess i finally noe how to ans kel and oso to discern for myself y th charismatics are wrong (i'm nt tryin to b offensive here) and dat i oso learnt dat bein a christian is nt juz bout acceptin Christ onli is bout livin a life for God.. oh my.. and dr hubert spence was lyk sayin if u dun wanna live a life for God en plz.. dun b a christian.. i was lyk wow! kinda dumbfounded.. and oso.. through this whole camp i realise how lil i actuali noe bout God's word.. ther's lyk so many Bible verses dat i neva evn c b4 la.. and so much for bein a christian for lyk 4yrs.. lyk wow.. i feel so ashamed la.. oh well..i decided dat i wanna lead a life for God and guess i reali hafta start everyth fr scratch agn.. i gt so many things to learn and do and seriously, i dunno if i'll reali do al these lyk nt listenin to pop music and en nt goin to th movies.. oh my.. i juz wished dat God wil gif me th grace and strength to go through al these.. a new life.. a new beginnin..

well.. i sound veri christiany huh.. dun sound lyk th veri usual phebe rite.. oh well.. i'm stil tryin la.. stil tryin to get closer to God and of cuz i guess i seriously haf to get al th vulgarities out of my mouth oso.. and dat's of cuz gonna take sum time.. oh well.. gogo jiayou! (:

anw... went to find my workin place today.. kinda confusin bt.. manage to find it aftal! (: hahas.. and en i'm lyk workin al th way at raffles place.. and kitty, i noe u're workin ther too la.. mayb we can go work together or sth? hahas.. great.. i wun feel so lonely.. and anw.. i guess i dun hafta feel lonely cuz i realise my chruch fren is workin ther too! (: hahas.. yay! i've gt company.. bt well.. i'm stil kinda nervous for th first day of work and seriously, my wardrobe dun seem to haf any clothes for office wear lei.. hahas.. die! oh well.. and i'm lyk gonna take leave juz on th 4th day of work.. great.. cuz i nid to get my pae results.. i'm kinda nervous la.. lyk which jc i'll b posted to and stuff.. well.. leave everyth in God's hand ba.. no use broodin over it oso..

guess ii'm gonna end here.. seriously a veri looong post.. i tink is enuff to make up for th uh.. 7days of nt bloggin.. hahas.. and oh.. i reali miss al th 29o4 ppl.. twinaiai min eve i miss u ppl alot! suddenly i guess th sayin absence reali makes th heart fonder is so true la.. juz bcuz of work and everyth i wun get to c em already.. ): haix.. well.. takaire ppl!

2006-12-02T05:45:00.001-08:00

hey.. well.. i finally changed my blogskin! hahas.. lyk finally la.. bt ya la.. this blogskin i juz took it fr blogskins.com la.. as usual.. didn't reali do much editin tho.. juz wanted to change th blogskin cuz apparently, my blogskin's reali bcumin an error.. yupp.. bt bt bt.. i love th song.. hahas.. (:

today was random tho.. cldn't get out of my hse cuz mt parents tink dat i've gone out toooo much so they forbid me to go out.. spent th first half of my day slpin.. i slept al th way fr 1am to 1pm.. hahas.. its been a reeeal loong time dat i slept dat long oso.. i guess i muz b reali tired huh.. al th accumulate tiredness.. oh well.. aft dat woke up was feelin damn hungry la.. almost gobbled up th whole porridge my mum cooked.. and guess wat, aft so much slp, my voice stil as sexy as eva.. heex.. oh well.. it seems my sore throat and my cough ain't gettin anywher near th word beta oso.. die! i'm lyk off to holi in lyk 2days time and i'm nt yet recovered.. th worst thing is my sis told me dat th young adult grp durin th church camp has no recreational rest break.. is 1 message aft th other.. great! i can juz get either bored to death or listen till tired till death or worst, sick until dun feel lyk listenin.. wat a great church camp i'm anticipatin for esp when both my elder sis and my 3rd sis nt goin.. so things gonna get abit bored cuz well.. even tho ther's my close church frens, bt sumtimes, i can't help bt feel abit bein left out of th grp oso.. oh well.. hope everyth wil turn out fine and i'll haf a great time in church camp uh.. listenin to th messages and hopefully dun fall asleep.. so i beta pray ther betta b sum shoppin aft th last day of camp at least th trip wil b mor worthwhile lyk dat.. heex..

oh well.. shall end this rather random post here.. and twinaiai.. if u eva read this, is time to make a new blogskin for me! hahas.. thanks to u in advance first! heex..

2006-12-01T08:36:00.001-08:00

ok.. so here are sum photos fr bukit timah hill. yepp..

*dat's th foot of th hill!

*dat's th summit of th hill!

*dat's wat i called nowher to go.. lols..

*th neverendin road..

* c i'm nt lyin, i'm standin on th railway track! (:

*dat's th train i was tokin bout,,

*bye bye choochoo train!

*dat's th bunch of monkeys!

*he posed for me la.. rofls..

2006-12-01T08:11:00.001-08:00

heyyas.. bak to update.. yupp.. well.. been quite bz these few days.. oh well.. fileld wid activities juz b4 i go for camp and en i'll hafta start workin already.. so i guess i reali gotta enjoy myself these few days b4 i go for my church camp and en my work.. siannx.. suddenly dun feel lyk workin bt for th sake of money and to mend th ole in my pocket and to return al my debts, i hafta work.. oh well..

hmm.. well.. ytd went for th singout concert.. humm.. well.. for th first time in 3yrs of singoout, i'm lyk watchin th concert for th veri first time.. yupp.. sittin wid th audience watchin th senior choir, th uvohs choir sing and dance.. yepp.. and watchin them performin, i oso feel lyk performin! oh well.. i miss th times when we hear th concert bell ringin, and we al hafta get ready and stop tokin and prepare ourself to sing our first song as th senior choir of phs, stgabs, hihs.. and of cuz al th last min make up and th tyin of ribbons.. oh.. al those times.. miss em lyk hell and of cuz when we finished singin our item, we al gotta rush to th dressin rm esp in vch and en we start changin out of our costumes into our 2nd half nt reali bothered if we're bein exposed la.. lols.. those times.. well.. anw.. th concert was nice bt it was rather short la.. when it ended, it felt veri unfinshed.. bt well done to al th performers and i'm proud of th current uvphs altos cuz at least i cld hear them sing! (: hahas.. yepp.. jiayou altos and of cuz uvphs.. can't wait to c ual performin for syf nxt yr.. i'm sure ual wil do beta! (: and of cuz th uvphs alumni.. mhmm.. reali a veri nice dance lei.. well done ppl! (: so aft th concert we wanted to use th ladies bt it was lyk soso many ppl la.. so in th end boulder decided to watch out for us while we use th gents.. rofls.. and guess wat.. i tink th gents stink la! ladies are stil mor uh.. hygenic i guess.. heex.. and well.. at least when we gt out, realised alot of guys were waitin for th toilets la.. ooops.. total embarrassment.. lols.. aft dat we took mor pics wid sum uh.. metallic gurl and boy near th staircase.. cute and eerie at th same time.. oh well.. aft dat i headed hme while min twinaiai and boulder went to esplanade instead.. anw.. i juz wanna say sori and thanks alot for bein so understandin min and twinaiai.. appreciated it alot.. thanks gurls! (:

well.. today.. was 1 loong and of cuz tirin day for me cuz i went to bukit timah hill bt guess wat.. even b4 reachin ther, we gt lost la.. =.= so we juz kept walkin and walkin and walkin and in th end aft lyk an hour and a half or so we were so hungry dat we decided to eat our lunch b4 walkin la.. imagine th dist we walked.. lols.. en aft dat aft askin many many directions, finally managed to find bukit timah nature reserve! (: yay! hahas.. so we juz hiked al th way up and en we walked diff routes and went to explore diff paths and when we finally gt out of bukit timah nature reserve, we came to this veri ulu place oso.. lyk nowher for u to go la.. scary.. so we continued walkin and finally we found a road.. and guess wat th road sign say, to ur left, 8.8km to macrithie reservoir and en to ur right, 3.5km to bukit timah nature resort and right infront of us was actuali a restricted zone.. lols.. so we gt no place to go and decided to head to th right la.. while walkin many cars passed by givin us those "are u ppl lost?" looks.. oh well.. we walked and came across a rifle range en many ppl were lyk ahootin and shootin.. whoa.. tel u is deafening la.. lols.. so in th end we walked and walked and we finally came to an area wher ther's houses and guess wat.. i saw a railway track! (: omg.. hahas.. was kinda lyk excited la.. i walked th railway track! (: hahas..s 16yrs of my life, i finally walked a railway track.. kaes.. i noe dat's abit suaku bt hey.. nt every1 gets th chance to ok.. is lyk onli those tv shows en show th railway track ma.. yupp.. and guess wat.. when we were walkin, a train came la.. so cool! hahas.. cuz i tot it was sum abandoned railway track lo.. hahas.. en th train honked at us.. and en we moved to 1 side and c th train go past us! hahas.. oh ya.. b4 leavin dat place, i saw monkeys! and is upclose 1 can.. hahas.. at least my trip nt wasted cuz th whole journey i wanted to c monkeys, and cldn't c any at al la.. so at least when i left th place, i saw monkeys! hahas.. and they were tryin to eat th jackfruit.. well.. sum of em were camera shy bt sum of them even posed for me la.. so cute! lols..

oh well.. ended th whole day feelin tired and sweaty.. bt nevertheles.. it was reali veri fun la.. and of cuz memorable cuz is th first time i actuali walked on a railway track and is oso th first time i nev imagined myself gettin lost in uh.. huang shan ye lin? oh well.. o1dec'o6.. a veri nice day to rmb! (:

2006-11-28T08:27:00.001-08:00

*th process of makin th gifts.. dun they look mor lyk blue chicken essence?!

*th best dressed ppl! (: table no. 12!

*besties and stil countin.. (:

*dat's laopop & her daughters! (:

*i simply love them! (:

*4faith '06 gurls.. we're th majority plz.. xP

*29o4 wid our geog teacher ms seh! (: u guys simply rawk! (:

mor photos are here

2006-11-28T07:57:00.001-08:00

heyyas.. well.. finally bak for mor updatin.. hahas.. these few days haf beenr eali reali bz wid al th grad nite prep and of cuz de day.. grad nite! (: hahas.. well.. it came in an instant and it goes in an instant oso.. so in th end everyth finished wid a veri beautiful note.. and well.. of cuz is veri veri memorable la.. yupp.. so th day started wid me preparin th lil prezzies for th ppl.. well.. whole lot of 24 of em la.. omg.. so many.. and i did everyth until 3am in th morn and stil haven't finish yet la.. so woke up at bout 11plus and had brekkie wid ahma and ahma came over to hlp me! (: thanks alot ahma.. reali veri grateful to her if nt for her i doubt i'll b able to finish doin al th gifts in time la.. so yes yes.. thanks alot ahmaneo.. reali owe u a biiig 1! (: so aft finsihin th gifts, ahma went hme and we met agn aft half an hour ltr.. and omg.. is th first time i bathe so fast at hme la.. record speed lei.. out of th shower rm within 10mins wid my hair already conditioned.. yepp.. so we went down to th yishun salon and decided to do our hair ther altho our favourite lady wasn't ther instead her sis was ther which left a nt veri gd impression th other time.. so well.. we gt no other places to go oso so in th end we went in to do our hair.. bt durin dat time sum 2 other gurls hu had make an appointment came along oso.. so in the end we had to wait for them tob done b4 is our turn and in th end i waited for an hour and a half and ahma waited for 2hrs b4 we cld get our hair done la.. oh well.. bt th hair turned out quite nice la.. heex.. (: so in th end ahma bought a purple hair spray and anet me ahma came and sprayed our hair wid it.. hahas.. purple hair! lols.. bt it wasn't veri obvious tho.. aft dat it was stil rainin la en we cab al th way down to min's hse.. went up th min's hse and th first thng i saw was min's hair! hahas.. whoa! diff colour la.. so diff fr her black hair bt th colour was kinda nice.. *envious! i oso wanna highlight my hair... bt well.. is nt possible until mayb uh.. 21? oh well.. anw aft dat eve helped me wid my make up and wow! i saw th wonders of eyeliner la.. omg.. was seriously veri fascinated by it la.. hahas.. my eyes looked uh.. veri defined? hahas.. so nice! lols.. so yesyes credits to th veri nice eye makeup to my twinaiai.. (: heex.. aft dat we quickly gt changed and left th place la.. and of cuz we were already runnin veri late.. so we decided to cab down agn.. bt this time ther was 5 and th stupid uncle so "law-by-law" la.. didn't wanna fetch al th 5 of us down.. so eve and i gt into 1 taxi first and we waited for em at th bus stop.. well.. saw many ppl.. and every1 reali looked veri pretty la! (: al dressed up to th nines.. heex..

so well.. th hall deco was veri nice.. i tink i reali lyk th helium balloons.. hahas.. bt th whole place was sososo dark dat i cldn't reali c anyth oso.. so finally th whole thng started and dinner was oso served! hahas.. we had western dining la.. and evn th bread tasted lyk heaven to me.. lols.. this is wat happens if u skip lunch.. heex.. so th salad was kinda nice oso.. bt well.. th whole thng was kinda borin la.. nt anyth much oso.. lucky draws and performances by uh.. i can't rmb th band's name and of cuz lots of eatin and takin of photos la.. and bcuz i was too engrossed in my food i didn't hear them callin my lucky draw no la.. =.= so in th end it was bein called away and i didnt' get my prize.. and so much for gettin th first eva lucky draw in my 16 yrs of life and i missed it juz lyk dat.. how sad.. i tink is God's will dat i'll neva get picked for lucky draw la.. hahas.. so well.. uh.. tiantian and muneer won th prom prince and princess and and our table.. table no12, won th best dressed table la! *GRINS.. hahas.. and dat's th most impt thng.. th 29o4 gurls.. total of 11 of us won th best dressed table award and our present is my favourite ferrero rocher chocolates! (: hahas..

so well.. everyth turned out quite well in th end.. guess is reali a veri memorable event ba.. took many photos oso.. will upload it ltr.. yupp.. tink th gurls went down to orchard ytd to play or sth bt well.. my parents were strict la.. such spoiler.. they didn't allow me to go.. ): so in th end i had to head hme.. how sad.. bt well.. hope th gurls had fun! (:

anw anw.. juz a veri random thng bout today.. met kel for lunch b4 goin min's hse and agn.. he made me waited for him for so long.. grrr.. anw.. aft dat went to min's hse toked and played ps2 or iszit 1? anw.. even min's bro who apparently is onli a p6 is laughin at me for bein dumb la.. lyk wth.. imagine sum1 4yrs younger than u laughin at u for bein dumb.. i tink i reali nid to tink i'm i reali dat dumb anot liao.. rofls.. oh well.. anw.. i'm veri happy today cuz i received a letter dat i gt chosen for bursary award! hahas.. dat 250bucks came juz in time to mend th hole in my pocket.. heex.. and of cuz it showed dat hey! i'm nt dat dumb at al ok.. at least i'm in th top 25%.. heex.. (:

anw.. i was juz wonderin is ther sth wrong wid my skin or sth? cuz i can't c al th images i mean th blogskin images at al lei.. bt well.. without al those images, th whole thing looks so cool la.. plain and simple.. nice! so well.. ppl out ther plz b nice and tag me if my skin's reali havin a prob so at least i noe is time for a change of skin! yepp..

2006-11-22T21:59:00.001-08:00

i'm booored.. oh well.. i'm supposed to pack my table now la.. bt when i saw dat huge massive never endin pile of books and papers and worksheets on sittin nicely on my table, i dun feel lyk packin anymor.. oh well.. went surfin through friendsters and blog.. yawns! is so random.. i've owax been doin dat when i on th comp.. seriously, i nid to find beta thngs to do when usin th comp already..

anw.. i juz rmbed an incident dat happened ytd la.. dat's y i'm here bloggin 2nd time in lyk 2hrs? oh well.. i rmb on my way hme fr tpy i saw this 2 guys and a gurl.. they were sittin together la.. well.. this gurl was practically lyk throwin herself to th guy can.. she kept tryin to lie on her shoulder, touch his hands and keep starin at th guy straight in his face.. well.. kinda obvious dat they're frens and th guy obviously takes zilch interest in dat gurl la.. cuz he kept tryin to move away when th gurl try to lie on his shoulder and ask her dun lie on him and stuff.. bt th gurl.. haix.. i tink either she's reali sllloooowww dat she cldn't get th hint dat the guy dun lyk her or she's juz desperate lurhs.. she kept tryin ways and means to lie on th guy la.. evn th hand, she's lyk already oso so happy la.. she made th guy hold th railin while she stuck her head on her hand la.. and omg.. she looks lyk a pig ready to b hanged can.. =.= th guy initially relented and decided to let her lie bt aft awhile guess mayb his hand was reali tired or bcuz he reali cldn't stand th gurl lyin on his hand, he tried to take his hand away fr th railin la.. bt th gurl kept on insistin can.. oh plz.. when i was lyk lookin at al these, i was tinkin, y does she haf to make herself stoop so low juz to get close to th guy when obviously th guy has on interest in her la.. y make herself so cheap? haix.. altho i hafta admit th guy's kinda cute la.. heex.. bt ya la.. isn't it al nt worth it to make urself so cheap when obviously th guy dun cares bout u and wishes u'll leave him alone and stuff.. hey.. gurls oso haf their pride oso ok.. dat gurl made me seem as if gurls haf no pride and shld juz stoop to th guys' lvl.. =.= plz.. love sum1 wid dignity and pride and nt stoop to dat lvl la.. oh well.. if he doesn't appreciate u, ther's surely mor out ther hu will la.. so yes yes.. b proud to b a gurl and love sum1 wid pride and dignity! rofls..

oh well.. this is so random lurhs.. told u i was effin bored..

2006-11-22T20:58:00.001-08:00

heyyas.. well.. finally i can find a day when i can rest at hme.. lols.. suddenly, restin at hme and slackin seems reali veri relaxed.. hahas.. either is cuz i've finally found my prom dress or is bcuz i've been out for sooo many days and finally i can get my well deserved rest le.. yupp.. bt anw.. been out shoppin these few days and seriously, if u wan to get sth done fast shoppin in small grps is reali veri efficient lei.. cuz i guess too many ppl tends to drag each other dwn and en every1 slows dwn? i dunno oso la.. bt well.. ther's this thing called th pros and cons isn't it? so shoppin in wid a large grp can b reali veri veri fun bt shoppin in a small grp can get thngs done fast.. yepp.. anw.. i muz thank twinaiai and lowminmin for pei-in me to walk fr 1 place to another to look for my grad nite dress.. esp lowminmin hu acc me th whole day ytd and run wid me fr 1 place to another.. thanks alot th tall black bun! heex.. yupp.. anw.. ytd was 1 reali bz day la.. cuz ms yeo was tellin me dat holland v gt alot of dresses so i decided to go ther c c ma.. bt well.. uh.. suaku ppl lyk me dunno hw to get to holland v la.. bt actuali i'm nt th onli 1 lo.. heex.. anw.. my dad tot me hw to get ther th complicated way bt thanks to limsherjie hu hlp me find dat takin a bus wil get us ther.. so well.. min and i went to buoena vista and waited for th bus 200.. and omg.. is gawd damn freakin long la.. =.- we waited for lyk mor than half an hour for th bus when th weather is freakin hot la.. and en we were so blur dat we missed th stop and we hafta walk bak to holland v.. bt when both of us reached holland v we were lyk kinda disappointed la.. haix.. cuz we owax tot holland v was veri nice wid a veri ncie windmill of cuz.. bt hu noes when we saw th windmill it apparently looks as if if a lightning juz accidentally strikes it, th whole windmill wil juz fall off la.. so well.. when we went into th shoppin mall it was lyk onli 2 storeys high and ther's actuali onli 1 or mayb 2 pathetic shops dat sell th dresses la.. =.= total waste of our time.. so in th end we went for katong laksa which is superbly delicious.. yummy! (: b4 we left th place.. and it was soo complicated dat we cldn't find th way out la.. so in th end we both gave up and took a taxi.. hahas.. bugis was th nxt stop.. many dresses ther too bt none reali fit me oso.. except for dat halter 1 bt in th end decided nt to buy it and so went bak to far east to buy th 1 dat i saw th day before.. well.. th lady stil recognised us la.. hahas.. and she's stil soo nice.. and thank God i didn't spoil her zip.. heex.. so anw.. when we were walkin we saw lyk this 2 st nics gurls hu dressed lyk veri punks and apparently look lyk lesbos la.. and they were lyk holdin hands walkin everywher and every single 1 stopped and looked at em.. bt well.. i guess they muz reali hate st nics to wear their uniform and embarrass their schs lyk dat.. oh well..

anet came and find us aft dat and en we went to look for eve and ahma.. kinda xian mu them tho.. workin in th same buildin and en they can haf lunch and dinner together.. so nice.. i doubt any1 wil b workin at china sq la.. even i myself dunno wher th hell is this freakin place lo.. oh well.. and hpt trng camp clashes wid my work lei.. haix.. so nw i dun even noe if th boss allows me to take leave cuz i'll onli b workin for 3wks and en if i stil wanna take leave, i tink th boss wil go bonkers.. lols..

and i guess i muz reali choose th jcs dat i wan le la.. haix.. quarreled wid my dad over meridian.. guess he's reali bent to nt let me go ther la.. haix.. so sad.. bt ya la.. i guess distance wise, is reali nt practical ba.. bt nw, i'm stil kinda unsure wher i wanna go oso.. arrrgh.. dat's y i owax say, i'm neva fond of makin decisions la.. they're veri troublesome and of cuz i'm a veri indecisive person lei.. hw to make th proper decision? zzz.. =.=

guess i'm off now.. gt sooo many things to do.. i stil haf nt packed my veri messy table which my mum has been rantin at me non stop.. oh well..

2006-11-20T08:17:00.001-08:00

heyyas.. bak to update.. well.. ytd was juz bout goin to church which is mor of th random stuff dat's y didn't blog bout it.. yepp.. well.. today was 1 special day.. (: cuz phebelimlixuan in her 16yrs of life on earth went to pulau ubin for her first time! kaes.. wadeva.. i noe u ppl gonna say i'm bein a sua ku or wat.. hahas.. oh well.. i stil had fun at pulau ubin today.. heex..

so as usual.. uh.. i was late agn.. oops.. so yepp sori for waitin for me.. oh well.. anw.. went to pulau ubin takin th bumboat.. and u noe it was kinda lyk so pathetic dat we gotta lyk buy food over to pulau ubin for our lunch cuz well.. th food apparently isn't veri clean and even had to carry my 1000ml nalgene waterbottle in my bag la.. can u imagine how heavy it was.. oh well.. so gt to pulau ubin and went to rent th bikes and started cyclin.. well.. th bicycle rate ther was darn cheap la.. 5bucks for th whole day.. oh my.. imagine dat.. bt anw.. i almost died while cyclin today.. rofls.. cuz it's been lyk bout a yr ago since i started cyclin and today i tink i practically cycled almost th whole of ubin goin up and downhill la.. ok.. th dwnhill was fun bt th uphill was a nono man.. i evn tried to encourage myself while goin jiayou jiayou while cyclin bt well.. al i did was lou you lou you.. =.- and i cldn't cycle up so i came dwn fr my bike and walked up th slope.. heex.. ok.. blame my nt veri determined genes en.. heex.. oh well.. anw is lyk th weather in ubin was darn unpredictable la.. cuz is lyk it can super freakin hot at 1 time and en th nxt is rainin lyk sum shitass cats and dogs la.. so well.. gt caught in th rain in th middle of cycling through a jungle trail? lols.. so well.. had to cycle so fast and en is lyk we hafta go dwn this super muddy super steepy slope and en super bumpy slope so as usual.. sum1 lyk me fell off th bike la.. wth.. i scratched both of my palms la.. =.= ouch! hurt lyk shit can.. and of cuz embarrrassed lyk shit la.. i fell so unbeautifully.. lols.. super embarrassin sight and wat's worse i fell at th mud so my shirt and my pants gt it and guess wat.. my shirt is white! =.= so now th shirt is lyk super filled wid unremovable mud? i tried removin it for a whole lot of half an hour and i decided to gif up cuz it refuses to bulge la.. =.= so i guess i learnt my lesson.. no mor white shirt and of cuz muz wear track pants ther la.. oh well.. bt besides dat.. it was 1 real worthwhile trip la.. at least is been a long time since i reali enjoy so much nature? and we actuali gt caught in a heavy rain la bt thank God we were near a shelter so we managed to run in bt well.. we were stuck ther for a whole damn hour bt well.. dat 1hr was worthwhile l.. (: cuz we toked alot and yepp.. cleared sum misunderstandings and doubts among each other oso.. (:
and anw.. tokin bout ubin.. i tink u reali nid a map if nt u'll reali get lost cuz we actuali pass th same beach lyk thrice even when we went up to diff routes la.. lols.. oh well.. bt reali veri fun.. i reali dun mind goin bak ther bt provided i muz learn how to cycle properly first.. hahas..

anw.. al of us gotta return to sch tml for th choosin of th jcs for th 1st 3mths which well.. is kinda drivin me crazy la.. cuz seriously i dunno wher to go! haix.. i reali love meridian alot bt journey wise i reali dunno and juz now i even quarelled wid my dad bout choosin meridian la.. haix.. oh well.. God plz help me make up my mind.. =.= and i stil haf nt look for a prom dress when grad nite's lyk nxt mon.. omg.. i beta start findin if nt i can reali die le la.. oh well..

kkx.. end here le.. off to watch my gong which i recorded earlier on! (: hahas.. th gd thing bout recorder is u can record any tv shows u wanna watch if u can't rush bak in time.. heex.. (:

2006-11-18T07:26:00.001-08:00

hey.. bak to updatin.. hahas.. anw.. realise dat without th o's and th studyin i do feel abit weird la.. lols.. kaes.. i noe i'm weird.. bt ya la. is lyk i stil haven't reali get used to me nt tryin to rush my work and tryin to stop myself fr watchin th tv instead of concentratin on my studies.. now i'm juz practically slackin away lyk a stupid fat pig.. lols.. i tink i reali nid to get dwn to th lib reeal soon.. nt havin any books tor ead to waste ur time away is reali gettin veri borin... evn th tv is gettin veri borin cuz my dad took scv away!!! ): ahhhh.. so now i'm so limited wid shows to watch and th saddest thing is he went to buy sum movie dvds which included rob-b-hood and hu noes dat rob-b-hood can't b turned on la.. tried my dvd player and th comp and apparently none can read th format.. tokin bout pirated dvds.. =.= oh well.. tot i cld finally watch rob-b-hood la.. hu noes it al turned out to b a lie.. ):

and anw.. i juz read twinaiai's blog and i realise they bought their dresses already!! ahhh.. so envy them la.. so fast found wat they wan.. haix.. i'm lyk reali kinda veri afraid dat i can't find anyth dat's suitable for me lo.. cuz i'm nt lyk en so thin anyth oso can wear.. i'm nowher near dat word thin lo.. haix.. well.. i guess i reali hafta pray to God dat i'll b able to find a dress.. of cuz a veri suitable 1 and a veri cheap 1 too.. i reali dun wish to spend so much money on my grad nite cuz i'm onli gonna wear th dress lyk once.. oh well.. cldn't go dwn wid em cuz i gt prayer meetin and i nid to rush hme which makes it a veri wasted trip for me to go dwn oso.. so in th end i decided to go dwn and help mrchin wid his cdac registration thingy.. and hahas.. bcuz of dat i earned my first $10.. rofls.. bt ya la.. is lyk 4hrs for 10bucks.. cheap labour! lols.. bt nvm la.. it was apparently a voluntary thing so i didn't expect to get any amount oso.. bt well.. at least now ther's extra 10bucks contributed to phebelimlixuan's fund.. hahas.. bt anw.. realised actuali cdac ppl kinda poor thing de lei.. saw most of th ppl comin for registration are al divorcee cases if nt their income is reali damn low la.. so yes yes.. my heart went out to em bt well.. when i start tinkin bout how th cdac pppl destroyed and vandalised my books and stuff i stil feel lyk slappin em.. oh well.. th ironies of life..

anw.. well.. ytd i was actuali veri tired bt in th end min eve ahma and me had a phone converstaion.. and hahas.. yes yes.. i enjoyed myself in th phone conversation altho i was lyk bein th interrogated 1 in th beginnin.. =.= lols.. bt ya la.. i noe they care for me.. so tks alot darlings.. love u ppl lots! and well.. i owax loved th feelin of tokin together cuz is reali been awhile since i reali catched up wid em cuz of th o's.. bt yes yes.. had a real nice conv wid em.. and well.. i guess absence reali makes th heart fonder cuz i'm missin em lyk now? lols.. oh well..

guess i'll end here le.. ther's church tml and i dun wanna b caught for dozin off for service agn when th exams are already over.. oops.. =X

2006-11-16T07:54:00.000-08:00

TH O'S ARE OVER!!!! (: (: (: (:

hahas.. finally.. th day i've been waitin for.. *big grins.. besides happinness and carefree.. i can't feel anyth mor.. omg.. i can't simply contain my happinness.. rofls.. th o's are finally over and yes yes.. i'm bak to update my dusty and cob webby blog which haf been left neglected for lyk 2wks? oh well.. anw.. juz came hme and is lyk 11 plus.. and for once my parents didn't scold me for comin hme late.. (: hahas.. yay! th long awaited post o's days are here.. wahahas.. can't wait to start plannin wat i wanna do.. well.. no choice.. gotta enjoy myself to th fullest durin this dec hols cuz aft nxt yr starts i'm prolly goin for 1st 3mths and en i'll haf no time to play anymor.. yes yes..

anw.. today.. 16nov 2006.. a veri meaningful day.. hahas.. well.. at least gt quite a handful of us went to celebrate this veri significant day today.. (: hahas.. altho i tot th whole class was apparently supposed to celebrate together? oh well.. so in th end 13 of us went for steanboatin.. 13 such a nice no.. hahas.. anw.. gt kittysylviatingyujeslinlinasiyinghuiyinmellissakarenlixianjosephsherjie and of cuz urs truly! hahas.. well.. in th end instead of goin to marina bay we went to th whole lot of steamboat shops behind bugis.. oh well.. cuz apparently sum of em tink dat marina bay is veri dirty.. bt well.. dat's th nice part isn't it? oh well.. so in th end went wid th majority lo.. so we went to this veri cheena restaurant wher we had our steamboat.. well.. th food's kinda limited tho and of cuz their veges are omg so dirty.. i saw a pupa on 1 of them? ewww! bt well.. at least a diff experience oso.. bt ya la.. marina bay's steamboat is stil soso much mor worth it and of cuz nicer.. cuz gt mor variety ma and summor is cheaper.. lols.. budget! hahas.. bt it was quite fun tho.. and at least i cld manage to eat or sth.. cuz fr ytd mornin until juz now i didn't eat at al.. wadeva i ate al came oyut by my mouth.. =.= summor when is durin th break of th chem paper1.. terrible feelin.. mt stomach kept flippin and turnin and al i feel was lyk pukin.. oh well.. muz b th o's stress dat's drivin me crazy.. bt at least now is all over! (:

well.. seriously my feelings for my o's papers are veri mixed.. i dunno if i shld feel happy sad remorseful or wat? i'm feelin a lil of everyth.. oh well.. bt i did alot of mistakes this time.. =.= haix.. oh well.. so..
english: i tink i wrote my letter way too long.. 4pages long.. hope th examiner wil read finish it and nt fall asleep.. lols.. and i screwed up my summary la.. th word limit is 150 and i onli gt lyk 109 words.. how summarised.. =.=

emath: well.. wat can i say besides carelessness and mor carelessness and my ans are sow eird la.. i gt an ans wid a degree of 1 onli.. rofls.. oh well..

ss: for th first time in my 2yrs.. i didn't finish my paper!! AAAHHHH! die.. summor th funny thing is i spend lyk 2 3 days studyin th other themes and inli ready northern ireland durin th breaktime and in th end i did northern inreland.. shldn't haf bothered studyin so much.. oh well..

bio: th paper was quite ok la juz dat i didn't noe dat th o's setters love th eyes sososo much.. kept testin on them.. and th bad thing is i didn't study dat chp alot.. =.=

physics: hahas.. for once.. i feel physics bein theory and nt calcualtions.. manageable tho.. i tink i can pass! (:

geog: omg! i cldn't bliff i actuali gt so unlucky for my geog paper and i screwed it up sooo bad.. ): manufacturin and tourism supposed to b th harder 1s for me and agriculture devt/envir supposed to b th "i can do it" topics.. and everyth turned cuckoo on dat day la.. i noe hw to do tourism and manufacturin cuz it was chicken feed bt i didn't study at al so i cldn't risk my chance and rite anyth and in th end i had to do agriculture and envir which was friggin difficult la.. ): ther goes my geog.. made me cry lyk shit for it la.. wth..

addmath: paper 1 was ok.. at least i had mor confidence.. bt screw paper2 la.. i cldn't do soooo many of them.. and th best part.. supposed to choose either/or qns for th last part and great.. i both oso dunno how to do.. ther goes my 10marks and of cuz another 10marks ofcarelessness and sum stupid eng dat they used to xplain functions which i dun udnerstand a single bit..

chem: paper1 was theory agn bt their theory was tough man.. cldn't do wquite a few qns oso.. oh well.. paper2 was quite ok la.. juz dat i made a few careless mistakes which reali shows hw dumb i reali am.. =.= oh well.. nvm..

well.. at least is al over.. shall wait until th day i get my results and c how everyth turns out to b.. bt i realise o lvl setters are weird.. they set qns dat u dun expect em to cum out evn th sch teachers oso dunno wat kind they set.. oh well.. veri bad.. so gt a lot of uh.. 'surprises" dat kinda stunned me and make me dunno wat to do.. bt well.. juz hope for th best ba.. and yay! finally i can dump al my books away.. (: hahas.. so al th best for those hu are stil sittin for thir papers.. jiayou! (:

2006-11-03T08:38:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. well.. looks lyk i can't reali leave th blog and nt update.. how dumb.. =.= anw.. i dunno y.. i juz felt th urge to blog and en here i am.. =.= oh well.. and so much for feelin so accomplished and proud of myself cuz is th first time dat i completed lyk 3 math papers within a day? lols.. oh well.. and i tot i did alot and alot and hu noes ther's this idiot here hu did lyk 2eng papers. 2chem papers and 2emath papers.. =.= tokin bout me feelin accomplished.. omg.. seriously, i can't imaginin sum1 doin lyk 6papers within a day?! =.= is SSSCCCCAARRY! oh well.. i guess ther's this thing cal limits to every1 ability and to me, 3papers is mor than enuff le la.. bt well.. u can't help bt feel as if u neva done enuff when u c sum1 else doin lyk twice th no of papers as u did.. isn't it so? oh well..

did an emath paper b4 went to meet th poohead to go khatib and meet min and eve for grp studyin.. well.. as usual.. had lunch wid him.. and oh well.. he made me feel as if he's quite a disappointment today la.. cuz usually we'll eat mixed rice and he's owax th 1 choosin th dishes and en hu noes this time he choose al i dunno how to eat except th chicken wings and th soup.. hais.. so much for bein together for 6mths and knowin me for almost a yr and a half when he practically lunch wid me everywk and stil dunno wat i eat?! oh well.. i told him straight dat he's such a disappointment la.. oh well.. and i tink it made him felt guilty.. lols.. he shld anw! oh well.. bt he's reali such an idiot la.. stil wanna tink of lame excuses and reasons to make himself feel beta by makin me seem as if i dunno him well.. lyk he ask me "how many ice do i put in my cup?" and i said how i noe.. and en he goes "c, u oso dunno me well.. 1yr plus le lei.. so disappointin.. " idiotic rite? lols.. how dumb can he get man.. and is lyk i've neva eva seen him drink fr a cup of iced sth at hme or wat.. how am i supposed to noe? rofls.. told u he was a retard and of cuz i tink he's gd at self deception make himself feel as if is nt he dunno me is mor lyk we dunno each other.. stil wanna shift th blame to me.. such a retard.. oh well.. anw.. went buddy hoagies to look fo eve and min.. so in th end we didn't reali study much oso and in th end they let me do sum personality tests and aft doin, i realise my drawin reali sux la.. hahas.. i dun even noe how to draw a proper polar bear? hahas.. oh well.. bt interestin tests la.. mayb nxt time shld try it on ppl oso.. and seriously, is kinda true oso lei.. oh well.. anw.. twinaiai.. if u eva get to c this.. dun b so worried and nervous ya? REELAAXXX! dun wori.. ther's at least a thousand other ppl out ther havin pits and butterflies and caterpillars in their stomach oso.. and dat includes me la.. oh well.. so yes yes.. let's al GO GO JIAYOU! (: bt ya la.. even i can't help worryin.. first paper is ss and emath.. omg.. emath.. i neva do well in math.. and ss.. my 1 of th best and fave subj is gonan take place in th afternoon when my brain's at slpin mode.. great.. oh well.. al these nerve wrecks seriously oso drivin me crazy la.. :( well.. to me, ss is lyk th motivational or th headstart la.. so if i dun do well.. i guess my mood for th other papers wil go to th dumps la.. cuz ss has owax been th 1 i haf th most confident and yet ironically th most nervous 1.. oh well.. th ironies agn.. lols..

anw.. so yes yes.. 2mor days b4 th big O's finally start.. how time flies man.. and well.. if i stil dun start ss.. i tink i'll prolly neva finish it.. oh well.. so yes yes.. GO GO JIAYOU AND AL TH BEST TO THOSE HU ARE TAKIN DAT O ALPHABET EXAMS! WE CAN DO IT! (:
i dunno y.. i feel so cheesy and corny aft readin this.. lols.. so uh old fashioned? lols.. oh well.. anw.. is juz encouragement wat.. *roll eyes..

2006-11-01T08:00:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. i'm lyk bloggin at lyk 2.30am in th mornin.. oh well.. aw.. i doubt i'll b reali usin th comp oso.. so i juz tot i might as well blog it once and for al and en 2wks ltr or when i can reali squeeze a time out i'll blog and update again ba.. well.. time reali pass veri veri fast and is lyk 3mor days to my first paper.. scary.. =.= well.. ahma and th rest started already la.. oh well.. hope their paper was ok.. anw.. i tink i'm gettin so much unwanted stress la.. si lyk i dunno y bt i feel as if i'm veri slack.. nt as hardworkin as i was when i was studyin my prelims.. haix.. bad sign.. make me feel lyk i wil do worst for my O's than my prelims lurhs.. wth.. is shldn't tink lyk dat.. bad tinkings.. shoo shoo! they shld al go to sum south afraica and stay ther for gd la.. oh well.. juz hoep i'll reali b able to study cuz altho my o's start th latest end th earliest which apparently is supposed to look lyk a gd thing bt everyth is so squeezed togethe dat i practically hafta stay bak everyday to take lyk 3papers a day lursh.. and is al in th afternoon when my brain is automatically switched to sleepin mode.. =.= bad.. oh well.. haix.. guess al these nervousness is reali killin me la.. wth.. oh well..

anw.. chem prac was ok! (: hahas.. at least i managed to get close results for titration except th fact dat when doin QA i suddenly had colour blind and i cldn't differentiate black and dark brown even when i poured th ppt in th sink and looked at it intensely lyk an idiot.. =.= oh well.. and th first time.. ther was no testin for gases.. so i sunno iszit supposed to b a relief? at least i dun hafta fumble over wat gas to test.. oh well.. bt ya la.. overall was stil quite ok.. at least much mor confidence than my physics and bio la.. yupp..

alrites.. another random post of "i juz want to update my blog".. lols.. oh well. for th sake of updatuin la.. and well.. out studyin tml and ohmy.. until now i stil can't bliff O's are juz 3days away.. :/

2006-10-29T08:56:00.000-08:00

heyyas.. bak to bloggin.. oh well.. sumhow a form of routine for me to update oso.. well.. seriously, if i dun start updatin now, i tink i'm gonna reali take a veri veri long time b4 i can update agn.. cuz when this wk is over, then is th startin of O's!!! omg.. so fast la.. is lyk less than 10days.. in fact exactly 7days left b4 i haf my first written paper.. :/ haix.. time passes reali fast suddenly.. oh well..

anw.. i did bio juz now and apparently th paper's supposed to b lyk 1h45min for paper2 bt i spend a whole lot of time fr 8.40-12.30 al th way.. ok.. i dun even wanna count how much time i spend on doin dat paper.. cuz i haf a reli veri bad feelin bout it la.. die! :/ oh well.. seems lyk everyth is al goin so screwed up as th big O's day draws nearer.. haix.. muz b al th nervous wreackage dat's reali drivin me crazy.. :/ well.. bt i guess it goes th same for every1 hu's sittin for dat damn O's paper this yr.. oh well.. every1 wil hafta go through it 1day.. is juz a matter or early and late onli.. lols.. dat's lyk so.. uh.. self deception and so zi wo an wei.. nvm.. i can go on and self hypnotise myself if is reali goin to make me anywher beta.. lols.. oh well..

anw.. is lyk 2am in th mornin so i shld b off slpin already.. a veri random post agn.. well.. poohead is gonna retake his chi O's paper tml.. well.. hope he does do well and at least get a B en i'll b veri happy for him le.. yes yes.. muz pray dat he'll do well.. lols.. oh well.. alrite guess i shall stop here i'm lyk spendin my remainin time searchin through my sis's song folders to get new songs la.. i'm getti bored of th songs in my hp and en once agn i gotta compress and compress it even mor.. oh well.. wat u expect fr a memory of 41mb fr k700i.. i wan a new phone!

2006-10-26T09:04:00.000-07:00

bak to updatin.. oh well.. today had physics O's sci prac.. and wth.. is damn bad la.. shit! i tink i'm gonna so fail my physics prac agn.. wth// =/= i tink poohead is rite lei.. hahas.. i'm fated to fail physics.. ): lols.. oh well.. nvm.. cuz ther was lyk supposed to b 2 expts to b done.. and th first 1 i did was on acceleration on marble and seriously, i tot dat expt was quite ez la juz plot table and graphs summor they even rite th table columns for u le.. and hu noes aft findin th ans fr my frens wher their acceleration a range of 25-30plus.. and guess wat's mine.. 3.2?! wtf?! wrong lyk shit and so out of pt lyk shit la.. so which means i'm gonna do badly cuz apparently i plotted everyth wrongly.. :/ ok.. nvm.. en nxt to th nxt expt wher u're supposed to find th focal length for th lens.. and one of th expt muz place th lens on th plane mirror on th bench and look down fr above until u get th image and th object to join together.. well.. i'm reali such a retard.. cuz apparently u can move th pin which is th obj stuck to th clamp.. and i tot we weren't.. so i started movin my head and my eyes up and down and al i see was no pin bt my veri own phebelimlixuan's reflection on th plane mirror instead la.. =.= and so i screwed up th whole expt as well.. great.. yay.. let's celebrate.. i can reali bang my head on th wall and die lurhs.. wth.. c.. i can neva do physics la.. zzz.. oh well.. so wat.. now i screw both bio and physics prac and chem prac is juz nxt tues.. omg.. i beta do well in dat if nt i can reali jump down th buildin and die.. isux at sci pracs la.. ):

anw.. aft dat went cuzway to meet suet and hb! (: yay! i guess dat's th onli thing i can look forward for for today lurhx.. rofls.. well.. for once i was th earliest and en suet came aft dat as usual hb, th latest 1.. hahas.. and she cried while tokin to us la.. bout how bad ehr day was.. oh my.. poor gurl.. cheer up ya? anw.. we went up to buy our tix for deathnote at 4.30.. and surprisingly, we saw lyk cathi and huilong la.. hahas.. pri sch gatherin huh.. oh well.. aft dat we went bak to bk to eat cuz i wanted to eat whopper for dunno wat reason.. hahas.. en hb was sick so in th end we went bak up to foodcourt to c her eat aft i finished my whopper.. lols.. we were wild gooseberry chase la.. hahas.. fr bk go cinema en go bak to bk en go bak to cinema de foodcourt ther and en to th cinema.. rofls.. anw.. watch deathnote.. and uh.. it was quite ok la.. juz dat th show th endin.. oh well.. they purposely made it such a way dat u MUZ watch part2 dat kind.. clever way to earn money.. and oh my.. dat guy call light.. he sux man.. sacrifice his gf juz for his own gains.. stil call her his so called beloved.. he can go jump down and die la.. idiot.. c c c.. even th writer tinks dat guys are egoistic and willin to sacrifice anyth la.. retards.. =.= and anw.. dat L guy.. he looks scary kla.. hb and i were wonderin how cum he was labelled as cute.. mayb his actions and stuff bt his looks.. no way man.. he looks super pale and of cuz we both tink he looks lyk a frog! rofls.. mayb he nids to slp mor and en ahh.. we'll c th great diff.. lols.. anw.. suet left when ther's stil lyk 40mins b4 th show ends.. cuz she gotta rush hme b4 6pm.. oh sori gurl.. i didn't noe u had to reach hme early la.. well.. nvm.. ther'll b a nxt time.. (:

anw.. is so nice to b bak wid th pri sch ppl aft nt hangin out wid them for so long and is lyk 4yrs since me suet hb even went out together la.. guess absence reali makes th heart fonder.. and oh.. th 3 of us gt this chatbk wher we keep chattin inside and omg! u look at th content i can't help bt laugh hilariously at our silly ways last time la.. quarrelin and gettin jealous over XX cuz she flirts wid XX and we get so jealous and even quarrel bout me pullin hb's hair?! rofls.. seriously, i cldn't reali rmb al these quarrels lei.. juz tot dat we were reali veri veri close.. didn't noe we quarreled so much oso.. hahas.. and oh my.. al th memories.. haha.. th book's lyk so torn and tattered and yet so precious at th same time.. (: i'm sure gonna keep th book in gd hands since is wid me now.. and of cuz we're gonna continue writin and anw.. my handwritin seriously sux last time la.. hahas..

alrites.. shall end here.. didn't do any studyin today.. and omg.. time reali pasts so fast.. aft nxt wk when chem prac ends, is gonna so b th start of th big O's.. scary.. :/

2006-10-24T08:48:00.000-07:00

today.. i was extremely proud of myself.. hahas.. (: cuz i actuali managed to spend my time studyin and finally finish al i wan to do fr my studyin schdule.. (: hahas.. yay! a veri gd start indeed.. heex.. cuz i actuala managed to finish a cedars amathp2 and emathp1 and i studied finish th whole of agriculture on geog! teehees.. :D hahas.. oh well.. i reali suddenly and finally cld feel lyk i did reali study and did alot of things throughout th whole day.. cuz recently, i dunno y bt when i study for veri vero long bt aft studyin i felt as if i neva study anyth lei.. even i might spend lyk 8-10 hours of studyin oso.. :/ so yes yes.. for th 1st time i managed to feel lyk i studied.. (: hahas..

oh well.. spend th whole day at hme today studyin.. lyk duh! lols.. th weather today was coolin.. it was rainin in th afternoon.. yes yes.. i love th rain.. so coolin.. and of cuz a perfect time for slpin.. heex.. and guess wat i reali dozed off la.. while studyin.. zzz.. oh well..

every1's been muggin lately.. and as th o's are gettin nearer and nearer.. so do we al start to feel al th anxiety buildin up.. oh well.. anw.. i realised i'm such a failure in tryin to cheer sum1 up.. cuz i actuali cldn't tink of anyth to cheer th person up.. :/ oh well.. anw.. i dunno y.. i suddenly miss twinaiai.. lowminmin.. ahmaneo.. fionalim.. anetchean.. cheyennelim.. simqiqi.. wongkailling alot.. lols.. i suddenly miss seein em and of cuz i dunno y bt i suddenly feel so nostalgic when i tot bout al th times we spend together in sch.. oh well.. th intensive studyin muz haf made my hormones gone abit haywired.. lols.. bt yes yes.. i miss each and every1 of th 29o4 gurls.. hope they are al doin fine studyin hard! jiayou! (:

alrite.. random post agn.. i juz came for th sake of updatin my blog.. oh well..

2006-10-22T01:26:00.000-07:00

hey.. well.. as usual.. back fr church today.. oh well.. i reali hafta admit my church is veri veri far.. is lyk without my dad's taxi, now, i owax reach hme at lyk 4plus even tho we juz eat and go hme.. comin bak hme so late juz means 2things.. no1. i wun haf enuff time to slp! no2. i dun haf enuff time to study! so many things bt so lil time to do.. time time time.. now al i nid is time to gif me to study and to catch up sum slp juz b4 th big O's.. and guess wat o's is juz lyk uh.. 12days away? omg.. c how time flies and th bad thing is i haven't reali gotten anyth done oso.. *shrugs.. it seems lyk i took alot of time ob studyin bt al i did was juz so lil.. :/

anw.. well.. juz here to update la.. in th end lowminmintwinaiaiahmaneo didn't wath deathnote on thurs at al.. rofls.. bt well.. i already made an appointment wid my pri besties so i can't possibly watch wid em oso.. anw.. fri i woke up lyk at 9.30 and en off i went to woodlands lib to study.. and oh my by th time i reach ther it was lyk 11 and th lib opens at 10 bt guess wat almost al th tables are filled wid ppl studyin already.. omg.. u c how every1 is tryin to mug for their studies.. well.. managed to find a table and started on my chem bt aft awhile saw timothy and john tan and they cldn't find a table to study so they came to join.. and en aft dat instead of studyin we juz toked.. lols.. oh well.. quite interestin ppl oso.. bt i can't help feel lyk slappin timothy everytime when i rmb wat simwenqi said bout him sayin bout th 29o4 gurls.. he can seriously go screw himself lurhs.. well.. aft studyin and had lunch at bk.. and guess wat.. I ATE MY FIRST EVA TOMATO ON 20OCT'O6! rofls.. hahas.. it was actuali in th whopper burger and well i was uh.. encouraged to eat b4 i'm labelled as a suaku by sum dumb idiot agn.. lols.. so well.. decided to try it.. and actuali th taste ok la juz dat i stil dun lyk th veri mushy texture it stil abit revoltin bt for th sake of beautiful skin i shall start learnin how to eat tomatoes.. oh well.. anw.. went to woodlands bus interchange to look for th bus dat goes to meridian jc.. and wth.. is lyk dun haf lurhs.. stupid hong lao shi told siying they al dat woodlands gt a straight bus to meridian and it onli takes half an hour.. so much for believin her.. =.= oh well.. so tok a train to khatib and took 39 over instead.. and well.. reali quite fast lei.. hahas.. went into meridian without a visitor pass! hahas.. i was trespassin their sch lurhs.. lols.. wandered ard th whole sch and oh my.. is seriously nice la.. i lyk their colour combination.. blue and white altho it isn't reali th shade of blue dat i lyk bt well.. is stil blue! hahas.. so yes yes.. if i can get ppl to acc me to meridian i guess i'll prolly spend my first 3mths ther.. yepp.. so i beta start prayin dat i haf gd psychoin powers to psycho along ppl wid me to get into meridian.. hahas.. oh well.. and realise pasir ris beach was kinda near meridian jc so went over pasir ris beach to haf a walk and to blow th breeze.. awww.. it made me feel soso much beta and of cuz relax and of cuz pasir ris park changed alot alot ever since th last time i stepped in ther was lyk kindergarten2? oh my.. it looks lyk it has shrunk.. ): oh well.. blame singapore for th land constraints.. lols..

so ytd went grp studyin wid lowminmintwinaiaiahmaneopoohead.. well.. for th first time i didn't haf to get to khatib instead they came over to woodlands! hahas.. ok.. cuz they wanna watch th movie deathnote ma.. oh well.. en went they 4 went to watch i was left alone cuz initially ask fiona to pei me watch robbhood bt looks lyk her mum is so bent on nt lettin her get out of her hse and instead she was scolded.. sori fiona.. :/ anw.. aft dat huibin and her fren so coincidentally came to bk as well.. ahhas.. so i sat wid them to study.. and seriously, they're smart ppl la.. so gt them to help me wid sum amath! (: hahas.. and seriosuly, i haf low work efficiency i spent lyk 4hrs to do an amathpaper and i haven't even finish.. wth.. and amath paper duration is lyk onli 2hrs? omfg?! *faints.. went hme for dinner aft dat altho i tot i cld stay out abit ltr cuz daddy was in kl.. hahas.. oops.. bt nah.. went hme instead..

and today when i saw my church frens.. ohmy.. they reali al look so stress lei.. stress written ard al their faces.. well.. let's al gogo jiayou together and run finish th final lap! (:

so countdown to th big O's: 10days mor!
and to th end of O's: 25days mor!
*quick quick.. let it al end.. bt if it cuims quickly means i wun haf enuff time to study.. oh well.. th ironies of life again.. *roll eyes..

2006-10-19T08:29:00.000-07:00

hey.. well.. juz updatin for th sake of updatin altho is lyk ther's nt much readers oso.. rofls.. oh well.. oh anw.. today was lyk crazy studyin la.. omg.. i studied for lyk uh.. fr 8.30am-1.30pm en aft dat 3.15pm-7.15pm? so a total of ok.. forget it i dun even wanna count.. lols.. cuz well.. seems lyk th first time i actuali studied sososo much al at 1day.. bt th funny thing is aft studyin so much for 1day, i feel as if i studied nth? omg.. so is this supposed to b a gd or bad sign? oh well.. and bcuz of studyin i actuali missed death note today ): twinaiailowminminpollyneo went to wath death note today without me! ): hahas.. nah.. dun blame them.. i understand is my chocie dat i didn't wanna watch and i wanna study.. well.. didn't regret it oso.. at least i did sum studyin and moreover i gt my 2 pri besties out nxt thurs to watch wid me! (: hahas.. yay.. so yes yes.. i can't wait to watch th movie wid em too.. (:

anw.. th haze lyk gettin worst and worst lo.. we went out of th lib and omg.. al we see is haze and uh.. nth else? lols.. is so hazy and of cuz so smelly and th heat and th humidity is drivin me crazy oso.. :/ i didn't noe haze has such adverse effect.. =.=' ok.. so now blame th sumatra ppl for doin their annual ritual of burnin th forest? well.. bt they reali veri inconsiderate lei.. nt dat i wanna say.. bt i bet every1's bein cursin and blamin em and i bet i'm one of th slowest hu's now puttin th blame on em.. oh well..

and oh.. today i saw ms haq! (: she's lyk finally bak in sch.. i reali missed her lots.. took th chance to catch up wid her abit.. and oh my.. looks lyk her first pregnancy was reali veri veri tough.. she was almost paralyzed lei.. and had to stay in bed for a whole hell load of 2wks.. omg.. pity her.. bt well.. at least she's so much beta now! (: and of cuz her baby daughter is effin cute and she gt a veri uh unique? funny name sth lyk nigara or sth? rofls.. is apparently an arabian name accordin to mshaq.. oh well. lols..

oh and anw.. i was feelin so down th other day dat i 4gt to say i actuali had my haagen daz treat fr yuxuan! (: hahas.. ahma and i shared a fondue.. and boy oh boy.. ain't i full.. th icecream makes u reali fly al th way up to heaven! omg.. is such a pity dat ther was onli lyk 15small scoops and i finish every single 1 of em cuz ahma decided nt to eat th icecream for dunno wat reason.. she muz b weird? rofls.. bt is oso gd news for me wat so at least i cld eat every single bit of icecream al by myself! (: wahahas.. so yes yes.. th icecream is lyk superb-de-li-cious! (:

well.. i guess i'm in a beta mood today ba.. i muz b insane th other day.. al th studyin stress and th big o's muz b drivin me crazy.. :/ oh welll.. off to meridian jc tml to visit em and guess wat their open hse ended lyk last sat.. wat a retard.. lols..

2006-10-17T10:58:00.000-07:00

i'm bloggin at such an ulu time again.. and this time is even mor ulu cuz is lyk 3am in th mornin already.. oh well.. can't b helped.. my brain's stil kinda active at this point of time.. haix.. i tink i reali nid to stop myself fr tinkin too much if nt i'll prolly get a nervous breakdown even b4 th o's.. omg.. seriously, i dunno wat's wrong wid me bt aft ytd when i gt so nervous bout bio prac and en it seems as if th whole nervous thing is startin to take effect or sth? cuz today.. when i was apparently studyin ss i suddenly felt sososo stress and i cldn't study properly and even broke down and cry.. ): wth is wrong wid me man.. haix.. i tink i'm bein reali too paranoid bout doin well for my o's i guess.. and i seriously nid to stop al these b4 is gonna gif me a "dream" uh mor lyk a nightmare cum true.. :/ and i'll reali do badly for my o's.. haix..

and omg.. olvl bio prac today was apparently ez? bt i screwed up th whole damn fuckin thing la.. wth.. can u bliff it.. pure bio actuali test u on osmosis?! =.-" and th worst thing is i dunno how to do osmosis.. i actuali 4get how to count properly.. ): i can reali go and bang th wall and juz drop dead and die.. wth.. so th whole qn is lyk 20marks which take up 50% of th total marks already.. haix.. so disappointed wid myself.. how i reali wish dat this was juz prelims.. and guess wat al th fruit names and fruit parts dat i studied veri hard al neva came out instead they told us to raw a leaf stained wid iodine which i neva study.. =.= so i dunno if i drew correctly lyk am i suppose to shade al th stained areas or wat? bt i rmb chandra once said bout no shadin bt in th end i stil shade.. oh well.. i'm such a retard.. and every1 gt their reducin sugar results except me and joseph.. well.. jospeh is cuz he was sososo blur la.. he mixed up specimen 1 and 2 when he's supposed to put benedict on specimen 2 bt he put it on specimen 1.. rofls.. i reali wanted to tel him bt cldn't.. haix.. anw.. th correct results of reducin sugar is supposed to form a red, orange or green precipitate.. guess wat.. my result was absence of reducin sugar and stil a clear blue solution.. wth.. screw everyth up la.. oh well.. juz i'll get at least a 25/40 for this whole prac.. seriously, if i get worst than dat en i'm afraid my distinction grade for bio wil fly far far faaaar away.. and i'm supposed to put much mor effort for theory bt great.. theory is on th same day as elective geog.. 2 veri impt subj can't fail to gif up any of them.. en now how? i noe how.. die! ):

and oh well.. i dunno wat's wrong wid me.. bt i'm startin to ponder and tink and let my tots wander again.. haix.. bad thing.. now i feel so lost and confused.. ): do this cannot bt do the other way oso nt correct.. so wat am i supposed to do? haix.. ):

sori for this uber random post.. i juz feel lyk whinin and complainin.. :/

2006-10-14T08:41:00.000-07:00

well.. this was what min gave me.. i tink is super sweet and nice.. of cuz twinaiai's 1 was nice too bt well.. i dun haf th cam to take dat pic.. is actuali an orange peg wid green polka dots and of cuz si personalised wid phebe.. hahas..

anw.. today.. i went jc open hse and bliff it or nt.. i woke up at 8 in th early mornin.. lyk wth.. hahs.. bt oh well in th end i was stil late.. uh.. late for lyk 7mins or so? hahas.. sori.. so went ajc first.. well.. dat sch was seriously veri veri small.. lyk juz awhile and we walk finish th whole sch.. hahas.. aft dat al th way to national jc.. which was super super nice.. and th food's or mayb th canteen ther has super nice food oso.. hahs.. nxt stop was sajc which apparently looked so phs la.. hahas.. and en it was victoria jc.. bt it was sososo far fr sa la.. we sat in th bus for dunno how long.. 1hr? and en we finally reach victoria.. and guess wat.. their open hse is supposed to end at lyk 3 bt we reached at 3.45.. hahas.. by en every1 was already preparin to leave th sch.. and we juz wanted to enter.. lols.. they evn finish their closin ceremony.. lmaos.. well.. vj.. nice place oso.. they haf this super nice treehse la.. i tink ther muz b a hot place for students to study.. bt well.. th sch's kinda confusin and ther's no linkin fr here to ther so in th end we gt sumhow abit lost.. hahas.. we left vj at 4plus and took th bus at 4.30 and in th end we reach innova at lyk 6? when is supposed to end at 5? hahas.. so by th time we go ther.. almost everybody left and th whole sch was lyk closin.. hahas.. so we managed to sneak in and en we juz had a quick walk ard th sch bt seriously, we didn't c anyth much and i cld feel as if th sch's lyk al mine.. hahas.. it was juz us and th sch.. well.. and mayb a few cleaners.. hahas.. anw.. tirin day.. i tink i almost travelled th whole of spore.. lols.. bt ya la.. it as actuali quite a fun and interestin trip lei.. (: hahas.. gt to go to so many jcs.. well.. saw sum of my pri sch frens and of cuz lots and lots of phs ppl as well.. so in th end i gt loads and loads of goodie bags which was of cuz veri heavy.. hahas.. bt well.. now.. i'm stil kinda unsure of wher i wanna go la.. innova or meridian or anderson? oh well.. i hate makin decisions.. even minor 1s.. :/ well.. and i'm stil unsure if i shld go 1st 3mths cuz my mum made it sound sososo impt until if i dun go i can reali die.. oh well.. i'm kinda confused oso.. :/

*andirealinidtolearntostoprelyinonualreadyimsuchanidiothaixiszitrealibcuzofthismisaunderstandindatsgonnamarkthendofourfrenship?itotialreadygivenuponu):

2006-10-14T07:50:00.000-07:00

heyyas.. i'm finally lyk bloggin aft soso long.. well.. i guess if i blog bout th grad service ytd lyk abit too late lei.. cuz i bet every1 muz haf blogged bout it.. hahas.. nvm.. i stil dun care.. i'm stil gonna blog bout th grad service.. hello.. dat's lyk th last service b4 i grad fr phs.. actuali is kinda sad la.. haix.. 4yrs juz pass lyk dat.. bt well.. grad service wasn't so great aftal.. ther was reali lots and lots of tokin lei.. as in speeches.. we sat ther for lyk a whole lot of 4hrs listenin ppl tokin.. and well.. didn't cry in th end.. i guess it wasn't touchin enuff to even make emo phebelimlixuan cry.. rofls.. oh well.. many of them were givin out their grad gifts.. and bcuz i was feelin so bad on thurs.. i didn't even get th chance to make cookies oso.. so i feel so bad for nt makin anyth anyth at al.. sori ppl.. promise i wil make sth for grad nite.. by en.. i bet i'll haf enuff time to prepare everyth oso.. yepp.. well.. i dunno y.. bt i feel lyk writin al my memories down this 4yrs of memory lane.. oh well.. here goes..

2oo3:
every1 came into sch havin mixed feelings.. feelin lost scared and confused esp when u realise dat u haf no1 close comin together wid u.. so i realise i was supposed to go 1grace.. well.. was kinda unsure how th whole class was lyk.. bt well.. i rmb th 1st day in sch i rmb lowminmin and jasmine were sittin rright infront of me.. and i kept tinkin dat dat lowminmin looked lyk my pri sch fren.. same tall tall long long 1.. rofls.. well.. and i oso rmbed th 1st fren dat i made was actuali wongpooipooi! hahas.. i bet she's so gonna kill me if she sees me rite her name here.. heex.. anw.. i oso rmbed th 1st person i sat wid was actuali limxiuanpin dat cockroach.. hahas.. and i rmbed mr chin for havin baldin hair and of cuz a big tummy.. juz lyk my teddy bear except th fact dat my teddy bear is stil furry and cuddly and nt baldin.. lmaos.. hahas.. 2nd day of sch was orientation camp and cca open hse.. onli en i met fiona and kailing.. and when we went to th swimmin complex i met ahmaneo.. hahas.. and i rmbed fiona tryin to show her defination of "float in th water" to th coach.. hahas.. till now.. it is stil a veri veri big joke.. rofls.. and i realise ahmaneo was actuali stayin nxt block.. hahas.. and bliff it or nt.. i gt selected for gymnastics.. hahas.. unbelievable rite? clumsy gurl lyk me stil can get selected.. well.. in th end i didn't wan gymnastics and i actuali wanted choir instead cuz accordin to my sis, they were goin hk this yr! and bein sum1 hu loves to travel bt th furthest she went was m'sia.. of cuz she'll wanna go hk! hahas.. so i joined choir in th end.. bt sars came in and no mor hk trip.. boos.. in th end syf was postponed and i was selected for syf and it was en dat i gt closed to my 2 dearest godsisters.. melissakong and joycetan! LOVES! (: well.. we did had reali lots and lots of fun time oso.. i was oso so enthu bout joinin student council.. gt in th end aft so many rounds of campaigns.. was uber happy dat i gt in.. bt realise aft dat it was such a scam.. :/ ohwell.. 1grace'o3 didn't leave such a gd impression aft al..

2oo4:
th yr wher 2grace'04 was th year wher we al gt sososo united wid 1 another aft goin through many events.. lyk th sandcastle buildin comp which seriously put al of us sososo close together.. (: and of cuz international friendship day wher we were givin al our best shot bt it was onli en dat 2grace gurls and 2faith had a dispute bcuz i stil rmbed we nicely told em nt to step on our hard effort candles and ashley juz kicked it and when we scolded ashley, melissa zheng came shoutin and us and it al started this 2grace and faith dispute.. bt well.. it came quickly and oso ended quickly.. well.. quite la.. bt th 2grace'o4 gurls reali gt al sososo close together and we cried soso much when we were al gonna b seperated.. i rmbed dat time onli me pooipooi and limsherjie managed to get into triple sci class and i was feelin uber sad en cuz i wanted sum mor closer ppl to get in as well.. it was oso th yr dat evemeanetcheyennekailinhcharmaine went for th 1st hpt trainin camp at may camp.. well.. al th memories.. sec2 was indeed a veri memorable yr for me.. i rmb goin hk en! (: lyk finally.. hahas.. had a reali fun time as hk as well.. (:

2005:
gt into 3faith'o5.. when i first gt into th class, i fely lyk a total alien lyk i was fr another planet.. and ther wasn't reali much ppl i cld rely on en.. except pooipooi kkx.. i shall b nice.. kitty.. hahas.. well.. wasn't dat close to limsherjie last time oso.. so well. i guess kitty and i felt so strange and mayb even sherjie cuz th class a complete 360 opp than ours.. dat class is uber uber quiet.. u noe i dun even noe i was in a class or was i juz in a rm wid walls and nth else cuz they neva eva wil reply and gif comments when th teachers ask for a respones.. is mor lyk th teachers get bak their echoes.. so when i gt into dat class i reali regretted and kinda "hated" my parents cuz they didn't let me choose to get into th other combinations dat i wanna get lyk fnn.. and is oso wher almost many 2grace'o4 ppl were oso.. well.. bt i guess al these seperations reali made us veri veri close.. b it th guys or th gurls.. i rmb us goin out almost every sat at th khatib bbal court near th mrt playin bbal together or even juz sittin down ther and tok or even studyin together at buddy hoagies.. hahas.. those were th times man.. and i seriously seriously miss it alot.. bt lookin at things now.. i doubt is eva possible to eva get bak to th past eva again.. ): oh well.. it was th time wher kel and i well.. ya.. oh well.. dat's oso th past dat i reali dun feel lyk rmberin now.. ): haix.. and i rmb our hpt camp was so tough wid jasmine.. well.. tough in a way nt veri physically bt mor lyk askin us doin things dat uh.. dun make sense? lols.. well.. this whole yr was reali reali lyk a roller coaster ride for me.. lots and lots of ups and downs..

2006:
th last yr of phs.. it was th so called crucial yr for us sec4s and 5Ns.. bt in th beginnin hu wil study hard? hahas.. anw.. i rmb sec3 adventure camp at changi when i took 3humility'o6.. oh.. i juz simply love em.. they were owax so supportive so obedient and so enthusiastic.. i juz simply love em.. (: and well.. bcuz of their playfulness we manage to compose a cheer usin hollaback gurl.. and oh my goodness.. dat's th best cheer i've eva heard in my life.. i swear! was veri veri happy for em and we even won th best campfire item! (: thanks loads ppl for givin me such a memorable sec3 camp.. oh and it was oso th first time dat i went canoein al by myself in th chalky sea waters.. well.. dat experience was reali uh.. scary bt yet reali memorable cuz i manage to learn how to canoe and everyth al by myself when it was th 2nd time dat i canoed.. hahas.. well.. came bak fr camp en sth nt veri gd hjappen to me.. which i kinda expected tho.. yepp.. oh well.. and aft dat lots of cryin and stuff.. hu cares now.. and en came th disagreements and comflicts towards uh.. th roach.. so many of em started dislikin him findin him uber discgustin and stuff.. haix.. well.. i hafta admit.. en.. i felt th same way oso.. esp th way when i c him treat th gurls.. oh well.. juz dat i pity lowminmin en.. bt well.. at least everyth is over le ya? (: so well.. mayb bcuz of xp or wat.. ther was kinda a serperation btwn th gurls and th guys.. so ther was no mor playin of bbal every sat together.. and in th end is juz a miser few of us.. ): well.. anw.. when i came into 4faith, i gt to noe many of em much much beta and guess th class kinda familiarized wid each other and en we started makin sum noise.. hahas.. and i oso managed to noe leotingyu mor and mor and we gt closer.. well.. sat wid her throughout this whole yr.. yepp.. so i started to haf a beta impression of this class as well.. and en gt closer to jiexin melissa karen they al oso.. well.. had a memorable 16th bdae when cheyenne and i treated th whole 29o4 to eat steamboat at zy's hse.. (: of cuz i received lots and lots of present too! thanks ppl! (: so came al th muggings wher we reali mugged and mugged for prelims.. had grp studyin sessions wid my class ppl and seriously, it worked cuz it help me improve my grades tremendously oso.. workin wid em kinda gave me th push and th motivation to move on.. yes yes.. oh and ther's th dining ettiquette.. hahas.. we were lyk out shoppin soso many days to find th perfect clothes for us.. in th end i bought soso many uh non relevant stuff.. hahas.. waste quite abit of money too.. well.. stil rmbed it was new park hotel at little india and my partner en was limsherjie.. aft dat we even went tcc to juz drink coffee and sit down and tok.. nice and of cuz unforgettable experience.. (: so en aft a blink of an eye i haf left phs for th veri last time.. well.. i reali felt kinda sad bout it cuz since i spend lyk 4 of my yrs ther.. gt to noe many many ppl and of cuz closer to em.. i tink i'll rmb each and every1 of em for life.. (:

well.. went for ny and rj openhse oso.. omg.. i simply love rj! (: i wanna go bt th probability of me gettin in is lyk zilch since hendri th smartest and brainiest guy in my sch cldn't even enter wat's mor a 21st position person lyk me.. lols.. oh well.. is juz a dream.. in th end we seperated.. em goin up th other side of th escalator away fr us.. i felt veri mixed? i dunno if i was feelin disappointed or shld b i kinda expect it to happen.. well nt so oso.. cuz seriously, i tot things had already turned out sosos0 much beta for us and tot we cld stil b together and nt keep gettin split.. i guess i was wrong.. :? bt yes yes.. i'll stil love every single 1 of them.. (: and well.. tingyu gave me her last words on grad service and tel me everyth honestly onli en.. when i read her card i was uh.. mixed as well? lols.. i keep feelin mixed.. i dunno if i was uh.. sad? surprisesd? shocked? disappointed? oh well.. at least i noe juz dat i didn't expect her to tel me al these at th end of our day in phs.. well.. so i felt reali veri weird dat day.. dunno if i shld b happy? sad? disappointed? or wat.. and so i wanted to indulge in icecream bt due to financial constraints we settled for macs instead of haagen daz or swensens.. hahas..

oh well.. this whole entry is super long.. hope no1 has lyk grown cock eyed while readin.. hahas.. ok.. sori for this borin entry.. oh well..

*i'mdisappointedatuualandmyself..

2006-10-12T02:12:00.000-07:00

i juz had a whole 3hr nap b4 wakin up now.. guess muz b due to 3hr slp dat i had this mornin b4 i went to sch for physics together wid tingyu at 8am in th mornin in sch.. well.. slept at ard 3 last night and woke up at bout 6 in th mornin today.. ytd was reali a well spent day.. in th mornin went to woodlands lib to study wid my 4faith'o6 class ppl.. is owax nice studyin wid em.. (: had lunch and en we started goin shoppin kinda 4gt dat we nid to go bak studyin.. hahas.. so aft lyk 2hrs plus of shoppin we went bak to th lib to continue our studyin.. imagine 9ppl squeezin onto th table of a apparently 4seater table.. lols.. studyin wid em has owax made time pass veri fast.. soon time to go hme oso.. anw.. thanks alot for dat sundae! (: i reached hme at ard 8plus had dinner.. and i studied finish th last 2chps of my veri thick bio bk! yay! hahas.. finally aft 5days of studyin bio i finished studyin th whole bk bt guess wat.. i study lyk neva study lyk dat cuz i realised when i did th bio prelim paper2 ytd i cldn't ans many of th qns and keep havin to refer bak to my bio bk.. how great.. :/ oh.. and studyin wid em reali gif me th motivation to push myself to study.. yes yes.. i've been feelin so worried as th big O's draw near bt ironically i was slackin my whole way through for these past 2wks.. onli ytd dat i finally had th momentum to spend my whole day studyin again.. and i cldn't bliff i cld use th comp fr lyk 11.30 al th way to 2.30 spendin most of my time chattin in msn.. lols.. oh well..

almost cldn't wake up today for physics.. went sch met tingyu and mr choo started teachin us physics.. and oh my he can reali jump here and ther la.. hahas.. he fr transverse waves can jump to conduction and convection and en jump al th way to brownian motion and en conductin spheres etcetc.. hahas.. no wonder tingyu said dat he was luo suo.. bt i guess at least today it did helped cuz i finally manage to grasp th concept bout th left and right hand rule and th movin current thing.. we ended bout 1o which was veri veri early.. i tot we wld end at least bout 11.. so i went to msg poohead and c if he wans to meet up for brekkie or sth b4 i mayb can teach him studyin.. so tingyu was veri nice to wait along wid me.. went to j8 to walk for awhile bt th shop was al close.. =.= and so we spend our time juz wanderin here and ther.. and she brought me to th bishan lib! (: hahas.. veri nice lei de place.. i tink i reali lyk th small compartments.. veri cool lei.. heex.. so i quickly went to help cheyenne find her 2nd chance bk dat she's been lookin for.. well.. gonna if her a surprise tml! hahas.. hope she didn't borrow th bk already.. anw.. we spend our time ther when tingyu ws tryin to finish her bk and me waitin for dat poohead to call.. by en it was lyk 11 onli.. so waited and waited until lyk 11.45 i called him and he didn't ans.. so i tot he was stil sleepin or sth en we left at 12 and i tried callin him again.. this time he ans.. en he's backgrd sounds as if he was outside.. en i'm lyk u already woke up? en he was lyk ya.. ask him y he neva call? and guess wat he said he said cuz he was lazy and didn't wanted to call.. so in th end i stil didn't meet him and of cuz didn't teach him any chem or amath.. i felt lyk slappin him at dat moment.. wth.. juz bcuz he was "lazy to call" he made me wait a whole lot of 2hrs for him and me nt eatin my breakfast at al cuz i was afraid dat he oso haven't eat.. i was juz bein so silly tinkin dat he's stil sleepin and didn't dare to wake him up.. and wth.. i bet he muz b out dota-in in th mornin again.. ): i was reali fumin mad on th way in th train fr bishan to woodlands.. juz bcuz he was lazy to call he made me wait for him for nth and in th end i gt al th gastric pains.. ): iszit so diff juz to msg or even call me and juz to say u dun wanna study so at least i dun haf to wait for nth.. and i rather u tell me u juz wake up and u're stil veri tired.. at least i wld understand.. nt tell me u were veri lazy to call me and bcuz of dat u made me ait sosolong for u.. hello mister! wat u treat me as.. even as a fren dun u tink u're too much.. i was so fumin mad at u for dismissin th whole thing off lyk dat and made me wait for u for 2hrs.. i'm so mad at myself for naively tinkin dat u're slpin and i shldnt wake u up and juz wait.. i'm oso so mad at myself for owax waitin for u.. when everytime i owax wait for nth.. i'm so mad at myself for belivin dat mayb u had change for th beta.. i'm even mor mad at myself for bein so silly.. ): thanks alot.. u stil dare call me again and ask me y i call? i was so mad dat i cldn't even tok to u properly.. juz told u is over nvm.. and u juz said bye bye lo.. and i juz kup ur phone.. c.. i owax hate doin dat.. bt i cldn't help it.. twinaiai is right.. i deserve th middle finger.. for owax bein so fan jian.. arrgh! i'm mad at u! bt i'm even madder at myself even mor! ): and now aft wakin up fr my nap.. i dun even noe if i'm angry or shld i b angry at u anymor.. mayb is al juz myself.. ):

no browinie makin today cuz twinaiai is desperate for money.. which means no brownie givin for grad tml oso.. wanted to make cookies initially bt wid al these happenin within 1day.. i gt no mood to make besides if i did make wid such a mood i bet my cookies wil taste lyk bitter and sad tml.. oh well.. nvm.. anw.. grad's service juz tml which means aft tml.. i've officially graduated fr phs.. oh my.. i stil tink is unbelievable how 4yrs in phs haf juz passed me soso quickly.. i tink i'll reali miss th sch.. i juz hope dat al of us cld stil reali stay in contact.. and th Big O's are juz lyk less than 2o days now.. i'm startin to feel reali feel veri veri stressed.. :/

2006-10-09T03:57:00.000-07:00

well.. wat a day to start th wk.. haix.. many ppl neva cum sch today again.. al pon tan.. and poor natalie gt ps by em and en she was al alone today.. oh well.. anw.. th sch's gettin mor and mor listless and emptier as th days pass.. soon even th sec4s are gonna grad and wat's left of th sch wil b lyk uh.. i oso dunno.. a lifeless sch already? oh well..

anw.. today was lyk any mon wid al th math chi eng and ss periods onli.. well.. for chi went to th library this time and found lots of physics paper bt th sad thing is i can't borrow those papers out so seriously, i oso dunno how am i gonna go and photostat it is reali veri ex lei.. oh well.. haix.. and eng juz did sum compre and compo and apparently tot dat th paper was an o lvl paper amd surprisingly, it was stil manageable and hu noes is actuali a N lvl paper.. so they were sayin dat o lvls is gonna b 2 mor grades even mor diff.. ok.. dat's scary.. :/ and i reali wonder wat's wid ms kang sumtimes cuz seriously, sumtimes she reali has spilt personality lei.. when she's in our class she owax appears so nice except for th rare unreasonable moodswings bt ebsides dat seh's reali fine bt today juz when she gt into th seminar rm for eng cuz 4f,g,h combined, en she completely seems lyk a diff person.. so fierce and stuff and obviously she was scoldin her class guys.. bt actuali i dun reali blame her la.. cuz seriously, i oso find them reali noisy and of cuz bein such an irritant, even i myself oso can't stand.. perharps lyk wat th passage said, is al bout respect.. mayb if they learn to show mor respect to her mor instead of arguin bak and rebellin etcetc.. mayb she'll lyk them mor oso.. so mayb bein in 4faith is oso gd, cuz almost al th teachers lyk us for bein so respectful and of cuz obedient.. rofls..

anw.. was supposed to watch a movie on rob b hood today bt apparently, it turned out dat left me and min watch.. so we decided nt to watch.. and they went sunplaza instead.. didn't go wid them to sun plaza today.. cuz i didn't reali haf dat mood oso.. so decided to cum hme for a nap.. eh.. i'm lyk practically tired everyday.. hahas.. took th train by myself and aft dat decided to walk hme instead of takin th bus.. is been a loong time since i walked hme myself.. well.. as usual.. i onli walked hme when ther's alot of tots runnin through my mind.. haix.. so was feelin al emo and my hormones were actin up again.. rahhs.. ): guess wat happened on sat wasn't such a great thing or wat aft al.. it made me tink even mor.. so tokin now makes me tink even mor.. guess i was juz avoidin th problem and now, it cums bak again.. haix.. screw to al th emptiness and al the ~~loved~~.. wadeva.. i dunno wad i'm tinkin oso.. bt i tink i reali nid to force myself to stop tinkin lurhs.. so much for ~~gettin over u..~~.. sumtimes i can't help bt feelin lyk bangin my head on th wall for tinkin so much when apparently, ther's nth much for me to tink about.. rofls.. how dumb.. great.. i'm bein such an idiot again.. arrrgh.. wadeva.. blame it on th hormones.. blame it on u.. ):

kaes.. sori for this veri random post again cuz my mind's mentally block and nth can flow through..

and my mum juz told me.. phebe.. study xtra hard for ur o lvls ok? haix.. noe wat.. this time i felt guilty and unsure and of cuz zero confidence.. i dunno y oso.. i juz gave her a face of i'll try my best bt i cant promiose anyth.. i tink i reali nid to learn how to start to study and stop procrastinatin and wastin my time.. haix..

wat a bad day to start th wk.. guess i can juz hope for beta and of cuz happier stuff dat's gonna happen.. yes yes.. th 1 and onli optimistic thing bout th post today.. great.. :/

*itotihadalreadylearnttoletugo):

2006-10-08T00:05:00.000-07:00

hmm.. bak fr churh and juz updatin b4 i go and get my beauty slp.. wahahas.. anw.. th haze's so much beta now.. thank God for it! (: at least now, we can c everyth clearer and of cuz.. ther's no mor th bad smell of burnin and of cuz lesser headaches and giddy spells.. yay! (:

anw.. went out studyin ytd wid min eve and kel.. well.. did abit of amath and spend th remainin of my time tryin to ask kel to study.. haix.. sumtimes.. i dunno wad to do wid him oso.. ): oh well.. bt nvm.. at least for this time, i cld c effort bein put into when he was doin his work.. so yes yes.. hope he conts to go go jiayou ba.. aft dat he left for his cousin's weddin dinner and left th 4 of us.. went for dinner together and en realised aft dinner it was stil early, we bought dark chocolate icecream and candles and sparklers and a lighter and we started in th playgrd under th hazy sky.. lols.. and guess wat, we're lyk contributin to th haze bcuz of th candles and sparklers dat we're playin.. rofls.. anw.. we sat ther and tok and tok.. aww.. i reali love tokin to em.. (: and well.. i guess is owax nice to sit down and tok together and nt tink bout anyth of our results etcetc.. sumtimes tokin wil oso make u realise dat actuali, u're nt th onli 1 la.. and mayb ther's sum1 oyut ther feelin worst than u, uz sumhow.. it'll make u feel beta.. and yes yes.. it has oso been a reali veri veri long time since we juz sat ther and tok.. oh welll.. i reali enjoyed th time spend ytd.. love ya gurls! and of cuz i love every 29o4 gurl as well! (:
anw.. wenqi was uber hilarious ytd cuz she send me a msg and thank me for suddenly rmberin wat i'll do when dat time she was veri troubled and dunno wat to do.. lols.. i didn't noe al my accordin to wenqi phebe-ish actions cld make ppl laugh.. hahas.. well.. hope u feel beta ya? and let's hope dat al of us wld b able to find a way to solve this prob for th benefit of th both of u.. oh well..

anw.. char.. tsktsk.. lols.. she's so bad.. she played such a cruel joke on me la.. hahas.. u scare th hell out of me lei.. lols.. bt well.. hope u're takin everyth on well and fine oso ya? and rmb.. u owax haf us, th 29o4 gals ther for u.. dun keep everyth to urself, if u eva nid a listenin ear, many of us wil b mor than willing to lend u our ears.. yepp.. so well.. u takaire and stay cheerful alrite?

ok.. tink i'll end here le.. off to dreamland i go! (:

*juzwhenifeltreadytocarryonuhaftacumbaktomeagaintelmewatdouwanmetoactualido?):

2006-10-06T09:46:00.000-07:00

and omg.. i hafta clarify this even if i'm havin a splitin headache rite now.. if nt i tiao jing huang he ye xi bu qing.. omg.. i saw my tagboard and guess wat.. rofls.. charmaine tinks i lyk ahems! roflmaos.. this tot haf neva even came to my mind.. last time neva now oso neva la.. lols.. uh.. charmaine i juz wanna say i was juz makin a general statement cuz dat day eve min and i were juz randomly tokin and en we suddenly tok bout this sum guys cannot lyk and guys cannot lyk sum gurls tok.. juz generally..
and well.. it has nth to do wid well.. unoehu lurhs.. rofls.. i stil tink is hilarious la.. i can't imagine myself uh.. ya.. u noe.. so yes yes.. i didn't noe dat general statement made u tink so much.. ok.. so blogs are reali dangerous.. they make u tink of things dat neva eva happens.. and concludes blog entries= hu si luan xiang.. rofls.. so ya.. char.. i'm innocent lurhs.. and for th umpteenth time i'm repeatin myself.. dat was juz a GENERAL STATEMENT! ok.. yes yes.. off i go.. i feel beta aft clarifyin.. omg.. i stil can't bliff dat juz happened to me.. lols.. =.="

2006-10-06T09:14:00.000-07:00

heyyas.. i'm lyk bloggin at lyk past midnight wher is gonna b lyk 1am already.. and guess wat.. i'm supposedly down wid a veri terrible giddy spell and here i am stil bloggin and nt muggin.. wth.. i tink i shld reali bang th wall.. rmb.. i said i planned my study plan lyk wk or iszit last 2wks? kaes.. wadeva.. bt guess wat.. i'm no way near followin my timetable.. instaed of screwin everyth up.. i keep sleepin past half past 1 in th nite supposedly studyin bt ended up tokin on th phone if nt i'll juz b starin into sopace juz waitin to doze off.. i dunno wat's wid my motivation to study and do well for my o's.. oh my.. now.. i reali tink i'm so dead.. mr tan gave us tons of amath and emath papers and every1 haf finished and guess wat.. i'm stil at th 1st paper and is stil undone! great isn't it? haix.. sumtimes i reali feel lyk an idiot.. i can spend my time whinin and complainin bout th lil time i haf for my studyin and yet nt doin anyth.. screwmeman.. wth.. i shld reali start makin wat i whine cum true.. c.. al th empty talks again.. ):

anw.. these few days i've been frequentin (*is ther such a word? rofls) th lib.. bt i dunno wat i was doin ther oso.. juz wastin my time away instead if spendin my time to get mor slp cuz no1. my eyebags are reali gettin veri saggy and humongous and no2. i'm gettin veri terrible giddy spells and no3. this lack of slp thing is reali affectin my mood and of cuz my study veri veri badly.. oh my.. i shld reali learn sum self discipline to juz eat lunch and go bak hme and slp instead of wastin my time walkin aimlessly.. so at least i cld start studyin th in nite.. oh well.. i reali nid to change my whole studyin time oso.. cuz al my olvl papers are in th afternoon and afternoon's th time wher i get veri sleepy and concentration lvl is zero.. die! ok.. i dunno wat's wrong wid me.. bt i'm tinkin al veri negatively today.. mayb nt today.. these few days.. muz b dat darn time of th mth la.. is givin me veri bad cramps and now a veri bad mood.. rahhs..

so anw.. gt al my results today.. yay! mayb dat's th onli happy thing.. (: so in the end L1/R5 gt a 12! (: yay! was uber happy.. cuz i didn't expected myself to do this well.. so in th end gt lyk 3A1s 1A2 1B3 1B4 2C5s.. hahas.. everyth oso haf horx.. gt fr A1s to C5s.. lols.. if nt for my physics dat is marked wrongly and i gt xtra 3marks i wld get a range fr A1-C6! hahas.. so yes yes.. i shld haf mor confidence in physics shldn't i? oh well..

ok.. i tink i can feel th whole rm spinnin again.. so i beta stop bloggin and go and slp.. omg.. and it means i hafta eat panadols and guess wat.. i dunno how to swallow tablets.. even small ones.. so well.. i beta say a small prayer dat th panadols wil juz slip down my throat.. studyin tml wid kel.. which means i'll burst lots and lots of blood vessels teachin him.. he beta prepare 10pkts of A+ blood for me if nt i'll die of loss of blood.. rofls..

2006-10-02T01:40:00.000-07:00

hey.. updatin again since now is lyk 4plus gonna 5 onli.. and i guess prolly aft bloggin i'll go straight to slp.. been reali veri tired today.. slept at lyk 1.30am this mornin.. oh well.. i oso kinda xi guan le la.. heex.. anw.. gt bak my ss results! (: and yes yes.. once again.. ss haf done me proud.. gt a 41/50.. (: hahas.. i'm veri satisfied wid ss le.. heex.. well.. hope it continues to do me proud durin olvls oso.. and for bio.. i gt a 69 for overall! ahhh! i nid 1 mor bloody mark to get an A2 well.. mr chandra 4gt to mark 1 qn and altho is 1 freakin mark bt dat 1 mark is gonna gif me an A2.. so let's pray dat i'll get th mark.. hahas.. and anw.. mr chandra finally noe how to cal my name le.. i bet he spend his time rmberin so he wun get it wrong again.. cuz he's been callin me pheb when i told him is PHEBE! such a nice name oso dunno how to cal.. heex..

anw.. decided nt to go wid mel and siying to th lib.. went to yishun to haf our lunch wid th 2grace gurls! (: hahas.. is been a reali reali loong time i go out wid em.. was veri bz wid th jacket stuff oso.. and yes yes.. i finally gt to tok to twinaiai and min.. ahahs.. is been reali long since i toked to em.. ylk a whole of 1wk! oh my.. dat's th longest.. and yes yes.. as usual we updated on each other and tok bout our probs and bitch bout sum stuff.. oh well.. love their company and of cuz toked to many of th others oso.. lyk fiona cheyenne anet and jolene.. th feeling;s juz so great.. i simply love 29o4 man! LOVES and KISSES! (: heex.. anw.. jake victor and co. are perverts! they tried peerin into jeslin's inside when she was sleepin.. arrgh! bunch of sickos! *pukes.. anw.. i pity poor jeslin.. and of cuz lina hu apparently gt kicked in her ass by victor dat kb kia.. wth.. oh well.. nxt time.. they'll al get their retributions.. idiots! and anw.. my dear tingyu.. cheer up gurl! (: dunno if u eva get to c this.. bt yes yes.. cheer up darling! and is owax ok to cry.. i owax tink dat bein a crybaby is alrite.. juz amke sure u cry for th appropriate things.. so yes yes.. i'm proud to b a crybaby so u too ya? dun b afraid to cry it al out.. dat's th privileges of gurls.. they can cry al they wan to vent out their troubles etcetc.. so use dat privilege! (:

and anw.. i juz wanna say.. sum guys are juz cannot go and xi huan ta men de.. sumhow yes yes.. ther's sth btwn th 2 of u dat makes it a "crime" to lyk him.. oh well.. so sumtimes is reali veri xin ku to try and nt lyk dat person.. and u noe u gotta stop urself fr likin.. bt well.. wid perseverance and determination anyth is possible! (: yes yes.. heex.. dun ask me y i suddenly post this thng.. bt well.. this tot has been in my mind for dunno since lyk last yr or sth and finally i decided to post it up.. oh well.. i'm nt referin to any1 in particular.. is juz a general statement.. and ual hafta agree.. cuz sum ppl are juz cannot xi huan de.. applies for both guys and gurls isn't it?

and haix.. u noe u reali sound so diff on th blog.. on th sms and on friendster.. bt when i c u face to face.. everyth sumhow seems so diff.. haix.. i hope i'm reali tinkin too much.. i shall try to b mor understandin.. :
oh well.. shall end my post here.. off to sleep!

2006-09-29T08:43:00.000-07:00

and i juz looked at my tagboard and i saw u.. yes yes.. i noe hu u r.. my dear.. i juz wanna say i'm sori for sayin dat mean thing bout u.. u noe i kinda felt reali veri guilty aft dat nite of bbq at grandeur 8 cuz u were stil treatin me so nicely and i called u a ya u noe.. sori.. and i'm sori for bein so nt understandable bcuz i didn't try to put urself in my shoes.. bt aft tinkin through.. i'm sori.. reali.. and i juz wanna say i was oso disappointed at u cuz i tot u'll trust me.. i'm phebe lei.. nt sum other gurl or wat u noe.. and u've known me for 4yrs shldn't u understand me beta? bt well.. i juz hope dat we'll stil stay as frens ya? wheneva u nid a listenin ear, u can stil cum and tok to me.. and dun wori bout me and unoehu.. cuz we 2 are reali juz frens.. mayb sumtimes u shldn't tink so much oso ya? bt well.. cheer up too.. cld c and feel dat these few days u were sad.. and anw.. u shld trust unoehu.. cuz al those things dat i noe.. i didn't hear any fr him.. and he didn't say anyth bout dat oso.. i juz gt to noe sumhow.. yupp.. so well.. hope we'll continue to stay as frens and put dat veri bad misunderstandin bout th both of us behind ok? and anw.. cheer up! :D

*and i took th thing away to prevent furthur misunderstandin and of cuz to ease my guilt.. sori.. :\